Let the light shine~

22 days since I've blogged. Now for an update!

Theses 22 days have been very fulfilling. Lots of ups & downs...

Leant to accept that bloggin is a good form for pouring out
feelings...

Surprise to hear that myself =x !

Been through a hell lot of things and got myself really really worn down. Sorry bros for my last blog, been really frustrated and angry at you all =x but everything's fine now :)

Christmas was really great! As I've said, we are the ones planning and it was whole damn fun. The rushing through of meeting up, decorating the church. We even had to have cell group in church!(that's a 1st).

Things seemed pretty stressful, had to juggle with Christmas, recruitment, 1st parade... To add on is my school and work at JJ... God seemed to be juggling all these things for me, I didn't felt stress or anything, maybe excited when the actual even comes but not nervous or stressed at all... Thank God! Amen!

Got really really sick on Christmas morning...
Doc told me it was stomach flu~
I just couldn't stop vomitting all the way til monday nite(tues morn ba?)[*_*]

Terrible terrible diesease man... Wed Nick and Arthur shared their story with me, also stomach flu... Kaoz the best way to lost weight is to get stomach flu....

Lost 2KG a nite leh! But I gained it back in the afternoon... All water weight -_-'

Well, now I'm well again! Amen!

Hahax! My guitar hardcase got sold away by the shopkeeper!!! So angry at him sia.... heartache man... so slim and beautiful... He told me that he will order the more expensive 1 to replace mine and charge me the same price.. Aiyo... not about pricing lah uncle...

The carpet inside so shiok, the shape so sexy, slim and light...

Kaoz why you never look after!!?? Now must negotiate le... Get it back, or maybe this new 1 also as good... Dunno... later goin to CHECK IT OUT :)

Yawn.. sleepy... goin to nap le, very very very bad throat from the vomitting... thank God He soothed it for me today! Pray for my throat & my health! Amen!

It's hard to show no wrath

GGGRRRRR! URRRGGGG! AAAARRRRHHH!

Today's a very very crappy day for me.

The message today didn't mean a lot to me but God through the day taught me a lesson. No matter how big your faith is, how strong in Christ you are, you CANNOT depend on man. ONLY depend in God.

It's very very sad that Christian brothers and sisters fail you. Right when you least expected and those whom you really can trust.

Crap man. This 1st parade meeting was really a real blowout for me. A really big disappointment. Late, never turn up, talk crap, don't want to concentrate. From there I found out that there are Christian sisters who dislike me for no obvious reason... That was really really sad, I've tried a lot of ways to change, I never thought that my efforts unseen by my parents are also unseen by others. The pain in my heart was excruciating. I'm so sad by the time the meeting ended, I wonder if I was dazing during the meeting...

After the meeting I had to go and decorate the church. Hours of timetable scheduling and time planning I finally manage to get the whole cell group to get down and do some deco. This is the biggest disappointment I got. Instead of decorating the place I can see people lazing around and not doing the most important and time wasting thing.
Of course I didn't want to show anger or scold anyone because I don't want to hurt anyone. I also didn't want to disappoint them so I did the decoration by myself.

ALL THE BLOODY DECORATIONS ARE DONE BY MYSELF...

I do not know why God want to teach me this panful lesson but I think I over rely on Christian brothers and sisters. I think God is telling me that all men are the same whether Christians or not.

I almost couldn't take it when it seems that my comments were not taken into considerations. Planned and agreed upon, Christmas noon my house BBQ with plt 14 but then don't know why change to steamboat with plt 17 instead. I only know the actual information only yesterday and I already planned the plt 14 BBQ like october.

I didn't mind the change but it's the ignorance of my comments, my time, my planning and all my efforts gone to waste. Also the last minute information. I was like the last to know. Even Kangwei who is not in parade, cannot come for service knew 1st hand information!!! What is this?????

Don't blame me if 1 day I really blow off my top, I'm still human anyway. Cannot continue le. My keyboard will spoil of taking then punches my fingers throw...

Grr!

~Platoon 14~ Best of the best!

The following is not a blog! Or is it? Well, it�s my part of the platoon 14 story to chip in for the 20th anniversary article J

Mr. See and Platoon 14

To me platoon 14 will always be the best platoon in sembawang sec history. We had all the attention of all the officers in the 1st year, we had 15 for us to experiment out leadership on. We planned and 'guenea pigged' platoon 16. We've gone through thick and thin as a platoon. Even though we did not had the highest retention rate but we definitely (& I condfidently say) we have the quality.

Of course we also have our bad points, I feel that we will find it hard to let young blood to replace us in our roles... Perhaps we are a bit afraid to let go(maybe only for me). We're a platoon that will always complain on many things but try not to get things doneby ourselves(this I can say it's true).

With our trys and testings, we also started to take up to the challenge by being the various instructors for platoon 17 and I dare say it's a great fomula worked out!

Overall, platoon 14 is a great all rounded platoon. We've got our "missionary" (Caleb), our "Worship leader" (Jonathan), "School-loving station officer" (Wei Beng) and our "Nurses/1st aiders" (Kang Wei and Simon)! Half of us can play music and can even form our own band... Our keyboard - Caleb, guitarist - Simon/Jonathan, Drummer - Leonard (ME!) and our "Star singer" - Wei Beng!!!

It's great to be in this blessed platoon, we've gone through 6 years in 13th coy. God has seen us through many obstacles, taught us many invaluble lessons and I feel really close with this group of guys. Thank God for everything He's done for platoon 14! PLT 14 is da best!

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~Seven Days A Week::Every Minute of The Day~

We've been talking on the phone for hours and hours.
You can give me a call whenever you like to.
And if you would fall you know I will catch you.
Yeah I'll stick around, I'll be right beside you.
Whooo ohh ohh..
I'm sure you always knew what you had to do.
And I'm sure you had your reasons you change 'em every season.
Hold on, hold on.
I'm taking a vacation, I'll see you at the station.
Hey, Hey, Hey.

Seven days a week, every minute of the day.
Oh whooo oh oh, Whooo oh oh.
I've been thinking about you and what you've been up to.
Seven days a week, every minute of the day.
Oh whooo oh oh, Whooo oh oh.
Girl you're living in danger you're sleeping with strangers.
No nothing can change us, no nothing can keep us from falling, from falling.

We've been talking on the phone for hours and hours.
You can give me a call whenever you like to.
And if you would fall you know I will catch you.
Yeah I'll stick around, I'll be right beside you.
Whooo ohh ohh..
Girl you're out of your mind, you're my partner in crime.
And I'm sure you had your reasons you change 'em every season.
Hold on, hold on.
I'm taking a vacation, I'll see you at the station.
Hey, Hey, Hey.

Seven days a week, every minute of the day.
Oh Whooo oh oh, Whooo oh oh.
I've been thinking about you and what you've been up to.
Seven days a week, every minute of the day.
Oh Whooo oh oh, Whooo oh oh.
Girl you're living in danger you're sleeping with strangers.
No nothing can change us, no nothing can keep us from falling, from falling.

And I'm sure you had your reasons you change 'em every season.
Just Hold on, yeah hold on.
I'm taking a vacation, I'll see you at the station.
Hey, Hey, Hey.

Seven days a week, every minute of the day.
Oh Whooo oh oh, Whooo oh oh.
I don't wanna change you, I just wanna see you.
Seven days a week, every minute of the day.
Oh Whooo oh oh, Whooo oh oh.
Girl you're living in danger you're sleeping with strangers.
No nothing can change us, no nothing can keep us from falling, from falling.
Oho ho ohooo.

Being humble...

Youth Camp 2004 has just finished...

Although I'm not a GL or AGL, neither an overseer nor part of the committee, not a camper and not a speaker. I was invited to stay over and 'help' out in the camp.

3rd to 6th Dec 2004, Youth Camp. BB/GB Campsite... The theme was "I found it". I was wondering why God wanted me to go. Since I'm not 1 of them, I didn't find the need to evangilise.

Way before the camp, "councellor" gave me "councilling" and before that I did not felt left out. It was only after I knew that I had to stay for the camp then I felt very very left out. I prayed to God and ask myself why, "What am I to do in the camp?". Kept thinking of what can I learn...

I was brought back to the days of last year when I was the AGL of Da Vinci (we got 1st place in games). We were so called reunited when I was asked to join Jasper because many of our old teammates were there...

During the camp, I never fail to remind myself of what am I suppose to learn here, yet throughout I didn't find anything to learn...

I was the musician, the games master, the assistant soundman, stand-in GL, I found myself doing part-time logistics as well as the photographer...

I never found anytime to listen to any messages, participate in the games, gel together with my group or any of such. Sure I've enjoyed previledges like being able to sleep in the Officer's bunk, to be able to forfeit another group's points/beads and take plastic cups instead of using my own mug... But I did not see what God was trying to teach me.

I was feeling bad when I could not help my GL even though I was trying to stand-in when he was not around just because I did not get to know them and I almost killed the fire for them...

The feeling of being unable to accomplish what seemed that I'm suppose to do was rather a great impact to me. I felt God was very harsh on me by putting me in that position...

I didn't care about it and kept thinking still there must be a lesson for me to learn... I still didn't found what was it - I've not found it...

The last day of the camp(today) was really a bummer... Throughout the camp no one woke me up for anything, nobody cared if I was late for worship, if I'm late for breakfast, for devotion or workshop... I only had things to do when I ask if help was needed, if not I would initiate my on my own...

I seemed to be so extra, no it's excess. If I'm extra at least it's still ok,(extra food, extra cash) but it was like I'm so excess.(excess fats, excess baggauge) I sucked like hell man... And I was left to go home alone, nobody cared, my friends left, logistics hurried away and I was so left out.

Even though God sent transport and companionship but it wasn't at all comforting, it made matters worst for me... It was so sad but I cannot be.

Theses weren't the worst things. The really worst thing was I had nothing to keep as a souvenier, not even a photo. I was so depressed about it...

But I still never forget the thought in my mind. What am I suppose to learn from God? Apart from starting to evangelise to Dennis I really could not find anything worthy to be called related to God... My heart was already crying...

Till now, I still feel a little upset but then...

I found it! I found what God was teaching me as I sit down and think and pray about it.

KWO asked me, "You do this for reconition?" Immediately the answer to that irritating question popped up to my mind.

God was telling me to be humble, I was there to serve God, to do His work. To remember what I had been practicing since my BB days - To be humble.

hum�ble ( P ) Pronunciation Key (hmbl)
adj. hum�bler, hum�blest
Marked by meekness or modesty in behavior, attitude, or spirit; not arrogant or prideful.
Showing deferential or submissive respect: a humble apology.
Low in rank, quality, or station; unpretentious or lowly: a humble cottage.

How the hell could I have forgottened that I was there to serve? I totally forgotened to be humbled that I'm not a need to others but I'm just serving. I thank God that He has teached me a lot of humbleness and being lowly among others. I also want to thank God that I was the 3rd last part of the pie to get Dennis to accept Christ... It was such encouraging that I did my part for God. Amen!

Btw, this post is sooooooo 'diary-like' and I hate it... But I guess the Holy Spirit wanted me to pen this down... Cya!



Here's to Dennis and all the others who have accepted the Lord! Amen! and Hallelujah!

The Showdown...

The atmoshpere was really well, things were as busy as before. The Sheriff(G) was happy that there were plenty people coming in to extort their money in the form of taxes. Constables of the Sheriff were quietly and busily creating opportunities to draw the commoners' attention away from worrying about the taxes...

The newly recruited tax collector(S) was to be an understudy of one of the constable, little did the Sheriff knew that the contable(K) had a different agenda, to create an uprisin to bring new blood to create a new land without taxes...

Sheriff had reports from his Spies(C & L) that there's a new force that had been helping citizens evading the taxes and many were attracted to this 'new land' and have quickily joined in the new force. It became so lucrative & inviting that Spy L had almost fall into the trap of Constable K, if it wasn't for the Sheriff who had quick wittedly bad-mouth the opposing forces inevitably Spy L would have already gone into the no-way-back road...

Although the upcoming opposition posseses no evil intention but the very actions of evading taxes and causing an uprising were enough to weigh heavy on the bad side of the Sheriff's heart. For years the younger bloods have heard tales about the fearless Sheriff who kept the town(D) safe, free from external threats(Cu) and no need to mention internal threats, but never once did the new blood saw how the Sheriff worked.

Brainwashed and not beliving in the power of the Sheriff, the tax collector tried to break free from his duties, creating havoc and adjusting, doctoring the receipts and tax replies(although it never tallies). Finally caught by one of the Sheriff's men(Le), Sheriff swung into action and started the interogation...

Sheriff: "Who did this?"
Tax-collector: "I did..."
Sheriff: "What were you thinking?! Who ordered you to do it? Answer me!"
Tax-collertor: "Nobody! I did it on my own will..."
Sheriff: "Don't cover for the new forces..."
Constable K: "What new forces!? You mean us? Fine! We shall end it now..."

With the abrupt interruption of constable K, the tax-collector ran away. Knowing he has already ran out of danger as K was already dead-locked in the sight of Sheriff's eyes as 'the one'.

It came down to the showdown at high nite... Sheriff walked away as K started to fire the 1st bullet into the ground... Returning the offense, the bullet missed K as it came out of Sheriff's gun.

Tax-payers and non-tax-payers in the Saloon dropped their cutleries with their food still in the mouth and eyes opened wide stared motionlessly into the windows. Surrounded by both party's men the showdown began...

Fierce shots fired at the Sheriff while he dodged them all. All this while the Sheriff did not return fire and it made him looked small... It seemed that K would have emerge as the winner but it wasn't over. Apparently both sides were firing blanks as non of the bullets hit, though K's efforts were to be applauded for...

There were times where it look'd like the Town(D) was a ghost town as Sheriff and K hid and reloaded their weapons... The Sheriff was hiding for a long time while K was firing aimlessly at barrels, crates, even windows towards Sheriff. It seems that the sheriff was all the while a coward...

Minutes passed, both party's men stood apart, looking at each other without any idea of what to do... As both side started to leave 1 by 1, the Sheriff stood out. K fired frantically at Sheriff, threw away his revolver and drew out 2 shotguns from the saddle on his horse. Repeatiously firing at the Sheriff as Sheriff walks calmly towards K withoutbeing hit.

As Sheriff draws near, K became more silent. K's heart was trembling and started to see how big Sheriff was. He thought to himself, "I can't turn back now..." Immediately reached for his Ivory 6-holes and point it at Sheriff's head. "Why is he so near? Am I touching him...?

"Bang!"

Wanna know the ending? hehehe, based on my encounter, a true story... Cannot say the ending, msg me if u wanna noe :)

Finally Done!

Hehah!

 

Finally I’ve finished my blog design! Though Mr. Thong says I’ve ripped it off from blogspot but it’s not all theirs J

Messin with my blog even though I’m a programmer was such a challange :p… I could use some practice for my webpage designing classed :P

 

Nice music? Great track from The Sounds, with Seven Days a Week… Yeah! That’ll be the theme to my new blog! More info bout them at http://www.the-sounds.com/eng/index.php...

Enjoy!

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You cannot be comfortable with who you are

Haiz... Yes, God made every1 different and uniqe, but that doesn't means you can be who you want to be... God has His own expectations too...

God wants everyone to shine for him and in everyway, He will want us to be as perfect as possible :) Why? Cause we are standing testimonies for Him!

If there are any flaws that we have we are suppose to change that because it's an obstacle from letting us shine...

It's not about accepting yourself and not about attracting attention but what it's called is "Breaking out of the comfort zone" - being the Godly people we are suppose to be :)