Tsukihime, Lunar Legend

My gosh! I've finished watching Tsukihime, it's wonderful. I love the characters and the storyline, though it's a little short, just 12 chapters, it sums up alot of love, tragic, hatred and thrill in a manga by itself. The movie's actually a little varied from the original comic though. I wanna finish the comic! Though I've read all the available 3 books that's found in Singapore, I'm so waiting for book 4 to 12! hehez...

I LOVE Arcueid Brunestud!!! She's soooooo beautiful! lolz






Wanna find out more? http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Shingetsutan_Tsukihime

Christmas

Though not as fruitful and happy compared to previous years, the presents made up for it.

Really thankful for alot of the gifts, I've only recieved 2 chocolates this year!
I really love the alarm clock from von! Love it love it! Thanks alot!
Liwen & Sher's are equally good, u gals don't owe me anything, really. I've very happy with what I got :)
I love Jiaying's magnet she made herself! Though I'm nt sure if tat's me inside, haha.
Thanks to Tricia for the pens.
Trina your note touched my heart! Thanks mei!
I'm especially grateful to the plt 17 boys. I love the art piece. Wonderful :)

Thanks every1 for the gifts, I felt really blessed to have u peeps as friends. Love u all!

Okiez, next week there'll be guitar lesson. Please bring along your guitar, tuner if u have and song book. Lirong pls pass me back my guitar. hahas.

Gonna start lesson proper in AFS le. wow... It's been awhile... I hope I can catch up with studying, don't know if my brain can still work... hmm...

Thank God for new blood in the Gliderz committee. New peeps, new ideas, work more distributed! Hehe. Wonderful :)

Alright, time to slp.

RSAF - AFS

Life in the AFS is great!!!

I really shouldn't boast but it's hell lot better than Army :)
On the 1st day we reported, all of us were housed in the Air-Conditioned Auditorium, which is our home for the rest of the week!

We were introduced to our superiors, some "lucky" guys were given the post of Vocational I/Cs as well as the most previledged person, the overall Class I/C!

280++ People, 1/3 are Regulars, the others are NSFs... Lucky them! The peeps in SISPEC/OCS sure would love to curse and swear at them! None of us have to chiong sua, wear our SBOs or FBOs. Maybe only the ADSS peeps will have to, but very seldom.

Day 1 was just measuring our uniform sizes, that took a whole day! Oh yea, the highlight was lunch! It's western! Cheeseburger, wedges, beans, hotdog... It beats tekong food anytime!

Day 2 was suppose to be Sports & Games in the morning, but it rained non-stop for like a whole day? 20hrs? So run was cancelled - WOOHOO!!! They showed us "A Few Good Men" starring Tom Cruise & Demi Moore. Wonderful! Those who wish to sleep carried on, we just watch the show. Time to collect our stuffs, uniforms etc. Briefing of the structure of RSAF, some sales ppl came to market their products trying to earn our money... The cheek... NSFs earn only about $450... Don't count the regulars man, we're insured and covered!

After school went to cwp meet kang. Walked round, searching for a cool, multi-function, NON-CAMERA handphone. Technology nowadays... haiz... hahahs

I'm lovin' RSAF, for the time being... hehehe... :)

If only there's a better word...

Sorry?

I don't think it's good enough.
I didn't expect this to happen... I really don't know what's going through ur mind.
It's frightening me... I'm really afraid...
I've got plans but when I see you or just know that u're near, they're all spoilt.

I'm really afraid I'll lose u... A friend, a good friend, a friend I can share my secrets with. Someone who I enjoy, to chat, to be with, to be myself with. Someone who I really can be a great friend with... Somebody whom I really like, someone whom I can fall in love with...

If you ask me, it's really my fault for taking it as something more.
If i'll lose you as a friend, I'm really not gonna be able to forgive myself...
I didn't want it to be this way... It just so happen that u're such a great character and I just fell...

I don't wanna scare you. I know my place. If you're not comfortable, I'll be reserved...
If you don't wanna talk to me, I'll understand... Really... I don't wish to be a bother, I don't wish to be a nuisance.

Sorry wouldn't be the hardest word, but it's definitely not enough... Regret would be fitting but words said can't be taken back. I mean every word I said and I can't take them back. Just ask that you don't hate me to the core... For the time moment I think I shall not make my presence known to you... Just in case...

This feeling sucks and I wish I'll never go through it ever ever again.

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This coming week shall be a new beginning for me... A new workplace, new environment. Will be starting my "Working Adult" status. I'm now very liable for monetary actions done by me now... How sad, so much responsibility to take on...

God has been good, I'm very contented with what I have. There's nothing I would want more. Perhaps only erm... hehe.

Like today's service, men always has needs, and never will be satisfied unless he/she knows that nothing in this world actually belongs to them. Be content, give thanks for everything you have coz everything indeed is meaningless.

Feeling good, preped up for the week. Positive mindset positive start. Wish me the best :)

Oh yea, find me a better word? Haiz....

Gone?

Everyone's gone...
I'm starting to missing everyone...
Caleb, Jon, Thong...
What happened to Judah?
Everyone seems to be busy with their own stuff...
Guess this is what living in the world means... To be distracted by so many so many different things.
Even the P2 girls seems to be missing...
Enci, Angela... Seeing less of Hua tis days too...
Gotta prep myself that this coming 10yrs will be worse, every1 will have their own schedule, every1 will be busy...
Still waiting for that 1 day out in the SUN, SAND, SEA with a dash of Sakae Sushi...

It's really hard to be fillial... On 1 hand you gotta do the things you hate, the other you gotta tell urself you love your folks... Can see that they're really busy and really need EXPERIENCED help... haiz... life's tough without God... I wanna help... Jus... ugh!

Finally played soccer... I've lost my skills... (or d0 I have any to begin with?) Stamina wise I still have it in me... I love the game.
Hurt my back, got a scab because of a bad tackle. Now I know why BMT don't allow people to play contact sports, it's real true.

Tml's a busy day, won't get to drive. Bring LOTS of stuff...

I'm at my wits end... I don't know wad to say, don't know how to continue... You're like the matador, inviting but in the end it's empty air... I'm tired and clueless... I wanna take that final charge...

Christmas is coming, soon it'll be gone... :(

Boring day...

Nth to do today...

Spent the night before wrapping some presents... Really too used to waking up at 0530hrs... Slpt at around 2am yet I woke up like 8:45am...

Hmm... FIFA all the way... Suppose to clear my room but looking at all the presents, I guess I'll just clear it after xmas, it's more tidy that way... Then again, I'll recieve alot of presents on that day and it'll be a mess again :(

This is the 2nd time this month I got snooked by my parents! Say wanna go out and eat, bath, changed, end up went to the factory... Waste 1 T-Shirt... :( My folks are really busy... I've nt been helping out ever since I'm in NS... Guess tml's a good time to excercise my "filial" duties...

I predict after work will be more shopping tml! =p

Even a short while, I do miss you... Don't really know how you feel though... And it makes me nervous...

"Perfect love is not receiving it's giving and forgiving. It's not red roses on valentine's day, its the rest of the 364 days of knowing you and love someone. It's not phone calls and stolen kisses, its the silent smiles in memory of ur sweetheart. It's not a grand wedding but spending a lifetime together. Perfect love is not fight-kiss-and-make up, its loving the one who annoys the hell out of u. Do u love someone perfectly ?"

DIG IN!!! Ice Cream free for all! lolz

Me and my "girlfriend" =p

Jadyn~
Actually she's my cousin... Cute right?
Poor bear, stuck in the fridge... Must be feeling real cold... hahaaz

Christmas!

It's coming! My favourite holiday :)
It's a tribute to Jesus! My Saviour, God and Lord :)
It's a time for Love, caring and sharing.
Time for presents and more importantly SHOPPING!!!

How I love shopping :) For the past 5 days I've been shopping like I've not seen shops! Hehe... Though not really went purposely but rather go out for the company of friends :) Let's recap...

Sunday
Went service, lol, Post Youth Camp committee nv buy cups, end up I left to get for them. Hehe. QS owe me a favor now :)
Erm, dunno Post Youth Camp is for wad de... Just see them recieve the Photos, eat lunch den got GB bazaar tat's all. Erm, free lunch!
Sent Ms Joyann home, went the wrong way! Ugh... Den return back that time go shortcut super fast! But end up got squeeze out to AMK by a stupid mercs...
After tat went to pick Cherx and Jocex go OCC to play billard, pool.
Went home, den go out wit family to CWP again! Lol, do some shopping FOR MYSELF! hahas.

Monday
Woke up, played some FIFA 07. Changed, went out to lunch with my bro at Changi Village. People go all the way from Wdl to Changi at least eat something special, either the Nasi Lemak or some other more famous food, end up he went to order a measely plate of chk rice!!! Ugh!
Sent me to SAF Ferry Terminal (SFT). Book in for FFI... Wad a waste of time! Like the test was only 10 mins, but waited til like 2:30pm den they inspect us...
Book out, it was pouring!!! As I was msging, rain water hit my keypad, end up the whole keypad went haywire and it spoiled! UGH... thank God that still can use write de... write til so fed up. hahaz. Took wrong bus home... End up went 1 round Pasir Ris and Tampines :(
Went home and rest. So crazyly tired...

Tuesday
Woke up BRITE n early, drove down to CMPB for my Senior Tech contract signing... Erm, dunno why the pay like cut down by $200... But haiz, it's ok ba I guess. Don't wanna waste time le. Wanted to meet Kang for lunch but his Med Checkup so long... Carpark gonna expire so went back 1st...
More FIFA 07.
Went town to meet Cherx, went shopping again! Hehe, went to Heeren, Centerpoint, Plaza Sing, Raffles City... Like visited Jocex, Mel (meow) & Diana. Went to eat Haagan Das... The sunrise nt bad, esp the NUTS and Apple pie. :P hehe. Hmmm. Bought quite alot of Xmas pressies le. :) Went home feeling dead beat.

Today
Woke up late late...
Somemore FIFA 07!
Suppose to stay home and slack, end up accompany my fren to town on a "mission".
Went to Suntec, on the way at Citylink mall, saw the PUMA DIGITAL WATCH. It's damn nice, silver and blue, and it's PUMA!!! SOOO nice lar.
Went on to Suntec, to accomplish the mission... Walk to Heeren, get a pair of _____. Walk on to taka, saw so many fun fun stuff. On to wisma for dinner...
Now back here... sosososososo tired now... I think the next 2 days will be reserved for gift wrapping ba.

This 2 days...

Have been exciting...

The feeling of "the wait is over" is pretty great.

My 1st parade back in BB, doing something I really love. Serving as guitarist. I really missed serving. After that was shopping galore!!!

Went to Causeway point. Gary, Winson and Yi Tien accompanied me. Shopping for the items for our love ones as well as shopping for the items we love! lol.

Total damage about $100... Compared to previous years, it's considerably low. Somehow or rather managed to get great deals.

Today abit sianz, dunno issit not enuff slp or just no mood. There was post Youth Camp thingy... Wasn't involved... Felt really left out and din't felt like talking to anybody... Then sent Ms Joyann home. Went to play pool at OCC. Went CWP to walk walk again, nth much to buy....
So sianz...

Tml must book in for stupid FFI... Waste of time. Tuesday gonna finalise my contract with RSAF... Off til this Friday... I hope to make good use of the time. I wish to go SKI360 again. I've still yet to go sentosa to play... UGH... Now Jon and SQ down for NS, I'm on contract, everybody seems to be busy... So sianz... :(

Happy to be tired :)

It's been so long since I've stepped out to play! It's so tiring!!! But this tiredness beats any kind of tiredness. Hehe, I love my freedom now.

Life after POP seems to go pass very very fast. It's been like 2 days since I've Passed Out of BMT and I'm like 6 more days til my Senior Tech contract starts... Which reminds me I have 10yrs of RSAF duties ahead of me...

This 2 days of the "after life" had been really really fun... filled with alchohol too... lol

6th Dec
POP Loh! Took some photos, jump around, cheered. We're as happy as can be. Nobody can ruin the day for us! Haha. Off we went, taking the Penguin express for the final time :)

Caused my bro to be late... Den realised we're both going to town. So went home bathed change and we both went down to Clark Quay... hmm... Reached Mind Cafe to gather we the peeps. Hehe, really had fun again. Erm, next time we shld play new games, dun have to play the same ones. Heart Attack was really painful... Caramel Apple Latte Tea was still refreshing :)

Raffles hotel's Long bar was a nice place to slack... Peanuts flying, live band... Singapore Sling is actually Fruit Punch... Dotz... hahahas... But the combination of chewed Cherry and a mouthful of the drink in ur mouth is rather refreshing and tasty!

Flaged a maxi cab, went home and hit the sack...

7th Dec
Woke up at 11am... Rush to wash up and eat porridge... When to meet nick and jon.

Saw her... though things are moving on but I felt pretty awkward... I don't know is it me or her or just the fact it's both of us... It just breaks my heart to see us like this...

Went down to SKI360! Later joined by Wen Min, Martin, Eunice and Arthur. It all looks very easy! Lol. I didn't believed that I would hit the waters with my 1st attempt so I went ahead to use the easy wakeboard. Crashed! Whahahs... That was so much fun... A few attempts and I finally changed to the kneeboard.

It was really really simple. It was the speed and the turns that made it exciting. But actually it's all boring after u have the hang of things... So I moved on to the double ski! HEhe. THa'ts fun! Try skiing on 1 leg! Outstanding! For all my 3 rounds when I wish to do a ramp jump, the guy cut me off!!! Grr... nvm, next time I'll try again.

Still brooding over the earlier incident... Don't understand what happened...

Went to Halo Bar. 1st time we ordered pizza and finally not driving has paid off! 2 Buckets of Carlsberg! Not the best but still it's beer :) It didn't occured to me that it's a weekday. Lolz. So it did surprised me when peeps wanted to leave at 10:30pm. Ok, so a bus ride to Clementi and MRT back home. Was kinda fast I shld say, not as fast as driving but nt as slow as expected.

I'm starting to love SKI360... Anyone interested? Hehe.

Thank God!!!

So many things to give thanks for!

Thank God for POP this wed.... Even though I'm sick, thank God for MC, rest and free Consultation + Medication @ TTSH.

Thank God for Youth camp! I'm deeply touched and motivated by the results but I know that it's not the results that counts. But I'm so happy!!! My cousin, teddy bear, meimei, my boy and a few others... No words can justify how I feel now. Elated? Excited? Happy! Just pure flowing happiness from God! Really, a load off my chest but not relief - HAPPY.

Things change, ppl change, I've changed... Everything ahead seems better. I hope.

God never changes and I'm very thankful for that. It's something I'll always hold on to, that my God will always be there, always holding me and will never forsake me even how weak, how low and how sinful I may be. (Not a reason to stay in sin though.)

Christmas is nearing! True meaning of Christmas? Jesus! Something better? Presents! lol. Always look forward to Christmas. Have yet to spend any of it in white but really wish it'll happen at certain parts of my life :)

I love Christmas :) Carolling, presents, food, pre-shopping! hehe. any1 wants to go shopping wit me? lolz

P.O.P loh!!!

3 more days to POP!!! So happy! So happy!

Thanks Bros/Sis for your prayers and encouragements. I've finished my 24km route march in rain, sun, mud and sand without falling out :) What an accomplishment for me :)

Now I can POP without any worries!

The 24km route march sure was terrible... Walked thru rocky & sandy grounds just to get to a training shed... It was very hot and we were sweating like it rained... Then it really rained... After the rain was a big, bright and beautiful rainbow which was so clear you can really count the 7 colors! Really!

It reminded me about God's promises, that He'll never go back on His words & neither should I doubt Him... "Never will I leave you, never will I forsake you..." It kept going on in my mind... So strong and clear. I never gave up.

From around 3:30pm we walked all the way into the night til early morn 1am... owww... by the time we took out our boots all our feet were pruny and pale white... No blood, no feeling except pain... You can't even feel ur hand touching ur feet but only feel pain on the whole feet... The effect was even worst when u wake in the morning.. The 1st thing u feel when u land ur feet on the ground is !#&$#)@!%&)#! PAIN!!! Really really painful...

Fall ill, can't walk properly, can't march... 1/2 the coy same... OC gave us the day off but the School wanted us to join the Parade rehearsal... :( Suck thumb have to join in...

Hmm... will be helping out on 16th dec for last parade... dunno do wad... but I hope I'll have internet access to check my POSTING order... I hope I can make it to OCS to pursue my C3 dream, if not Senior Tech shall be fine for me... Tot abt it, considered, decided... It shall be :) God, I just wan to please You...

I wanna go sentosa... I wanna go overseas... I wanna go for a full body massage especially my feet! I need rest! X'mas is so near & I've got no time to get pressies... :( Gotta chill now... zzzz

Re Sitest...

Finally it's over...

The dreaded thing was a rather fun and memorable experience... It's definitely more fun then field camp but really really more tiring then Field Camp... And it rained the 1st 2 days so it's more uncomfortable and soggy then anything...

Day 1
Packed up everything, leaved Falcon Coy... March all the way to Ulysiss Coy, 7 of us...
Sat there, checked our combat rations, and it was a rather immediate set-off... Kinda shocked me but I guess it's better now or never...
So, 12km route march, Field Pack, SBO, Rifle, Helmet in Long 4... Y_Y
When we reached there, my boots were already soaking wet, along the way wasn't tarmac but mud and sand. I hate it... =(

Pitched basha, have dinner and watch the sky rain on us and tear down our sleeping area... =( my heart sank, cried and wailed... I really wanted to give up... Alone, with nobody I really know, attached to a coy which has a very big reputation for being the strictest and most fierce...

I really felt forsakened by God... Nobody to care for me, everone's against or rather fighting with me (fighting to be no. 1)... God sent rain and made the whole campsite Milo Peng... Though I don't show it but really I was just crying inside... I wanted to fall out and go home...

Collected my stores... I'm detail 3 - LAW Gunner... I had to carry a 6.3kg weapon, other then my own rifle... FOR ALL MY MISSIONS!!! I wanted to die... GOD! HELP ME...

Slept in a muddy field, guarding 2 weapons... water surrounding me, boots soaking wet... Mosquitoes stinging me all over through my long 4... I want to go home... "Hold on" Cry... Hold On... Cry... Slp, wake, hold on...

Day 2
Woke up, still have to do 5BX... The most amount of jumping jacks with rifle on... Everything on - including my LAW tube... 4 km FAST MARCH... T_T Came back SOAKING wet coz of SWEAT...

Split into detail level and whole day went for missions... over the 2km x 2km = 4km² area of stations... T_T
The missions are really tough, mentally, physically... I think the details are classified so I really can't share it here... but trust me... nobody wish to do them... especially in the hot sun and then the heavy downpour... I had fever in the evening...

Sleep... got waken by very cold winds... slp, cry... hold on... wind... snores... hold on...

Day 3
More missions... back up... go home... finally it's over... finally...

no lunch... no rest, no slp... rush like crazy just to catch the 3.30pm fast craft....
can't forget... still remember... cry, hold on... cry, hold on...

I'm all alone... really alone... observing and keeping silent, always alone...

Livin in circles...

Life is a cycle... I hate going tru the motion having to wake up everyday and do the same bloody stuffs... It's even worst if u're in NS or BMT rather... And then you'll hear this guy starts whining abt how NS sux or life sux coz he's in BMT...

Cycles.. I want, need, wish to live out of them...

I'm sorry if I've scared you... Sorry if I sound desperate but I'm not... I don't wish to lose a friend especially such a good friend. But it's not up to me to decide is it? I've already screwed it up i guess...

I hate cycles.. I don't want to live them... No wake up in the morning at 0530 EVERYDAY... no 0545 breakfasts.... I don't wan any... No feeling of missing of people during admin time... I don't wan to have lunch when I'm not hungry and I don't want to do all thisssss....

"2yrs of army, every male Singaporean have to go through it, get the most out of it..." what's the most? What can I learn in BMT that I've not already know? It's stupid and time wasting.... I want to be out!!!

Thank God it's just 2 more weeks... I'm very looking forward to an afternoon at sentosa, sun, sand, sea. Volleyball, soccer, wadever rides there are to play til evening. Sakae after that... go home take a deep deep slp.. that'll be so great.... 2 more weeks...

I wish it'll come soon. Just finished 16km route march yesterday without problems... Still got 24km... Finished the scariest most fun Live Handgrenade Throw, There's BAC and my dreaded Re-Sitest... =(

Amongst the mids of all this chaos, I've finally found time to do God's work... I really thank God, out of no where I was suddenly sharing the bible wit my platoon mate and telling him about God and Jesus. Amazing, right where I wasn't expecting anything. His name is derrick, gonna get him a bible wit another Christian who is his bunk mate. Pray for him.

Wish me luck, wish me well... Pray for me most importantly for the coming 2 weeks and my posting results... Thx

Suddenly life sux...

I don't look forward to continuing my days anymore...

NS sux... The whole week hasn't been good, although nth much, went for live range and passed it, slacked a lot, got fat, scare myself that re-sitiest would be on thursday...

I wish I'd be able to turn back time. Stay at certain point of my life and never move forward. Times where I did not knew anything, times when I could just do what I felt like doing and not be wrong.

Things are going way too fast for me now. Decisions to be made, choices to choose...

Sign on or not sign on? 10yrs of "bondage" or a life of "roaming"?, either way seems to be negative... 10yrs of "employed" status or a life of "freedom"?

Suddenly pilot is not in my sight... I still have the C3 within my means but OCS doesn't seem to be my cup of tea anymore... Especially having have to go through more outfield. NS is not a long long BB camp, it's not camping, it's called out field... It's really different and you WILL hate it...

The easiest way out of it? Sign on, 8 to 5 study for 3 mths and get paid around 2k+. Graduate and earn more... The other way, become an NSMen, stay in, SGT only $700 a mth and that's like the last few mths of NS and then really Serve And F***-off...

I've been enduring, at the back of my mind I've told myself God will always be holding me, but my body really can't take it anymore... I've been falling in and out of illness, coughing ever since BMT started and never for the least did I recovered... Fall out of route march twice already, got dripped and had to drink the packs... I really hate it...

I can't score silver for IPPT, I can't even count properly how many rounds I ran and I foolishly ran 7 rounds instead of 6... Although the timing was rather satisfying 13:14mins for 2.8km...

God? I'm really at lost now... You've sent me a test that I'd failed flat, now you've given me an uphill task to perform... I feel alone, I feel lost. I'm sorry that bro/sis have to see this but I'm really battered and worn out. This process of refining is beating me out of my shape even though I'm really relying on God... Help me Jesus... My faith is not only shaken, it's in dispair... Where's my victory???

Some of my Creations :)

Kinda bored, so show off some of my Creations :)

SITEST Sux...

Here I am at home waiting to go for my medical review... Feel kinda weird to be here around this time coz I'm suppose to be back in camp.

But since I've got medical review, company line decided to let me book out 8am and book in 6pm. So other than having the review I'll have the day off. =)

The past 3 days was bad. 1st up was SITEST = situational test. The test to see if u're OCS/SISPEC caliber. I gotta retake the test again coz the past 3 days i was vomitting like nobody's business....

Please pray for me, I can't eat food, can't drink much and I feel like shit. The worst thing is when I don't eat my gastric comes up again. UGH... So I have to force my self to eat, vomit and deal with the gastric after I empty my stomach again...

MO there told me I needed rest. But coy made me do manual labor by carrying stores, cleaning up equipment... I felt like shit larx... Haiz... I'm beginning to hate army...

Ok, I've never liked it anywayz... OCS/SISPEC seems farfetched for me right now... Not until I've redo the SITEST... I really wonder how the other guys can take it. Maybe I'm just weak...
='''(

6 Weeks to POP

Halfway into BMT...

Life's been ok so far. But after this week I think it's time to cheong again... I'm finding time to recover and balancing with excelling in my BMT...

SIT test coming up tml... 12km route march, whole day of lessons, night missions, slping in basha and no bath for at least 3 days again... Oh yea, there's OC night as well but I don't think the platoon has any plans yet...

Last week was very very short. Booked in on Wed, NO ACTIVITIES!!! The whole bunch of us slacking and havin fun.

Next day morning woke up for breakfast, drew arms and head back for slp until lunch!!!! So slack. After lunch was my favourite training - IMT, individual marksman training. Air Con room, electronic rifle. Sort of like playing game. Fun!

Following day was kinda same as well. Except that instead of slacking in the morning we slacked in the noon.

The worst thing of the week hit me very very sudden. Guard Duty... I had to "volunteer" for guard duty because I lost my rifle during field camp. That means no booking out on sat afternoon... Sadded...

Guard Duty was fun, but damn tiring. Especially the last shift... Duty for 2hrs, rest for 4hrs. Prowling, sentry, prowling, prowling... Nobody will invade Tekong larh!!! Still, SAF 8th core value will be applied here... hehe... Go figure.

So my last duty was 6am to 8am... That leaves me with no time to slp. Rushed back to coy line for bath, packed clothes, rush back to TFT, book out 8:45 fast craft... Ah... 1st time I miss the fast craft. hehe. Even the air at TFT smelt better after that 45mins. LOL

No time for fun & games, thx daddy for picking me up. Came home, ate, slp. Wake up to get ready for book in again. Haiz... Life in the army.... -_-''

Do uphold me in your prayers! I need alot of physical strength. Senior Tech appeals to me more and more each day... I really question if it's God's will. okie, gotta bath and book in le. :(

Where's my fairytale?

Quite awhile didn't blog le...
It's time to mark things down...

I guess it's time to start considering which direction I'm heading to. The beginning of my very own fairytale & I've to work hard for an happy ending...

Before all that I've been resting for 5 days! Almost 1 work week from Tekong. Woot!
But all good things must end & I'm gonna book in later on...

Today
So I've just came back from Army Market at beach road. Bought my stuffs that I've lost in Field Camp, finally sewed the name tags on my 2 smart 4s. Burger King for lunch. Guess that's pretty much what I've did for today...

Yesterday
Woke up early like around 10am. Played Medal of Honor: Allied Assault. Stucked at the tank level... I'm not a tankie! hahas. Played FIFA 07. So fun. I love FIFA more each year. Went outing wit Eilleen, Sheena & Thong... Eileen's cousins were sooo noisy. Hahas. Fun. We went Party World. Finally got to see this Jay, get a taste of how he sings... Excellent. hahas. Cao recruit sing song having fun~ LOL

2 Days ago
Section outing!!! Woke up, prep up, head down to cineleisure! Met the guys there, ate our lunch and went to E2Max for DoTA & CS. After that we went to Meridian for Pool, the environment not bad. Cost alittle too ex... But alright ba, coz it's in town. Went home had dinner.

Sunday
Went service. Headaching like crazy... Halfway went toilet to splash water on myself... But I couldn't take it anymore so drove home to slp. After woke up body full of sweat. Feeling alot better. Ate dinner den slp again... Whaha pigz out.

Sat
Played DoTA online. Kena owned :( Played alot of FIFA 07, slpt den wake and slpt again... Beng they all just ended Youth Camp meeting. Met up wit them went straight to J8, eat Cartel. Oreo Milkshake is DAMN NICE!!! Go walk walk... So sianz. No mj to play, nth nice to do, end up shopping for clothes. Giodano Dry Fit polo T only $10 each! So nice... When home play abit of DoTA...

Bookout day!
Went to BK Yishun 10 eat lunch. Wanted to look for Life Bookshop at Northpoint but close down liao, was told that it was long ago... -_-'' Reached home about 4:30pm... Took a nap, played some games. Went out for massage... Section mates sabo me oredered "special" service for me... OH MY GOSH!!! Wad the heck... Reject and reject... end up everyone had a great laugh.... Went CCK to eat supper...

Whew! This 5 days really did accomplished quite alot. But lack of a little MJ and soccer. If not it'll be really great! It's ok, next time around :) 6th Dec will come real soon :) I'm lovin it~ SAF will give me a nice Xmas present - my posting results.

I really hope I'll qualify for OCS, then I'll be given the pilot/C3/fighter contract to sign. If not I'll take up the Senior Tech's contract... Hmm... My fairytale in the making... I wan a happy ending :)

7 Days field camp...

2 weeks in tekong... This 2 weeks had been real hell...

1st up was knowing that we will be confined due to field camp. Next was knowing we had field camp... Double whammy... T_T

The 1st week without field camp was chicken feet... UGH! I fail my IPPT by 39 seconds!!! If i've not walked that 2 rounds I'll get silver at least -_-''

Day before field camp was hectic... Rush to pack everything... Thank God for wet tissues and tights! :) Anti Abrasion and pimples prevention =D

Day 1
8KM route march with FULL BATTLE ORDER to campsite 1, the trek was soooo dusty that everyone started coughing away... As we walked reached the campsite, 1/2 the company was dragging their feet along... Hot sun, heavy packs lousy road.

Our backs were wet and our body smelled... 1st thing to do wasn't rest. It was to build our bashas... On the sandy and uneven grass patch... I wanted to die when I saw wad I would be sleeping on... Dinner was combat ration. It was 1st time experience for me & I had a very very good pack - Baked Pasta with Black Pepper Chicken, it even has desert! Green Bean with Coconut milk! So nice.

OC stood infront of all of us and said "Something is wrong with the company..." Then, it was makeup time! All of us were to put on our campflouge >_<' We camped there laid down some rules - Noise and light discipline, no talking or using of torchlight at night. We had guard duty as well...

The highlight of the day was powder bathing. All of us were to strip to our underwear... Open th prickly heat and start pouring as if it was water instead of powder. Then we had to make sure every part of our body is powdered... my gosh... now we know where to haze comes from... 200 over people powder bathing at the same time... imagine the amount of dust from the powder.

It was fun though. We threw powder at each other. The feeling was kinda icky coz sweat, dirt all over but coz of the prickly heat we felt very cold...

That's pretty much wad we did for day 1

Day 2
Woke up as early as 0530hrs, 5BX and we had a few lessons... It's very stupid that we have to have lessons in the middle of the forest just to waste away 1 day...

Combat ration for lunch, it sucked coz it was braised chicken with mushroom rice...

We were applying all our lessons. Fire movement, fire command etc. The funnest was Arti-drill... When someone shout "INCOMING!" all have to run and duck, covering ur weapon. Then as the arti is lifted we all make a run-for shouting "Arti-arti" all e way til we reach camp. Heat rash started to develop... no bath throughout... Ouch man..

Dinner was better as we were allowed to cook maggie mee. Hahas. I actually cooked milo for the section. Then I did heat up my pasta with surimi combat ration - very very nice :)

We had to powder bath again... so sianz... so dirty...

Last day staying in the rubber plantation, tml we'll all trek to oil palm...

Day 3
When we reached our new campsite it started to rain. We had to rush to build a basha for the whole section. Everyone was lost as to how we shld build a big one. So I just tried to take the lead. I know some of them appreciated my lead but there were some that think I was acting garang. Nvm, at least SGT saw my leadership skills...

As night comes it rained even harder. some of our trash were left out of e basha. About 3 or 4 am I felt something going thru our trash. Then it came to my feet, sniffed my boots. Stepped on my legs. Immediately I know it was a wild boar!!! A baby one. I tried to trap it under my legs so that ppl can see. But I end up kicking it away. Haha, so funny.

Day 4
We broke down the basha, took a 500m walk to a malay school for our technical break. Which means to say no training, no combat rations, no need to dig hole to shit! Hahas. Then the surprise came, they had shower points there! We could take a shower!!! Shiok!

We had fresh rations delievered to us. It felt great coz it's piping hot. We had an ice cold orange for desert as well! Yum.

This time there was no powder bath! Sleep was jus as terrible, instead of sleeping on sand, mud and rain, we slept on hard and sandy concreate floor.

Day 5
Early morning wake up, packed our stuff, head back to oil palm plantation. This time we pitched our regular 2 men basha.

We had our fire movement test. We used blanks in our M16, so fun to fire rifle. I think my group was great. We were like the most alert in our section. 2 of us aspire to go OCS but my buddy just wans a simple NS.

After the test, we had again maggie time. Hahas. This time I just heat up my ration. Don't wanna eat maggie anymore. Lazy to take out my mess tins. After dinner was stand-to again... Power bath, Then sleep...

Day 6
Woke up, break basha. We are going to head to our last campsite - the reclaimed land. The journey was spectacular. We walked passed an empty field full of lalangs. Beautiful. There was a bridge which brings us over a very beautiful river with very clear waters. It sort of gave us a morale boost.

As we walk into the jungle, i started to lag behind... Coz I couldn't take the weight anymore... SGT asked me to fall out. Shoved me up the rover... When we reached the campsite, everyone just took out their water bottles and drank up. I was brought to the medic tent. Had to shove myself 4 bottles of water. Eat 2 fruit bars... Almost wanted to vomit... Actually I vomitted 2 times... The medic put me on drip...

He tried my left hand, couldn't find e vein, the right hand also can't find. End up he was so frustrated he plucked out the tube and asked me to suck the IV drip pack...

Sent back to dig trench... Halfway through, OC told me. "I tot u were sick? Don't dig." He asked my buddy to make sure I don't dig.. Ugh... Though I don't have to dig but I miss the fun... I had to sit there watching my section mate working hard as I can do nth...

The trench was for us to sleep in. Since I do not have a trench I had to slp in a basha. Haha. Not bad la. At least I have a little more comfort. This time there wasn a powder bath! Hahas.

During the night, my rifle was being stunned by my SGT... That cost me 1 weekend confinement... :( super sianz... Ugh...

Day 7
Our final day. Morale was high... We packed our stuff early, cover all our trenches. 5bx, breakfast etc.

Hike to old SISPEC for our last event of the camp. The BIC. Battle Inoculation Course... Rifle in hand, stay low all the time... We crawled through the 80m course... Leopard crawl, back crawl... Ugh... so so so tiring... It looked very very near... But crawling was really tiring and slow. GPMG firing live rounds above our heads... As we slid into the last trench, took out our granade, throw at the target. Rush at it and hit it sooooooo hard... It felt shiok... All our anger and frustration, tiredness and discomfort ended that moment...

That was our last event to mark the end of field camp 2006 for Falcon company... We sat the tonner back to our company line and from there it was admin time for us. :)

This 7 days had been tough.... No hp, no comforts, nobody to understand except your buddy beside you. It really made me appreciate my home, my house more. The washing machine is such a great invention... TV, computers etc. are just luxuries...

For the 1st time in 7 days after I on my hp I can't stop smiling. I read all e messages, I felt very very happy to be back to civilization... I'm very happy that i've such wonderful frens. Field camp has a better effect than Church camp I think... I thank God for everything. Really wonderful that God has save us and allowed us alot of comfort. :)

1 month has passed...

Ok, it's really bad...

1 month, not much progress... 2 months + 1 week to go, next week will be my field camp. No booking out.

Never did I expected that we'd become like this... Never...

LTC David Lim stepped down, LTC Loong takes over for BMTC Sch 1. There was a COC parade & I'm in it! Initially when they were choosing I prayed really hard that I won't get selected. But yea, drill was my strong point so wad the heck...

Irritating when you know you have to rehearse and rehearse in the hot hot sun yet your bunk mates who are weaker in drill have to "bo bian" stay in their bunk to do "area cleaning"... BUT! The good news came when we went to our 1st Grenade Assualt Course.

OC: "All COC personnels fall in... After this, you fellows will go for a canteen break..."
We: "Yeah!!!!!!! Thank you SIR!!!"
OC: "I know it's unfair for you guys who are good in drill to practise for so hard yet your weaker bunk mates can stay in their bunk enjoying their long admin time... But, I got my limitations... One of these days you will book out 1 day early...."
We: "WOOOOOOOOHOOOOOO!!!!!"

Hahas. How fun...
Oh yea, I passed my air force interview. I really had to thank God for that. It was damn scary... Very very very very scary. There's nothing you can hide from them. They have ALL your records, what you've done, how well you did from PSLE to Diploma, what CCA, religion etc.

Really thank God, I chosed to place God 1st & indeed He delievered me.
"So if God calls you to go to Africa would you throw away your chance to be in the air force?"
"If you are serving your contract midway and God tells you this is not your calling?"

Well, God's 1st. But since I've decided, I'll honor my contract and leave after that... I just hope it's God's will.

Week 3 of PTP

Time pass really fast in the camp.

Once I stepped out, everything stood still...
I'm still the same person, I'm trapped in time and locked in a vacuum away from her...
No reason to meet, no reason to speak. Just like what we've predicted...
You may forget about it, I know I won't... No at least until I die... Look at what we've become...
God! Why this torture?

"I love you... I always will... No matter what happens... It'll endure forever..."

I'm rejected by the Air Force for the post of AOSS - Air Operation Systems Specialist, which is kinda a good thing, coz it confirms my name is in the WSO (C3) & Pilot category. But the drawback is if I fail the pilot test or fall short of getting into OCS then I can't get into the Air Force no matter wad...

I want to carve out my future, what I feel will be good for me... I am held back by my values - to allow God to lead me... On the other hand I feel I'm not worthy or good enough to serve God in His ministry...

Pilot or Teacher? I have until monday to think about it.
Pilot interview will be immediate when I book in...

"What do I do to make you love me...? To make you care... To make you want me..."

Back from Tekong!

I'm back!!! Erm, sceduled to be back on friday evening, but I'm here now... I'm on ATN-C status... Had high fever in the morning... Scared the shits out of my bunk mates.

Day 1
Booked in, so scary, we're the Leadership & Welfare batch. There's nth to do on e 1st day except collecting of stuffs & changing them...

Day 2
All of us we're feeling weird coz there's not training and we had like 4 meals a day, hearty meals rich in proteins & carbos... I've gained 4kg on the 1st day... T_T

Day 3
Finally got training, too sudden! Muscle aches everywhere... Thank God I was prepared with medicated plasters. Counter pain... Made it better...

Day 4
Wake up with pain all over, took Tentanous, Polio & Malaria Jab... Very very painful, more aches to the already ached shoulder muscles...

Day 5
I'm the only guy in my bunk that can do 6 chin ups... Even though I'm not the fittest... Whole platoon think i very fit den it's tat point i know i need to stay low profile..

Day 6
Ordinary day... Miss her alot... I think it's also today I bought the SAF Group Insurance...

Day 7, 8, 9
Basically routines, training, gym, foot drills, talk... Lot's of rest days...
Bunk strength from 13 reduced to 5. Almost all sick. There's one out of training (OOT).

Day 10
Training starts to become fiercer... Less free times... Stupid officers are same age as me... the SGTs are just like 1yr ahead of us... I know I'll definitely be better then them...

Day 11
Was selected to go to CMPB to take a Fighter Pilot test. Me and 18 others. The aspect of becoming a WSO (C3) or Pilot was very intriguing, I hope I pass the test. I would love to fly... The test was difficult and the whole day I was out at CMPB... I miss Singapore... hahas...

Day 12
Here I am... Sick and bloggin... Have to stay home in case the Company call to check. Parents not home. Nobody knows. Haha.. They'll be shocked I'm at home...
I missed the 2nd route march with dummy rifle... I've already drawn out my real M16... I love the sound of the clicks clicks and bangs bangs... Hahas...

So... here I am... I miss ue damn much... Days without ue are tough and hard to get by... I wonder if ue ever missed me, would ue ever think of me like I've been thinking of ue...

after almost one week of stay out of "earth"

i would say first 2 days in tekong was like chalet.. what you do would be just eating and resting and eating and resting.. nothing else.. no trainings or what so ever.. however, the third day onwards was physical training and all.. now i feel aches everywhere..

pass my IPPT and also.. i completed my first route march!! things are fun.. but i do miss her terribly.. another 7 more days before i can come out of this "not like earth" place.. i miss everyone..

well.. dont think that i'm losing weight as i'm eating 4 meals a day.. not eating is a chargeble offence.. so i've just gotta eat.. think that's all.. another 7 days.. i'll wait patiently.. haha..

I will miss you terribly...

I will miss ue...
It would be hell...
I will miss ue much...

ALL brothers and sisters, I need you help... Please pray very very hard for me during my NS period. Pray that I would adapt very very well to it.

I'm going in tml... Damn. it's so fast... so fast... I hope I'll come out fast as well...

Sakura International Buffet

Family bought me to eat Buffet...
I loved it...
Hope to bring her there one day... Very romantic place...

During eating we finally had some discussions...
Suddenly mum ask me to start combine account with dad...
I stunt... Reject coz I'm my own steward of my money... There's tithing and lot's of things I need to consider...
Mum accused me of wanting to start account with her...
I stunt again... It's so unclear whether if we can be 2gether or not... She think too much le...

Visit www.leoccl86pics.blogspot.com for the pics of the buffet... damn nice...

6020 pics...

Went to Sakura International Buffet yesterday... Alot of things... $24 per head, well worth it.

Durian puffs, Peppermint Choc cheese cake, Mochi ice cream, mochi sticks..

Chk satay, muttion satay...

Abalone!!! Order all you wan!!!

Baked Oysters with Bacon bits, clams, fruit salads...

My brother took raw oyster...

Sushi, pizzas...

Crab claw, breaded prawns... So nice...

Every table orders the paper steamboat with herbal soup...

Har kow, dim sum, char siew bao...

Sharks' fin soup, beef steak, lamp chop, cream chk, grilled salmon...
Wad a great meal... There's more food but too little time to take photos...

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I'm finally passed out...

3/4 mile parade.

Thanks to YeeTien, Clement, Joanne, Sophia and Mr. See for planning such a fun filled event.

I did not enjoyed the race, coz I was one of the station master...
I did not enjoyed the BBQ, coz I was the one setting it up... Got burnt along the way...
I did not enjoyed the food, coz I bought them and I had little to eat...
I did not enjoyed the awards presentation, coz I'm passed out as a Primer... I miss the BB and GB already...

We were told to prepare our speech... But end up no time... I really felt very sad especially when the guys cheered on "Botak Chia! Botak Chia!"...

During the clear up i really sad myself down and really wanted to take a good look at Sembwang Secondary 1 last time... But I know it's not possible coz it's too late... 8 yrs in this school... From that little rascal to a BB Primer... Thank You God for bringing me so far.

Though I didn't enjoy any of the part but I really really am happy I was able to be in it - My last BB activity...

I'll miss everyone... Miss the officers, the Boys, Alvin & Teng Long, YiTien & Clement. I'll miss "lao po" & Teddy Bear, miss Pastor Joyann... Miss everyone in the wonderful family...

I think the guys might be a little happy coz no more SCL Leonard to scream and shout at them anymore... Hahas... Sorry guys for being so fierce to you all... Hope you all understand...

I asked God and He answered...

I asked God...

During the camp, before the hike...
Alone & lonely in the nite...
I asked God why, I ask God when.
I asked Him how come I'm in this land...

Where's my desire? Where's the burning fire?
The passion I had, When I was glad...

WhyI desired her? To become what to me was dear.
I had to asked I had to know, If what I think is what I can hold.
I asked my faith and my mind. They both tell me that it's not mine.
My heart is bleeding, my time is wasting...

All of sudden when day breaks, my mum sent me an sms telling me 9-9-06 will be my enlistment day...

UGH... Killing me...
God help me..

Bad day...

Delivery in the morn...
Went to get film using Altis, Wdls to Kallang and back in 30mins...

Went to Suntec, saw Hui... He's really bored there I think... Asked him if wan to K tonite but he's working til 9:30... Ugh...

Head to Hwa Chong Int. to deliver the Pocket Money Fund tins. Idiotic guard... Suppose to chang my pass at the entrace B but deny me and ask me to make a big U turn from Bukit Timah Rd to Almost reaching Farrar Rd there... Asshole...

Went home, realised not enough time to finish my projects... UGH...
Went for cell... Attendence is slightly better but still disappointing...
Meeting for mission Trip.

Went K with Eileen n Sheena again... Thong fly aero once again... But cannot blame, think he's really worn out... Somehow I got a very strong weird feeling... Very very strong... Maybe I'm wrong, I hope I am...

It seems like the whole world know abt me and her I wonder who told anyone... But so what if everyone knows? It's all over anyways... The person getting hurt won be me...

So if u dunno, don't have to ask...

GET OFF MY BACK

I mean it. I'm going to blow.
Anyone of you starts irritating me or trigger that button and u're gonna get it.
Don't say I did not warn anyone.
Get off my back...

Today was nice...

Woke up from Kara with Hui...
Went to work... Delivery...
Came back home, play maple...
Got a shock of my life... Eileen asked me to go kara...
Asked Junwen but end up he fly my aero...
So it's me, Eileen and Sheena at Party World Yishun...
Just sent them home...
Now going to slp...

Brokeneded...

Am I back? No way back?

I guess it's time huh?

I've never ever had a successful one... How come? Does the problem really lies with me? I look at everything around me. It seems like everyone has no problems with it... I guess only me...

There's alot of negativity going around these days... Ther 'JCers' are gettin closer to their prelims, probably trying very hard nt to disappoint those around them. JC herself probably's feelin some stress abt ministry. Somebody broke up and probably need the attention...

Kang had his faith on trial again... I hope it goes on well... Dreamerz been dreaming bout lots of things... Our dear botak's struggling hard for his OCS... Jon's wandering aimlessly but gd thing he's got her. Well, she's also struggling with her Chinese... Wonder wad's Beng up to, been lying low since his bdae...

Or am I too low profile? Amoungst the negativity I found some goodness... guess what? I lost 12kg... amazing? No... it's foolish... i'm being teared down by it... 80 to 68... in a week.. wanna try?

Soon everything for will will be gone... No more 2 hall home, no more car/van, no ministry? perhaps nv in my life i'll be able to have c....... I'm bitter...

This is 1 fall i cannot recuperate from... have to really say "nice one" to the devil... really got all of us... this time... Where's our victory?

I miss the BB already. Right even when I'm still serving... It's the passion, the love for the Boys, though naughty they are. They still bring a smile... though after all the anger and frustrations...

I can't forget, sorry, really cannot forget. I'll wait forever if it takes forever. I'm not unrepentant but it's not just the feeling I have to fight, it's almost part of my body and all my sacrifices... I've dumped in every single thing that I could.

Don't understand wad the shit I'm toking about? den y r u here? tat's all i can say...

Meaningless?

If everything is meaningless, if it's really all chasing after the wind. Why does things matters to people?

It's meaningless to live life without a meaning...

Thanks for the memories...

Memories I'll never forget...

15th July 2006

This day I will not forget...

Been struggling whether to blog this down or not... I scared my brother read le tell my parents... But den again, what the heck...

Time : 5pm
Venue : Outside school...

I was going to send Clement, Yi Tien and Junwen back... the 2 young ones asked me to Initial D again... K fine... Swerved...

The worst nightmare... ... ...

The whole van was on 2 wheels... Both the left wheels... the van was going to TOPPLE to the left so I tot just turn right... Who noes? It slanted damn much more to the left!!!!!!!! So i turned right.. It just couldn't stay down... I ended up on the pathment still on those 2 wheels...

I tot to myself dad and mum are going to KILL ME... den I saw the ground on the right started to draw near, which in fact was the slope getting too close... so I swerve left again....

THANK GOD!!!!!!!! The other 2 wheels landed... I missed the lamp post, missed the tree... they were like 2 persons apart only.......

I directed the van into the carpark... Came out to check... NOTHING SPOIL.... Only the right back tire busted...

I dunno to laugh or cry... I really wished someone was there to console me... I looked for God to say something but I can't hear... ... ...

Help me. I can't hear...

Almost died...

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I almost killed myself 2gether with 3 innocent people... I guess after that incident I will treasure myself and the people around me more...

Pirates of The Caribbean: Dead Man's Chest

Wad a great hell of a show! I'm loving it!!! This time round it's more than just adventure with a little love story.

Really really wild rollercoaster ride. Add in the heartbroken-ness, the heroism, tons of humor and wild fun!

Don't expect too much! There's a few shots that will gore u... And you'll be missing Captain Jack Sparrow in alot of scenes... Still like the way he walks and talks...

5 out of 5 stars.

Tired day...

... but I didn't went to work today!!!

1st off, ate my lunch, straight from the oven... den went to meet Hui for kara... Still wan to condemn Party World... The server really can feel he bu shuang... Basket, I owe you the tips ar? Got rule say must give tips meh?

The fruits n tidbits compulsory so ex liao still wan to take tips... no wonder government wan to setup the GEMS thing...

After singing went to Suntec walk walk... Actually Hui wanted to see somebody but go wrong place hor? Flip coin den make wrong decision... hahas... but nvm you still went to buy ur clothes..

1st time I actually didn't miss driving even though I had to miss the last bus home... Just walk lor... no big deal... so now sitting here blogging... this is the after life? nice? Only if you have money... Lots and lots of it... hahas...

Thank God for the rest He's given me :)

Yea Yea, get on with it...

Ok, Italy won... It's not like France did badly, they won them because of bad refereeing...

No. 1 - France's 1st goal shudn't have been... It's clearly not a penalty...
No. 2 - Italy's 2nd corner is NOT!
No. 3 - France should have been awarded a penalty when Cannavaro caught Malouda's leg...
No. 4 - The referee sucks... How can you send off Zizou??? Argh...

Win by penalties? Hopeless...

whahahhaha leo... this is dreamerz~
u had made a super super super bad decision
to let mi blog in ur account.

whahahha.....i am leo who like to dig my nose
i am leo who like to dig my nose.... shake butt

shake butt shake butt shake butt SAy~``



nah.. crap..... why am i here, i donno...
whahahahh just leave u alone~

Exciting and Lazy day~

Hahas.. today's such and interesting day.. early morning go do delivery and when i reached the place.. there was like nobody.. press doorbell.. call.. also no one respond to it.. hahas.. den gotta take everything back..

after that went to meet ms quek.. discuss about a camp that i'm planning for the sec 2's.. so FUN!! hahas.. excited.. can't wait for it ot happen.. lalalas..

after meeting.. went to play soccer.. here's the interesting part.. exciting part.. i got wacked by the ball!! hahas.. rite in the face.. specs broke.. hit my left eye.. i fell onto the fall and i can't open my eye!! still hurting till now.. it was actuallt ken who kicked the ball.. i so lucky.. being hit right in the face.. hahas.. still poked my eye.. after my bath todae.. came out of shower.. hurts like donno wad.. hahas.. terribly painful.. den during the whole parade.. did not have specs to wear.. so was like partially blind.. hahas..

went to repair my specs after parade.. they had replacements for the parts that broke.. so i was lucky again.. and also.. they did not charge mi.. however.. in the end i decided to ask for a new specs.. cost mi $60.. sian diao..

okies.. so now i'm realli bored.. nothing to do.. came home.. took dinner.. chat ont eh phone.. stared at computer.. now.. realli bored.. hahas.. so yea.. and i'm lazy.. so shall post anymore..


!!!! now the truth.. this post is written by CHERIE!!! leonard is too lazy to blog.. so i'm helping him do his job.. i'm so nice rite.. i noe i am.. hahas..

Observant? Kaypo? Nah, I think I'm a trusting guy...

Hahas... I think I really am :) Trusted and trusting :)

This whole week is like crazy, work like mad, watch soccer, work, watch soccer.... Then there's Cell... And France won! Hahas.. SOoooo happy :D

Spent damn much, the Sakae one, den Jon's bdae outing... Today Dota away $6.20! Ate around $7+ hmm...I think I am a very high maintanence person... hahas...

B4 the week I just cleared my room, nice and clean... Now it's like messy again.. UGh... Today's Youth Sunday sort of abit redundant... It's just a normal sunday service except that we call it Youth Sunday... I remembered that the old youth sundays were always full of games, activities after the service, all of us played 2gether, adults, youths, childrens...

That's where we really bond with the church members... Nowadays it seems that everyone's busy with their own stuffs, not many ppl are interested with the young ones... There seems to be a gap between church members and new Christians...

I think our church is a wonderful church, but somehow we lost the spirit that we had in the past... Hmm... what can be the problem??? Gotta pray...

My throat hurts...

1st off, HAPPY BIRTHDAY to Liwen and Jon.

Yesterday spent the whole day at home, after that around 6pm went out to do the final touches of their presents... The quality damn good... Hope they'll like it.

Met them for dinner... The most expensive lessons anyone can learn... Ok lar, not say very ex.. Dun wanna mention who, later not happy again... hahahahahas...

Went to Galley by the Bay, ulu restaurent by the sea, sort of open air with stone-throw distance away from the sea, saw tenderloin steak only $19.90... Den someone said why not go sakae sushi buffet? Everyone's like ok lor, anything... So we went... Called, asked if got buffet, the person said yes, so happy happy sit, order, take, eat...

The aunty step up and talked to us, den the most stunning remark "wah, if u all having buffet sure value for money..." 1 whole second later all of us HUH?! Ok... there's no buffet, we've been tricked... UGH... hahaas

Anywayz, we went to CCK's Kbox, I was hoping to see that someone... hahas but I think the person quit already... So we sang and sang, around 9pm to 3am... Another someone wanted mineral water, so ordered 1 bottle share. At the end of the day, the bill for the water was $6!!! Hahas... so farnie...

So this time I no nid to drive, got Lancer to sit, reach home almost doorstep, no nid to send them back as well :) Reach home, wrap their gifts, add in the final touches, bath, and now bloggin... Owww... my throat... If Hui sees this he's going to kill me... hahas.... Sorry dude, next time den K with u =P

Why not?

you behave like one, you speak like one... So unfathomable... so forbidden... UGH!!! I guess the only reason not is that you have another... :(

Been so busy...
This phrase of life sux... It's like I'm lost, flowing down the river of time... Without control... I can't seem to enjoy what I've enjoyed in the past...

Recording songs, writing down my inspirations, diarying, going for swims (how I miss that!), gym, or just sitting down and penning some thoughts...

Theses days it's delivery in the morns - noons, resting/dinner in the evening - nights, Worldcup in the break of day...

Thank God there's still time for slp... For regenerations... Sorry to all who called me and I gave "um, ah, yea... ok... bye..." I'm really tired and almost worn out... So fast.. less than a month after Church Camp... Need to rely on God more... Isaiah 40:31

Sob...

I'm in a very bad mood now... Dunno why... Somehow it's gotta do with not enuff slp, unable to please God and getting a warning from a TP for doing nth wrong... :(

Parallel continuous yellow lines indicate no parking at all times on that side of the road where these lines are drawn.

Double yellow zig-zag lines indicates No Stopping at all Times on that side of the road where the lines are drawn

What do you consider as parking?
Vehicle stopped with engine off and driver out of vehicle.

Stopping?
Vehicle stopped. Hazard lights on. Driver INSIDE vehicle.

I wished I didn't stunned at that time, that I could correct Mr. TP... I 4got to take down his license plate and name... I want to complain him...

1. For intimidating me, being sarcastic and snobbish - "I know you nv park, ur car park..."
2. For insisting that I've parked my car when I just arrived - THE SAME TIME HE ARRIVED...

I know God wish for me to learn to obey Authorities... but this time I just can't seem to let it go... UGH.... Pls pray for me... I'm so sad... affected by this damn thing...

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Jon & Liwen's Bdaes are coming...

Sure going to spend damn much again... I hate June/July... everyone's bdaes are clashed in this 2 months... There's still bills to pay somemore - end of month...

Not going to share presents... I still feel that sharing is unsincere, of coz I understand that some stuff will be expensive, 1 person can't possibly pay for it, but who cares? I think bottomline is the gift is meaningful, the person likes it, and best of all it would be good for the person. Isn't that what a GIFT is for?

God gave us the greatest Gift... I hope all my gifts are like His'...

Graduation!!!

Heeez... the thorn among the roses ")





3 Recruits, 3 Lawyers, 2 Minister of Parliament!!!

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Oh... My 2nd Neoprint... Hahs ")

An Update...

Right, to update what I've been up to lately...

Let's start with 20th June - Graduation Day!

Dad wants to attend my graduation :) Heeeeeez... But still find it awkward... So went to grad... Wore formal and everything... Wait alot in the holding area, get queue number, den off we went to our seats...

I like my seat alot, right in the middle of the hall, can view the glory of the whole place. Celestine was sitting beside me, and some super talkative NS guy chatting with his female counterpart... We all felt that alot of the "ceremonial" stuff was waste of time... That's where I started toking to Celest...

Henry, Chris & Hui behind me... Very difficult to tok to them... Den it was up the stage, shake hand with CEO of NCS Computer System thingy... Chairman of Singapore Computer dunno wad.... Must be some big shot larh... Took the folder, smile at camera...

Off I went to look for my dad, at the refreshment area... Sian diao... I only ate 2 ice cream puffs!!! And both chocolate, I didn't get to try the custard one... :( Anyway went to collect the cert at LTL 3, queue and wait again, den met Yong's CO. Talk talk talk, now sign bond with SAF is 10 yrs, but 7th yr dun feel like serving can resign... So take away BMT/NS will be 5yrs... Can consider :)

Suppose to go kbox with Hui, sorry dude.... Is not I anti, but go so far and Party World damn expensive... :( I really urging to sing... Not I dun wan...

Went baq home feeling soooo tired...

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Today - 23rd

Suppose to go Kbox, end up TRIED to watch show...

Didn't get to do both... Instead Man, Clement, Cherlyn, Joleen & me went out for lunch @ Swenssons, after that we went Milinia Walk to gai gai, den suppose to go Junction 8 for show but too late... So we ended up walk walk again, learnt new stuff... Oh ya, Shermaine, the mints can be found at Candy Empire :)

Lemon Sorbet from Hagan Das is very nice...
Joleen loves Precious Moments...
Man is hyper-active 24/7, not just when there's ppl around...
I am old, fat and stubborn... :(

After that sent them home, pick Thong up, went to chalet... BBQ, mushroom very nice... If can add some starch, water, boil 2gether and gravy it over the steaks... den it'll be damn nice... But the steaks are really like rubber...

Come baq home, bathed, blog, now goin to slp... ZZzzzZZzz...

Broke...

UGH...

My guitar fund... no more... I hate it man...

Woke up to a giddy spell, went to campsite early, dazed a little while... Service was kinda quick, probably it's pastor Edmund, coz he really speak good sermons...

The item put up by the kids are nt bad, brings a smile to ppl's face... Happy Father's Day! After service we went to eat mac... On the way a chiwawa rushed across the road.. I'd nv thought I would've use emergency brake and horn just to miss crushing the dog...

Today we went celebrating Ms Joyann's bdae... At fish & co. I've become sick of it already... Spent a damn lot of money... Inclusive of present - a Tiara, chocolates and dinner...

Total damage $80+
Time to really get stingy...

gliderz $41.92
DVD $4.50
Mt. ophir nid to claim $19
Junwen owe me $25

Total: $90

Owe jon $10
Owe beng $6

Guitar fund left: $74
Sob...

Siiiiiiaaaaaaannnnnn diiiiiaaaaooo....

So much for being smug...

Today went to sch for soccer session...

Scored a Thierry Henry, den did a Joe Cole... QS complain that I very solo... After that I try nt to touch ball le...

I think I've improved... probably learnt quite a few stuff after seeing world cup... Robin Van Persie is arrogant... VERY arrogant... After he scored that free kick, all the stunts come out...

Christiano Ronaldo is a useless idiot... I've proved my point for like soooooo many times, yet ppl still think he's good... Yea he can twinkle toes around the pitch but wad for? So many times he dribble pass the defender, doesn't look up, anyhow hantum thinking the ball will somehow land near his colleagues... And you guys noe why he take free kicks? HE CAN'T SHOOT STRAIGHT... The 2nd free kick against Iran can show... the ball just swerve left to right and den miss everyone and the goal... He shld thank God his penalty went in, it's just happens that it's hard and fast...

After soccer, bath, change get ready for parade, sat one area play with guitar, a group of gers walk pass - "That guy playing guitar so shuai..." I stunned... Of coz I "um chio" I think I also face red... Felt so smugged...

Brought Nick, AC n Teng Long to eat lunch at office, still love the chicken rice there... No other will do, not even loy kee... Then drove them round the industrial area, think they were surprised that so many big names were located there... :)

Baq to parade, slack ard til lessons over, led the company warm up den dodgeball :) IT WAS FUN... But I think need more time and smaller area...

Den went to JJRG, Eileen!!!! UGH.. want to kill u... "Did you put on erm..." rocking her hands under her chin... "...Fats?" !?!?!?!?!!! My gosh... how can u?? siiiiiiiiiaaaaaaaannnnnn dddddiiiiiiiaaaaoo... Wad a day... Long time nv see Gerlind le, think she lost weight again... Must be the stress.... den saw them work like nt happy also... haix... wonder will it be different if under my management? hahas... dreaming again =p

I'm an idiot...

I told myself to save up for the guitar... Even if nth to eat also must save for guitar...

Went to CWP to deposit the cash... Ok, got $170+ set aside for guitar... Went around walk walk... Enter the guitar shop... talked to my fren, told me that I shldn't have glued my bridge... yea yea, same for everyone... Told me that lately nobody buying drumsticks so no stock for those high end ones... okiez, gotta go to plaza sing to find...

Walk, walk walk, den enter the computer store... GSS... Saw this cool computer casing, square one, black one, about the size of my monitor... Den got a tempreture monitor outside.. so cool... Den.... I see it... Kingston RAM... 512MB PC3200... $85... I just whack and went out of store and drove baq home...

Ok, that was rash... Nvm... Gliderz have to claim $41 + $4.50, there's gonna be $30 refund from Church Camp... That'll make up for the RAM... :(

Back from Church Camp 2006

Yay! It was a refreshing camp, really learnt alot of new stuffs... Can sort of called soul-reviving...

Day 1

The bus ride was soooooo long, we've lost our way and I thought that we're going to be late, esp the opening and Icebreaker. Guess what? It's God's marvelous plan again! Before our camp was another church camp in the resort, they checked out late, those in the bus, God lead us to "lost" our way... Those driving were caught up in a massive jam! When we reached there those drove just arrive behind us. Amazing!

So our opening ceremony was pushed backed, we had lunch 1st instead, den come back for Icebreaking. Lunch was not bad, except that there were lots and lots of flies... Den it was back to the hall... I know my Icebreaker sort of sux, 8 people had to eat whole lemons WITHOUT having any facial expressions!!! Eww... HAHA... Lounge very cold... hmm....

Den the next part, Persuasion, I
think it would've worked better if there were some changes... But still I hope I get my message across. There might be alot of nice words, nice stories very easy to accept, but there's only ONE Truth, sometimes it may sound rebuking, it may be hard to accept but it's still the Truth, we're all sinners and need God.

Then, it was line dancing, I surely knew that not everyone will dance... Louge was quite cold,
but still it went on... I sure would love to watch the video of the guys behind playing a fool... I wished soooooo much I was one of them instead of one of those performing...

After that we went to check in, as we walked down there was the flying fox area, up the tree hse, down by the fox... One by one we played, den Cherie play stun, she released at the end and flew down the hill... !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! shock of my life... I thoght we going to need to call ambulance... Thank God nth happened... went to our bunks dem... flies infested our door mat, flies in the room, in the OPEN AIR toilet, almost everywhere... I just took a rest, supposedly to rehearse for my worship session but den due to lack of time helped setup the instruments and equipments instead.

Then we went for dinner, this time inside the restaurant, still there were damn lots of flies... Change to the ballroom, it was worship, message on discipleship... The aircon was damn cold... Then a little group fellowship, discuss about tml's devotion and breakfast...

I soaked myself in the jacuzzi for about 1hr... Slpt at 12+...

Day 2

Woke up in a hurry... Bath, changed and quickily headed for breakfast and devotion... Hmm.. the team not gelled yet... Alot of awkward silence in between, only me and Mr. See trying to break the silence once in awhile...

Then it was quickily run thru music and slides... Then it was my worship... This is my 1st time leading a whole worship by myself, and THE ONLY TIME I don't have my diary with me!!!! Very scary, I was afraid that I might forget what I planned to share with the congregation, just then I just PRAY... Okies... Ballroom very cold....

I felt that the worship was ok, too many new songs, maybe next time just 1 new song will do... Then it was workshop... Not those kind of fun fun one... It's those really nid to think de... Den break for rest...

Went for lunch, at the restaurant, we all got used to the flies... Den it was a little break, went for rest... GAMES! Pool games!! hah... quite fun, I'm still fast!!! so long nv swim I'm still very fast!!! At
least faster den alot of ppl... I learnt that Ms Junn is actually a very very very fast swimmer! I thought I would overtake her den suddenly her short burst of speed left me shocked... fine...

After that, it's our bi-annual Church Camp water captain's ball competition! Oldies vs. Young Ones... Oldies won by 8-6... Ugh.. hahas... it was fun, alot of pushing and shoving again... I guess it's really great to have the whole FAMILY playing 2gether...

It was time for resting again, some of us went to the sauna, jacuzzi... The jacuzzi not hot... Den i just head for bunk and took a little nap... Headed for dinner, den back to hall for worship cum workshop, this time on prayer... then it was time for night games... I cudn't join my grp... i was
one of the station... the screwed up station... one deck of cards 4 teams waiting... how to finish? haiz.. nvm...

Eh... I think it was games 1st den worship/workshop... hmm.. getting old... Nvm, after that we had alittle grp time again, den went baq to slp... This time no jacuzzi... just shower and slp... Cudn't slp coz Yi Herng took my space, I slpt on the sofa instead... =( I went out to the Flying Fox area, climbed up and tried to play but so dark, soo scary... Walked one round den I went baq to bed....

Day 3

Woke up, went to eat, devotion, worship/workshop on worship... Den we had lunch... Den rest, den games... Our group won!! hahas... fastest timing! After games went for rest again, den get ready for Praise and Worship session...

The ballroom was very cold... <- remember this line.....? After dinner, it was a little special nite... Why special? Coz instead of white rice we had fried rice! Hahas, of coz not lar... But I found it funny so just crack the joke... Den on to lead my 1st game, the "write something nice about you..." game... Haha, hilarious... I'm such a genius to plan this game! Haha.. no la, thank God, all glory to God coz He lead me to plan this game... I like my comments for me... Somebody wrote "sings well..." dunno who write de, sounds like an adult... HEEEZZZ... made me so "smuggy"... den there's "Great musician... Have talent to lead worship" also dunno by who... Of coz those younger ones dunno how to look for good points to write, got comments like "helpful & friendly" so general... Den Cherie!!! ugh... write so simple stuff... walau... hahas... nvm, I also last min den write urs de... lol... After my event was the really special stuff... The line dancing... Finally I can dance the whole thing... Still the guys were playing a fool... it must be really fun... ugh... no choice... who ask me to be in games comm... nvm.. Den the Praise & Worship... Aircon cold... I LENT Cherie my S&K Denim Jacket, my precious jacket..... I was the drummer... Alot ppl share, suddenly Mr. Martin play stunt... Tell story like youth camp de... Soooooooo long!!! Sooooooo cold!!! I was shivering.... Mr. See behind me laughing at me.... Shivering.... Hands numb, face muscle twitching... Den finish story... Time to play! WAH SEH!!! I asked God to gimme strength... I was shivering as I was playing... Thank God for controlling me... I ask God "Lord, if u're not with me I won't play, pls use me as Your instrument..." Really thank God I didn't screw up the song I screw up the most during rehearsals... Not a beat out of timing... hahs... After we prayed I dash for the exit... jumping up and down... UGH... hahas... sooo cold... Den we headed for our bunks, I packed my luggauge, took a rest, watch TV.. From no where 2 gers popped out from the room behind... Wah seh!!! So dangerous, we could've been changing our underwears and they just popped out without warning!!! Hahas.. thank God none of us were doing anything, just eating maggi and slacking ard... I went to soake myself in the jacuzii hoping that they will leave soon and practise for Beng's closing... Den when I come out they were still there... Ba Zhan the guitar... fine, I'll play with them... hahas, we ended up trying to make all songs "MaMoMe" compatible... lol... it was damn hilarious... "In the stars His handiwork I see~ MaMeMaMeMo~" & Amazing Grace in MaMeMo version... So fun... QS maligned me again... wad womanizer.... I think he's just jealous... JEALOUS... bleah... Den they finally went baq... I can finally practise my Consuming Fire and Bright Morning Star... Went to slp quite late...

Day 4

Woke up quite early coz toooooooooooo cold... 6am I think.. Took a bath and
shut off all the aircon, open the main door... Lay on the sofa and dozed off...
Thks QS for ur blanket BUT I'm already awake!!!

Packed everything, dragged the luggauge, have breakfast, all the while they
serve omellettes for free but nobody except me ordered it.. hahas.. so funny...
Everyone was like asking how come u have special de? Coz I special ma.. God
loves me ma, u all having cool food, only mine is smoking hot... hahahs... I did
asked u all to order but nobody order so fine lor... Nice, the only thing no
nice is the chicken inside, too tough le.. if not the 1st day de is magnific
:)

Went up, this time, I'm wearing my jacket! =p den Cherie sitting infront of
me coz become projectionist... Den as I was playing the last song, "MaMoMe" came
out lolz.... I was like wanting to laugh but it's a worhship... =D

After everything, news of the bus was delayed 45mins, den we played pool, I
was playing the guitar... Went to look for place that sells gum... this is the
2nd time I cudn't get gum to chew! Spoil my tradition... Fine... Den comes the
bus, it's by 2nd link... No chance to buy still... forget it, just keep the
ringghit...

The bus send us home to Semb MRT, took a loong route... UGH... fine... Had
lunch at Mac, I think everyone craved for mac at that moment.. dunno why also...
hahs.. took cab to office, drove baq home.. hahs.. Sleep until today morning..
18hrs of slp... hahas..... so shiok.. :)

I've got SCV!!!

Haha... Finally after a long long time, I've got cable TV again!! HEez.. used to have it when I was in pri sch, lost it after I couln't control myself and played $2000++ worth of called in games =x

My $70 ang bao was not even enough to pay my parents... I think they had the shock of their lives.. haha... I think I really did bad that time... imagine, $2k+ although at tat time cannot get a laptop but still at least a big TV...

Now, I'm more sensible :) and of coz SCV dun offer this kind of services anymore, so my parents just get it just for??? US! For us to stay home and watch the world cup! Sooooo that we'll have 1 less reason to stay out late :)

Thank God for that, more time to spend with dad and mum :)

Tml's church camp 06, really eager to go, but wished I had more time to slack ard and prepare, esp my next day worship... felt like it's very sudden... well, at least the games I only have to rely on what I bring :)

Look out for moi in the camp! I'll be ur disaster! hahas...

Jealous!!!

Ugh... from the laptop, to LCD TV, fish pond, to bathroom, it's all sooooooooooooooooooooo nice... Ok, maybe not jealous, envious the more "nicer" word...

Cherie's hse at Holland V, really is different... Very convenient carpark, once exit is the main road, the lot is beside the lift, don't have to go by main door, the corridor can come in to the living room...

The pond is just at the living room, very nice... Her bedroom just overlooks the pond!!! ugh.... Can lay on the bed and watch the fishes... Living room split into 2 with the dining area dividing it, each part has an LCD TV!

Ugh... ugh, ugh... hahs... so nice... hopefully in future my home will be BETTER =p

Maligned...

QS says I'm a womanizer... wad the heck?

I'm already fed up with having soooooo many rejections... How can I be a womanizer?????? ugh...

Last night celebrated Caleb's farewell, not bad, xept the pasta was abit tastelese... The meat I cook was overcooked, salty and the drumstick not cooked... Haha... At least the hotdogs came out right...

We had durian and honey dew for deserts... Nick was sharing his experience with us about NS, alot of things for Caleb to take note...

After that went to Jon's place for mahjong and "tah" a glass of red wine... The wine was dry at 1st, after that it became smoother and smoother, very rich and fragrant... Nice...

1 round of MJ went home straight... Thank God I was still sober... if not I would've to stay at Jon's place... crowded like mad... hah...

I'm back!!!

Really thankful to God for allowing such a wonderful trip :)

Alot of things I've learnt, really to rely on God's strength, the more I try to use my own strength, the more I hurt myself... Prepared Gortex boots but end up hurt my pinkies & toes, still twisted BOTH my ankles, busted my right knee and both thigh were hardened and hurt like mad. Brought 100Plus and Red bull, end up still have not enough energy to climb "properly". Brought Sunscreen but forgot to use, end up sun burnt... Haha, I was the joke of the day...

The climb to checkpoint 4 was rather short. Sad to say we left Jiawei behind with Mr. Tan, we had to sacrifice him coz he couldn't take it to CP1...

We set up camp at CP4, the water was great, crystal clear, icy and refreshing! The air was crisp and cool, very fresh and relaxing.

Dinner was rather light. Din't start a campfire, too much wood to find...
Started packing for sleep. Because not everyone was with us we had to sacrifice one tent, left with one tent to squeeze in 10 people.

I was the 1st few inside, quite comfortable, ended up at the legs of everyone else, ended up slping outside the tent - u're really quite a damn selfish person... Really a boot licker, I open up to get my things you make damn much noise, Mr. Tay shine light on u guys for fun nv say anything....

Early morning pack light, leave camp with Darren behind looking after... I lagged behind... At CP-KFC i really wanted to give up... I wanted to stay there and wait for them... Our guide told us CP7 is only 5mins away so I just go... suddenly it's 30mins, still middle of no where...

I saw the path ahead, I wanted to faint... I asked God to give me strength and I tried to push on. When the reached the CP, I was still climbing like mad... Guess wad? It's only CP6... Our guide lied... UGH! I just told them I want to give up...

Mr. Tay said "Liwen they all also reached the summit, you want to give up?"

Okaaay.... Fine....... I guess 2 more CPs won't die... Little would I expect it to be sooooooo tough.
After a few climbs of only ROPES & ROCKS, I really drag myself - HANDS & KNEES... I was crawling! Towards Bukit Botak I kept trying to push on, I was frustrated and was like "To hell with it!!!" trying to push, but still I had to stop after every few climb...

It's then, I realised I rely too much on myself, I really thank God that Jonathan helped me carry my pack. I had an easier time climbing without it, I started to sing praises, asking God to be with me. From then on, I was no longer dizzy or short of breath, i was cruising for quite some time

We reached the summit!!! WOOHOO!!! The air was really clean, it was kinda dry though. The view was great! I forgottened all my sprained ankles and "sogginess", suddenly there was air-con. clouds came by, the sun shone mightily, God's presense with all of us! Really beautiful.

Lunch at the top, den it was time to come down... Maybe I rested enough at the top. But most probably it's God's strength, I was the 1st few to rush down back to CP4 with my backpack.

We started bathing, it was really really refreshing! I soaked my sorrowful feet in the icy cold waters, natural water have healing properties i guess, no pain after the bath... Cook dinner, we tried to finish what we have, powder up started a fire and went to slp..

Few of us slpt outside, the tent was free, it was shiok.. The weather became very cold... I didn't want to use the slping bag coz I want my pillow... But still it was too cold... In the middle of the night i was coughing, snoring, coughing... Den I cudn't feel my legs! Moved them, and I thought I'd be fine in the morning...

Well, I was wrong! I couldn't stand when I wake up, I was not ready to go... It's a steep and long way down... So we started packing the stuff... Started with prayer and moved off... I was without shirt, only a jacket on...

Arh arh arh every step I took walking downwards... The guys made fun of me but I just thank God, I wasn't the one who fell, I didn't have not enuff water. I NV drank any river water...

I sweated as if I just bathed, I wished I can slide down or something... Every single step I take, killed me... I counted how many times I twisted my left ankle... 5 painful times... 1 time on the right...

I just thank God he brought me back alive... Really greatful, throughout he held the weather for us, he brought us up and down safely, the decisions made were foolish at 1st but became clear after we've seen His plans... It's really marvellous to see God's plans unrevelled slowly before our very eyes.... I love it! Thank God!!!