Alone...

Well... seems like ppl will misunderstand if I use the word ALONE... it ain't LONELY... I can be happily alone...

Why alone? Coz ppl around me seems to be on a different frequency level... Either think they are too matured for me or I'm too boring to be with... Come to think of it, why am I boring???

Sometimes it ain't that I'm boring... Just so happens the things I would like to do you guys wouldn't do it... Take for example... Dreamerz has a phobia of going to kbox if I would be going... (aww.. tat's super sad...) I would swim everyday if I can... (no1 will follow me for tat...)

Go canoeing? Go ECP? ah... wadever activities I name u all won't follow wan lah... anywayz now in mac... kinda uneasy letting ppl see wad I type.. kekeke... anyway ppl can read when I publish...

TGIF!

Thank God! nice day today.... Y.E.S 933 really plays alot of nice songs... still struggling with not able to be with my E700 :(

Well... lots to thank God for...

1. Good working environment.. can relac in MY office ALONE when no more work....
2. Good supervisors... Understanding and very kind... always wan me to go lunch breaks and tea breaks... kekeke...
3. Little or less jobs to do... well... compared to Pravin and Terry... kekeke...
4. A lousy HP tat can listen to radio...!
5. Today's story about why we should be happy... not dwelling in the past stuffs... treasure the happiness we have now...
6. Tat we're still friends...
7. Tat I still got friends...
8. Tat I still have brothers and sisters...
9. Thank God for providence... food, money, transport, convenience etc.
10. That I got a brain to think and this character that He gave me so that I am firm in my faith...
11. That today is friday and monday's a holiday!!!

Woot... the list goes on and on.. but got wad I want to say le.... Really a wonderful day for me... really get to know some friends... i'm kinda like looking forward to go to work everyday... so fun...

When shopping at Jurong point... met Cherie on the way... kekeke... met up with Henry... reach home and sang like mad!!! so shiok... jajaja.... =p TGIF!

Really alone in this universe...

Wow... damn... really felt so alone... other than having God, there's no1 with me in my league of life right now....

Nvm... used to this damn feeling... come to think of it I find it shiok.. maybe I'm crazy already or there's something wrong with my brains or heart or \/\/adever...

Wake up early early this morn.... went to work ALONE... walk to work ALONE not because they pang seh but kena dispatched to JBL liao... ALONE... supervisor sent me to JBL... yea... at least can dine with hui everyday! whaha... still work ALONE....

Work was fun, but kinda boring after awhile... I'm IN CHARGE of engraving things =D IN CHARGE... whaha.... whole company I IN CHARGE lolz... so good... but den engraving 100 pcs of the same thing ain't tat fun... my... so monotonuous... cannot bring mp3 or discman to listen... haiz... sang to myself ALONE... at least after finishing 100 pcs of SAR 21 related part I can go in air-con room and be an executive.. just tat no computer only... the whole office is mine! whahaha... eat drink sing shout ALONE... no1 can stop me from doing anything.. so nice... as long as I do my filing den ok liao... YES!

When on board MRT ALONE..... sat at a corner ALONE... hahax... was too busy rushing the cell's homework, refer to bible, tinking the answers.. den never realise all the while Joan Lim was sitting beside me! lolx... chatted and such... my.. she looks so diff... can't figure out wad.. maybe she's wearing skirt, not use to it =x !

Cell was kinda short... dunno why... maybe perhaps my brothers were LATE... hey, I made the damn effort to come as early as I can.... den you all made us wait... fine... No1 wans to volunteer for Youth camp? fine.... dun wanna own up that you've sin... fine... DISASSOCIATION is the word....

That's why I'm damn bloody Alone In This Beautiful Universe... only I can see it.. oh yea, God too...

Today...!

Today woke up around 6:30am... so early... yawnz.... headache man... I know I'm not gonna make it to meet them le... On the way 7:22am Jie Fang called me and asked me and told me they'll be waiting... so touched and a bit pai seh... just got to know them for a day den like family like tat... "Ohana means family... No1 is left behing..." Stitch said once said...

Whaha... finally saw who this Chye Seng was.. kinda normal... the IC for our attachment.. wow.. today's briefing session was nerve wrecking... Terry and Pravin + Jie Fang and Sherwin confirm staying in Chin Bee... they were relieved... Left with 5 of us... 1 to Tuas, 1 to Portsdown, and 1 to Jalan Boon Lay - rest stay in Chin Bee....

Obviously no1 wanted to go to Tuas or Portsdown.. but then left with 2 guys and 3 girls... Guys have to choose between Portsdown and JBL, it was me and Kenneth... Draw lots... before we were to draw I prayed to God almost aloud... and HAHA! Thank God!!! Got to JBL!!! Rifles and machine guns here I come!! whaha, just kiddin...

Work was damn boring... Kumar dun wan to let us do so much work... so we stayed in the 20 degrees room and played a fool with all the gauges... bored to death... at least Yi Xin was there to try and lighten the boredom..

After work met up wit Kat.. yea... got a wake up call.. why keep thinking about her? can't I move on, since she's so hard on tat guy... so let it be.... I thank God for this dear fren of mine... when ever we have problems we can share... always advice each other.. although I'm always the 1 listening...

I'll try my best to forget about her... Not her but the feeling about her... I'll try... Promise....

Wow...

Attachment day 1... met up with hui... hahax, end up we all work for 1 same company... including those at shin min...

STE.... damn big coy... cannot publicly say wad it does but it's just damn big.... maybe just say it's part of Temasek Holdings.... =x

Well... impressed with the coy... haven't really get to do any work... today just orientation.. walked round the place... haven't know if I would be attached to Chen Bee or Boon Lay or Tuas or Portsd0wn... hopefully not portsdown... tat'll be damn sad... dunno how to go... den also can't stick to plans i made... i can only afford to go Tuas... the worst...

miss u... for a while now...

Total understanding..

How can I not understand what you're going thru? ain't I goin thru the same thing now? haiz.. at least I've tried to let go.... understood the meaning of letting go... if only you could do the same... and pay more attention around u.... like me? hahaz... haiz... ironic...

tml's the big day... attachment... kinda worried... and looking forward.. see what kind of job i can get... saw the place liao... all guarded up very tightly.. looks like a military place... my dad told me they manuafacture M16s and bullets there... dunno how true...

haiz... dad and mum quarrelled.... super sad... over office matters.... i hate it.... why are they like tat? i wish sometimes i can move out with my 2 bros... but think of it again that'll be damn selfish... PLS pray for my parents... hope to get them for parents day by chinese con...

late le... need to meet hui at boon lay mrt tml... haiz... if everyday need to wake up so early den super sianz... hope is office job... can use net, can use MSN.... if ask me to face comp whole day no net and MSN is like torture...... i rather bring laptop.... haiz......................

really mood swing.... now's not a good time to make me angry.... sorry bros... just unhappy bout somethings... but still there's disappointment...

Fairytale - tong hua

I've fogotten how long since you've told me
fairytales that you've love.
I started thinking for awhile, I sort of
forgottened if I've done something wrong.

You cried to me and said "Fairytales are lies."
and said I couldn't be your Price Charming.
But you'd not have known that when you said you
loved me, my skies lit up with stars.

I'm willing/want/will to be an angel from the
fairytale that you love the most.
Spread out my arms like wings protecting
you.

You must believe, belive that we'll have
fairytales' endings.
Happiness and joy will be our
ending...

DISAPPOINTMENT

The dinner was like crap... 3 out of 9 dishes I can't take...

Finally see all of you all true colours... Vulgarities.... trying to match in... hate it... this is your true self...

Unappreciative... bringing down ppl.... never think about other ppl's feelings

Sorry if i'm wrong... if you think you can sing better than I got nothing to say.. Kbox open for wad? dun want to go say dun want... ppl like it there...

If you got something against my hobby and pleasure than too bad... Bring me down for wad?

I know I dun have a handsome face... I know my face see liao want to whack. too bad, tell God... not my fault...

I know I dun have charisma... I noe I can't speak well... I dun think you are any better... so shut the hell up next time man...

Yea, you only noe how to copy ppl, ppl say wad u follow... trying to be a parrot? an idiot? no wonder u're such a lamo...

All ur vulgarities... rudeness.. is this the way to treat ur brother? or be a Christian? I'm not judging, DON'T EVEN SAY I'M JUDGING because if you say I am then YOU also judge me... this is a fact... a blind man can hear the truth....

I'm not health consious... I'm serious and it's a FACT that the things I say is not healthy... I know I'm fat too but USE UR DAMN BRAINS... idiots...

Don't expect me to speak up next time... all of you have disappointed me... ALL of you...

I'm in a world of my own now... like it or not you guys seriously need to think about your every words... not everybody can take it...

Night.

!!!

EOS 350D!!! the dream camera a photographer would want!!! I want 1!!!!

sigh.... too many wants... never ask God wad He wans from me.... jeje..

Mood swing!

Wow... I think my "that time of the month" is here... haha... suffering from mood swings!
Yea, finished the new layout! still cannot key in chinese.... sadz... haha...

Thank God I have free time for resting at home... Thank God for very little food I have been eating the pass week :) Thank God for chance to excercise!

Yawn.. new album starting soon! whaha.. this time is all Christian songs :) wonderful!!! Looking back at Youth camp's pictures, so fun.. now very looking forward to this year's Youth Camp! yea.. that'll be great... though no Camp committee yet, and no1 volunteer to be chairman... hehe if got no attachment I dun mind =p Hope it'll be fun.... must bring laptop to transfer all the pics!!! wonderful!!!

Now I know why Dreamweaver so porpular hehe... so powerful... yum! wonderful!!! yea.. tml is 20th anniversary dinner... we gotta go there @ 2pm... boys report and fall-in in full-u @ 4pm.. guests please come @ 5-5:30pm.. yea. wonderful!!! colors looks great! wad a waste, cannot refund the old one.... but nvm... hahax... tml gonna be great!

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Dunno why I just find this song so nice but the feeling it gives me is only sadness and emptiness... I can't find the lyrics... maybe gonna buy the CD soon... but 12.90 for 1 song? a bit crazy... any1 out there can buy for me? no? haha.. nvm... makes me sad only...

Translation from wad I know..

You came crying to me, saying fairytales are lies.
That I won't be, your prince charming.
But you don't understand, that when you say you love me
My sky lit up, with all the stars

I'm willing to, turn into the angel you love the most
Spread out my arms and turn them into wings protecting you.
You must believe, believe that we're like in the fairytales.
That we'll live happily ever after...

Nice right? dunno why I so sad... Must be Leora....
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It is finished...

I finally got my attachment posting... Very nice letter... good quality paper...
I prayed for a good and near location... prayed for a decent providence... I prayed for a place for learning and experience... I hope I'll get what I ask for because 2 pf it has gone...

Ordnace Development & Engrg Co. of Singapore
249 Jalan Boon Lay

How the hell am I going to get there!!! Yes, I did pray for not being in Jurong Island... but that doesn't mean a few streets away will help... :(

And $450 per month can like cover nothing much... how is it that most of the ppl can get $500 to $600? Except for my class which has an average $400 allowance... :(

so much for attachment...

Yes! it's done! my album has finally fisnished!!! FROZEN! only 1 copy! not selling =p Limited edition! hehe... anyone wans to buy? $5 per pcs..

No use hiding...

Why dun tell? Why dun blog it down?
It's stupid to hide the fact that a brother in Christ has reunite with the Father...

Our dear brother was buried today... CCK cemetary... awesome place...
He died on 13th april 2005...
A Mr. Nice Guy to everyone around him... Wonderful husband I believe when I see the smile on his wife's face everytime... A terrific brother in Christ, wonderful worker for the Lord...

I believe that Jesus gave him rest. He has proven himself to God that he's great in the Lord... never see him complain, never see him sad or angry... I remember the advice he gave me during the youth camp - take care of my body well, it's vital esp during NS... bring powder for your feet so that you won't get so blisters... he showed me THE way to lay a bedsheet for a mattress there and then...

I believe that he has touched many lives... Sad to say I've not known him long enough... I really hope to get to know him more...

Humans are idiotic creatures, they only treasure what they lost AFTER they lose it...
I'm a human... If I can turn back time, I would really try to get to know him better...

I've learn alot from him after his death... It really shames me, so lesson learnt... Hope to live the life tha God wants me to live... I believe that many of you are touched by him too... here's a site I've found from his campmate...

http://izfazly.multiply.com/journal/item/35

Life's tough...

We as human beings lead a very difficult life...
We face the most excruciating pains other creatures don't face - emotion
When we lose a loved one, we feel pain, sorrow and unfair...
When we're waiting for something for a long time but end up knowing we won't get it, we feel unjust, sad and maybe angry...
When we know that someone is angry with us, someone wronged us, we feel misunderstood, feel intimidated...

For brutes, when they face such feelings, they get to the root of the problem immediately... they vent their anger on the cause, end up raping the person they try to love, kill themselves or hurt themselves or drown themselves in their sorrows...

I'm not a brute... neither am I saying I have theses problems... These few days was tragic to me, never slept for 24hrs at least... =p Just a thought... Share a quote by Jes... Very beautiful I think...

I've been told that waiting is good for the soul,I've been told that
waiting will teach me control And I agree that somehow it makes some sense that
I've been thinking that God has a purpose, in all of life's goals Whether it's
"Stop", "Go' or "Wait", the signals are in His control Maybe I needed to be
taken down a peg or two And take the time to focus on life's important issues on
me But right now, waiting is hard as can be.

God provides...

Provided shirts... provided time... provided peace... provided comfort... provided tears...
Took away money, took away friends... took away many miscommunications... took away the clashes that we had....

God is good? All the time...
All the time? God is good...
Amen? Amen!

Today last paper.... tml goin out on a sad trip... wonder where's my mood for BOTC camp... I fear a lot of things... Maybe I really think too much, that's me I guess... Won't be attending Service on sunday.... monday driving... tuesday chalet, haven't buy satay for them... maybe I won't go at all... wed attachment briefing... following monday start attachment...

prayer works... do pray...

Bad things happens

and I should learn to accept it... I'd never exect this kind of thing... I think it's a wake up call to everyone, start to pray for those who u love... answer is prayer... answer is God... just be thankful all the time...

The world has lost 1 good man and gained 1 more widow...

Movie again...

Pacifier was a nice show... heartwarming... Kinda lame and expected sometimes... I think ppl running out of ideas already... not much creativity...

Good guy save victim, victim die, gd guy injured, wake up, sent to protect victim family. havoc, den peace, den found secret, den officer turn bad guy den good guy fight bad guy and win... gd guy gets girl and happily ever after...

How can life be like tat? our lives never show this kind of things de leh... right God?

Free net?

kekekeke.... now @ mcdonalds, free net!
bad thing is only no power supply.. if not can surf til nite time... haha...
suppose to study for BPO but den see the book also dunno wad to study...
Slackin @ Mac? I'm lovin' it!

Messed up...

Hahx... looking back @ these few weeks' posts, my life seems to be such a mess... Not a very good testimonial for a Christian... but wad the heck.... I still read the bible, I learn the lessons, I go service, I attend cell group... I understand the faith, I thank God for things, I still love God, I pray, I never sin on purpose, den wad's the heck the wrong is with me? (tat dun sound like english) I think I'm suffering from serious mood swings... awhile happy and cheery den awhile sadz and crappy... just like today... laughing along with velle n sherz, den next second I'm moody and gone solo... any1 got any answer?

kekekKekkekeke....

Me goin nuts... IT2732 i noe nuts!!! and 31 4get alot liao... crapz...

Leo: haiz...
Leora: wassup?
Leo: u again?
Leora: cannot?
Leo: can.... haiz... miss her... every now and den... and I thought I was FROZEN liao...
Leora: haiyo... wad's wrong with you? eat nv eat properly, slp also 4/5hrs... why the hell she shld like you? you're so pathetic...
Leo: yeh yeh.... so wad? let me be....
Leora: wake up can or not? at least she's still your fren...
Leo: yeah... dun remind me... M******* right? craps man.... how many girls must I get rejected by? super low morale...
Leora: how the hell would I know? ask God!
Leo: God never say how many...
Leora: too bad loh.. telling you to wait....
Leo: argh... madness.... wait wait wait... long enough le lah!
Leora: you might be ready... but she? is she ready? you sure she can start another?
Leo: well... she has her difficulties... yea... can't forget some1... family... den health..
Leora: dun u think u know a little too much? and erm.. this is public place u noe?
Leo: haiz... dun think those who dunno will find out anything de lah.... and yea... maybe she dun wan me to wait for her....
Leora: ar? den? know le still like tat?
Leo: can't help it wad... otherwise call "love" ? no explanation de... haiz... u better get lost 1st...
Leora: k lah, u need time... dun think bout it le...
Leo: I nv... kept telling meself it's over liao... over... just got sometimes i get reminders onli....
Leora: gd gd, at least u dun go and think bout it...
Leo: yea yea... now get lost....

God provides.... I think i dun see it..
Owe tenglong $8
Owe alvin $10
Owe BB week $1
Owe instructor $36

bank left with $35.67
wallet inside got $4
allowance for next week $20... where got enough? God? providing? or testing me?

Tired and Sick...

Wonder why ppl keep saying sick and tired... should be tired already den sick...
Getting tired... not physical, not mental, not spiritual.... EMOTIONAL... need some couselling i think....
Budget stretched to the max... even though God provides... I have to scrimp here and there to get what I need... and IS A NEED, not what I want...

Needs...
1. Alot of long sleeves
2. Long pants
3. Driving lessons

Wants...
Her
Her
Her
Her
Her

8th april...
woke up to a terrible throat, went to sch for IT2735 RE-exam... got a taste of what attachment wil be like. big big room, cold(hehe) and only 2 person, full of computers... cameras 24hrs on, so you MUST do work, if not boss will come down and scold...
haizz... hope not like tat...

Went back, met Shihui. So embarassed, she knew me and I din't know her... kinda 4got, but now remember le... awkward situation there and den, come to think of it now, kinda funie...

Staying @ home sux... den went for BOTC... ugh... I hate it... dunno why.. everytime come back with tat 2 ***** aways got something to be sad about... nth to say, just a terrible day...

9th april...
woke up, stayed home, rottened... (smelly~)

today...
service... my song actualli very real... saw her smile and was like melt le... really melt.. can't help it but throughout the service kept shedding tears... Thank God she won't be reading... yar, lunch sux... waste of money... YF sux!!! I will nv contribute ideas anymore... super sux... sux Sux SUX!
Brought down by every single one... now i noe why hate BOTC liao...

went home by train.... saw this couple hugging each other so loving... den reach marsiling liao they alight... door close... WAD THE HECK! I still on board!!! crap... alight @ Kranji and go back... so stupid.... bad day...

FROZEN...

Today after IT2733 paper went home straight... Paper so damn easy... hope at least get a B... As usual never study...

Was expecting KWO to drop by for HALO 2 but then think he lazy or something... But nvm... continue to freeze... MY ALBUM is halfway done! Cover finish designing le! nice :) Now's the songs...

1st few songs not bad... den comes the hard songs... sang like crap... super crappy... can hear all the off keys... haiz... so discouraged by den... 6 songs liao... 4 or 6 more... gimme inspiration!

BOTC gettin on my nerves... ppl dun come for few sessions den suddenly pop up and think they got a lot of 2 cent worths... den can see tat they not planning to come back next session...

This morning came back with 0 degrees celsius... was so happy and chirpy... now came back with -300 degrees celcius...

F-R-O-Z-E-N again...

It's cool, it's cool... I mean cold...

Yea... good advice.... wonderful advice...

F-R-O-Z-E-N...
-200 degrees celsius...

Somehow not affected by things anymore...
I'm me, just me... cool and cold... call me Iceman...

AngeLeo - Guardian of Ice... lolx

Crappy? Who cares? I'm IT... the next big thing whahaha...
Me gonna be a star!!! Shining... (>_0)

Whoo....

She's charming... lolx... din't sleep for 20 odd hours...

After hitch show went to night cycling with Zhen and Sid... along e way met up wit Rubz, Henry and Yong...

Yea, Yong joined us and we went to Yishun for Chongpang Nasi Lemak, sat @ e indian stall to have some Roti John and teh... chatted alot... decided to go to Semb Park.... den changed of mind...

Passed by Yishun Food Court... Went to watch Juve VS Liver... Crap.. Juve lost!!! 2-1... sigh.... Saw Hotdog! yea, and gang... Beng was there, Dicky, QS, Ah gong... all there...

Yong went home, rest of us left for Marsiling Resevoir... My pedal broke along e way... super sian... Pedal with 1 leg, reached e damn place around 5+... Fell down when making a U-turn... hahax, lucky they too tired to think of taking a photo...

Headed for my home instead... so can change and keep my bike, since so near... Went to Xiang's blk to chit chat... til now... just reach home... after bath... so tired.... later at night got cell group... think i'll do homework 1st den slp a little... tml got exam, IT2733, 8.30am... gotta print out schedule, if not 4get again... =p

tired le, slping soon....

Hitch is not good...

Today is not a good day... I shldn't have watch hitch....
Damn it... right when I was on the verge of complete disregard...

F-R-O-Z-E-N...
still -100 degrees celsius... almost rose to -90++ but still trying to maintain...
Damn you sick movie....
Killing me...

Fun to watch if you're not F-R-O-Z-E-N...

New Song...

Where I Belong

Music: Final Fantasy 8
Lyrics: Leonard Chia
Performed By: Leonard Chia

Whenever I sing this song
It's your smile that I have longed

Whenever I see your smile
Then I'll know where I belong

You know that I'm waiting for you
and you know it's true
that I love you

Sorry for the pain that I've brought
but you know it too
that I missed you

Hurts me so to see you sad
Smile for me and I'll be glad

Don't you know that I'm not strong
It is you where I belong

For those smart asses out there...

F-R-O-Z-E-N ain't the weather, ain't the tempreture around here... I'm not sick...

it's the condition of my heart... all ICED...
SCARRED and NUMBED, ROCK SOLID and cannot be MOVED
hurt and cold, wrong and stubborn....

no1's brooding or dwellin here, just some clarifications on being F-R-O-Z-E-N

It gets colder

F-R-O-Z-E-N

-120 degrees celsius

today gonna drive... long time nv drive le... hope still not rusty... maybe this time get accident... now raining... maybe will kena...

Clay Aiken/Kimberly Locke's - Without You

Friday, March 18, 2005

refer to the blog of tt date...

this is a public apology...
SORRY, I tot you hated me.... I know I think too much.... sorry.... I didn;t know... CSM, you dun have to forgive me but SOrry...

Iced

F-R-O-Z-E-N

-100 degrees celsius

those who dunno the meaning, check the dictionary

It's over...

I'm kinda disappointed... I will never make this mistake ever again... Sorry to those girls I've hurt alone the way... I will never express my feelings ever ever ever again... NEVER... let me be a lonely ass...

Heaven's not fair... Idiotic assholes who are not genuine gets the girl, dumps them and scar them for life... We who never had real relationship don't get a chance... I fear God, I fear that He doesn't want me to have a better half... WHERE'S MY RINOA? WHERE'S MY EVE? Squall is here... Adam is here... waiting...

I am just dead... dun bother me, life goes on... not going to say anything bout it, let's just be friends...

THANK GOD!!!

Today I missed something important... Den I missed taking care of my bro... I missed the speech day parade... but I will never forget this day...

Reach sch, saw hotdog mei crying... heard that some ger got asthma...
Saw the ger being laid on the strecher... a bit weird... asthma must rest and go air-con room?
Saw her being carried to resting room... Never thought about anything...
BB rest room next to GB's... saw Snowball and hotdog mei running in and out crying...
Saw the girls crying surrounding the ger...
She dunno suffering from wad and needs quiet so I shut the Boys up...
The ger need air... so many gers surrond her!!! "Gers, dun crowd around..."
Den heard them shout: "Wake up! Wake up!"
Hotdog mei told me she cannot wake up...
"Take water and wake her up...." I instructed her....
She dun dare, so I went in to splash water on der ger...
No reaction, never blink, no response... slapped her also no response, eyes half close half open... SCARY!!! "Wake up! Wake up!" the gers screamed til my ear pain...
"Call ambulance! carry her outside!" I never think, just bring her to outside... carried her... I think I too rashed liao... 1 person carry her... she was tensed and has no response, her body was straight and very tensed...
Carry her out halfway she woke up and started to bite herself, squeeze her hands with the sharp nails...
We stopped and tried to stop her from hurting herself...
Soon GB officer came, teachers came, brought her inside again...
I was already too tired and thank God I could leave the scene...
The rest of the story have to ask Shann... she was there with her the whole time...
Impressed, amazed stunned... She's a strong ger... Nv cried and screamed a hell lot...
The rest were like screaming and shouting and crying...

I was so scared that something might happened... Thank God... Amen... Dun dare to think about anything... This ain't april fool's joke... It's so serious... Dun even dare to miss you.... Not today...

Dreamerz

He's rite... I should thank God that she did not slap me instead... but that's the reason I liked her in the 1st place... It's her character and personality...

Anywayz... it's not so easy to let go.... It just started 4 me... I only told her like 2 days ago... I must face it that sometimes i'm just being an idiot, but that's me... what can I do?

Nevertheless... I noe I must let go... but I'll wait.... Bro.... dun like to see us 2gether si bo? =x just trust me on this wan.... won't be another 4 years... the most is forever nia... i can wait de... hahax...

gonna create a new album soon... got 3 more songs.... 1 is Angels, and the other is Unchained Melody and lastly is Now and Forever... any1 wanna buy???

miss her, dun tell me to wake up, i wanna dream... like a dreamer....