A song I'll sing on sail...

I've been down, I've been beat
I've been so tired I couldn't speak
I've been so lost I could not see
I've wanted things that was out of reach
Then I found you and you helped me through
And you showed me what to do
That's why I'm coming back to you, yeah

Like the star that guides the ship across the ocean
That's how you love can bring me home back to you
And if I wished upon that star, that someday I'll be where you are
And I know that day is coming soon
I'm coming back to you
I'm coming back to you

You've been alone, you didn't show it
You've been in pain and I did not know it
You let me do what I needed to do
You been there when I needed you
Might have let you down, might have messed you around
But you never change your point of view
That's why I'm coming back to you

Like the star that guides the ship across the ocean
That's how you love can take me home back to you
And if I wished upon that star, that someday I'll be where you are
And I know that day is coming soon
Yeah I'm coming back to you

I'm coming back to you
I'm coming back to you
I'm coming back to you....


Myspace Hi5 comments
look wad i found! so cute =P

Presenting...

The RSS Leo!
Haha, theses are the shots from Sentosa last week. Pretty cool eh? I built my own ship!
Check out more photos from my pic blog!

Oh yea! Welcome back QS, Jin Cheng and Cherie!
What a huge surprise when I saw Cherie suddenly appeared in front of me!!! Felt unreal, thought I was dreaming. Haha.
QS looks the same, if nt abit fairer =p Probably bcoz he's got 3 days safety time out!

Keep forgetting to bring Gliderz keys... I think there's something wrong with the roster. Always clash with Melissa and Diana. Anywayz, went to Mr. Lim's hse for the Worship seminar. Hmmmz.... I hope all of us will dress our best, regardless duty or not. The president scenario was a little far-fetched but I think is very true. If for men we can try our best, what more is it for God?

Din't join the gang for dinner, went to meet kwo instead. He's got not much time left to buy his laptop so I gave him priority. Sorry guys =p Kwo's leaving on 16th Aug to Brunei -> my favourite place so far =P Pasta mania for dinner. Kwo's treat.

I've forgottened about Aussie n Thailand... Seems like i'm gonna leave earlier den I thought. Gotta meet up with Kat n gang soon.

Night Safari Ben n Jerry's

I finally found out what I can eat at BNJ's - SORBET!!!! =)

Sentosa!

Outing to Sentosa last Sunday. Tiring........ Really tired.... =P

虽然不愿意

请让我靠近你轻轻对你说
别让我每个夜为你受折磨
是多么不容易才默默放手

为了我就当作这次为了我
别让我因为你被回忆折磨
因为我是曾经为你深爱过
我别无选择

就算我们之间有什么问题
依然想念着你
虽然我放弃
虽然不愿意

就算我们之间有什么难题
黑夜我还想着你
心碎了哭泣
虽然不愿意

再让我靠近你轻轻对你说
当我说我要你从此好好过
是真的否则我怎么肯放手

为了我就当作这次为了我
请陪我不要有孤单和寂寞
别让痛变成了我们的伤口
请你做选择

就算我们之间有什么问题
依然想念着你
虽然我放弃
虽然不愿意

就算我们之间有什么难题
黑夜我还想着你
心碎了哭泣
虽然不原意
心还想着你

God grant me strength...

To accept what I cannot change...
To change me that is deemed not acceptable...

Just came back from SGH. 1st time I witness pushing a patient into Operation theatre. Don't include myself la... (I was only 3yrs old when I got op)

See my bro lying on the bed. Very funny in a weird way, I guess it's an immediate reaction when the op theatre door closes, you'll pace up and down for nth... Bunch of ppl looking at me, guess they are thinking wad happened to my bro.

Since he'll only be out in a few hrs, I'm baq home preparing. Will visit him later in the evening. Anyone wans to visit my bro? Gimme a call ok?

I made 女儿 angry

I had a really really bad day...

Woke up early with my neck, back, ankle, knee aching and my broken shoulder...

What I went thru I'll show you all now.... The dummy is 90kg. The fire is 400-500 deg cel. The suit is flame retardant which means heat gets in doesn't get out. I keep banging my knees into objects because I'm short.

3 days of ache plus load, sweat, pain and heat... Today I fell into a casualty, if it were a real scenario I'd killed that man... All because I didn't tell the instructors I got a broken shoulder. I screwed up my last assessment as Team Leader when the junior ranks looked up to me... I let them hose down the fire while I tumble on the casualty. I left them to die when the fire flashover...

I came in late. I rushed home early. Argued with my mother, told her that her cooking sucks... Pissed off everyone, went supper eat nth... My cake taste funny and I made 女儿 angry. Didn't meant to snap at you... Just felt that the whole world was against me today... I overeacted... I'm just being irritating...

I just want to say I'm SORRY. I just had a bad day... a bad week... no 2 whole weeks...

虽然我愿意

请让我靠近你轻轻对你说
别让我每个夜为你受折磨
是多么不容易才默默放手

为了我就当作这次为了我
别让我因为你被回忆折磨
而空气凝结了我们的脸孔
我别无选择

就算我们之间有什么问题
依然想念着你
虽然被放弃
虽然我愿意

就算我们之间有什么难题
黑夜我还想着你
心碎人孤寂
虽然我愿意 (心还想着你)

再让我靠近你轻轻对你说
当我说我要你从此好好过
是真的否则我怎么肯放手

为了我就当作这次为了我
赐给我你现在幸福的笑容
别让恨冻结了我们的脸孔

请你做选择

我只要简简单单的过日子

OWWW ='(

Broken wrist, body ache, sun burn, bad slping posture...

Tired, empty, sinful and evil...

Void, hurt and questioned...

I just want things to be simple...................
Just a normal job, a house of my own with wife n kids... Tonnes of fun and wholesome-ness. Is it just so wrong to live my dream???

Some stupid qns...

I've been asked why nv spend time with certain grps and why with certain grps.

I think it's a stupid qns. I don't have only 1 grp of friends. I distribute my time as much as I can. Poly frens, NYJ, the gang, colleagues, Kat n Angie, Hui, family, relatives etc...

Don't forget my work, NDP, course. I only took 2 Sundays off... Sometimes it's just plain as simple as I don't wish to go to certain place or do certain things which I don't wish to do.

Anywayz.

Crashed Rub's place last night. Prep the food and stuff. Surround sound, aching body...
Picked up Za'ra. Straight to wet n chilly sentosa. The beach patrol guy is freakingly irritating. GRRR.

Sun, sand n sea indeed. After our own made pasta and a few sandwiches, fruit salad. We headed into the waters. Sand castles n sun tanning =) Will post my RSN Leo when Suki sends me e photos =) So pround of it! Haha.

Zoomed to Vivo, met Yeok n Dia. Carls jnr in a super long time. My 1st deadly blow since my regime. I shld be able to contain the blow after I calculate this week's output =P

When to watch OP.08. Interesting, I wonder why SembWinds don't have something like them... Maybe really the culture is sooooo different. Nice songs thru out.

Haha. Trishia really is another Kai Xin Guo. Brightened up my darkest and most tired evening =)

Posted the K-ster's photos. go to my pic blog to check it out! ->

K-Ster

Outing to K-Ster. Tanya is WAKAU de wacky... Though we din took much photos this time but haha, perhaps they're too tired =)

Missed it for 2 weeks...

Well...

3 days of Damage Control from the Navy side. Really shagged out already. Still it's just 1/2 the step to qualify. Looks like a very hot and bright prospect for my future... Don't really know if it is what I want... There's the fire fighting next week and tml I gotta march up and down again. I've still not polished my boots... omg...

Just came back from Rubz place. Suki still hvn send me the photos... =(

We bought lots of groceries @ Giant. Dinner at ikea...

Baked a cake. Awfully nice, but there's a crack =( Tried to cover it with chocolate but the crack is just there! oh my... Sunday we'll all taste how good my bakery skill is! whahaha.

Suki, don't worry too much abt your driving. You just need to continue practising and getting the hang of things. Don't let ppl bring you down by saying your driving sucks. They are the one who sucks because they don't know how to teach yet they judge so much. As long as safety is not compromised, you're doing fine.

18th, 19th, 20th -> DCT
21st -> NDP Rehearsal
22nd -> Sun, sand, sea, sports & NUS concert.
23rd, 24th, 25th-> Fire Fighting onboard Ship a.k.a hell training.
26th -> Ben's leg operation.

God bless my brother with courage and comfort. I can't do much... Help him Lord Jesus.

I feel like taking leave on the 27th... zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Sad

I am angry, frustrated, unhappy and very very sad...

Cao Ge's concert is on a SATURDAY 8PM.... 12th July...

I have NDP rehearsal!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OH MY GOSH!!!!!!!!!!!

WHY WHY WHY!!!!!!!! !!!! !!!! ARRRGGGGHHHH!!!!! I feel like banging my head on the wall a hundred times.... grrrr....

Today is monday?

Weird...

It felt like monday! Coz yesterday din't felt like anything of a weekday, with the girls n Yee Herng goin to church camp and I'm on day off...

Anywayz. Today work was a breeze! Glad to have men under me =) So I can boss them around! Whahaha. Of course I'm not that bad, just that they have to learn, so I leave most of the job to them! =D

My wrist hurts.... From the smash I got from the rifle butt... Today had the medicated patches on for whole day... Couldn't really use strength for work... (another good thing to have men under me =P) So many stuff at hand, can't concentrate on my goal...

Knock off, met kwo. We went to JJ. Mushroom Sauteed Sirloin Tips, Baked Fish on a Caesar Salad. Creamy Cold Coleslaw. Crunchy Tender Garlic Bread! I miss JJ's food. I really really missed it. Missed it so much that I really wanna work there again... I think it revived my dream of opening my very own restaurant again. Good to see that they are doing well.

Boss wasn't around and Lau was there with the specials as always =D Eileen! You missed out!!! Haha. It's ok ba, next mth we'll visit them again! I seriously miss the old place. Lau will be working every friday night, so I dun nid to take leave =)

Watched Incredible Hulk at The Cathay. Since $6 so din mind wad show we watched. It's a pleasant surprise! Not so much for the action, the plot ain't exciting too. Drama unfolds every scene you see. It's the ending that really apts your appetite. You'll be wanting more of Marvel after the show! We even waited for the whole credits to roll! End up nth to see after the credits =(

I'm dying inside already... How can I obey my mind when my heart is screaming otherwise??? Holy Spirit intervene! I .... .

Safari

Woke up super early today...

Sent the girls from PBB to Church Camp today. With Yi Herng also. Soooooo tired.

Got home and clear up my room. Finally now it's pretty spacious. Very comfortable too.

Steamboat again for dinner. =) Cheese Tofu is seriously the next in thing for me now. I LOVE it! Haha.

Met up with Suki n Rubz for supper. Went to Safari for Ben n Jerry's. I finally can enjoy the ice cream there. Simple solution - order those flavors without MILK! All the sorbets!

Discussed abt our Sentosa trip this coming sunday. Cool! =) I got a feeling that this week I'm gonna be sooooooo super tired. After my Fire Fighting, NDP the next week will be ABDR.... So i'm turning in early. Gdnitez!

Posted the Prawning photos, check out my pic blog ->
Will post the rest soon when Dia n Suki send them to me =)

Happy Father's Day!

Yesterday was a pretty interesting day!

Early morning go to my stupid rehearsal. HOT HOT HOT Day... I got slammed in the EXACT spot again!!! Owww... my hand... this time it's slightly better coz it's not by my colleague's rifle but by SCDF's WMG. At least it's only plastic... But still I think I got a fracture in my wrist... Gonna check it out tml...

After the rehearsal, went to pick Dia n Tanya. Poor Tanya, waiting there all alone by herself still in full-u!!!! Didn't even had dinner.

So we went to Yeok's hse, watched a little 周末八点档. We went to Changi Food Village for late dinner with Yeok's dad. As always, I dunno why, we will order too much. Haha. Called Jo to ask her abt k. Too bad she can't join us.

Had a little walk ard east coast, went to the arcade, a crazy couple playing DDR pro like dunno wad. Den we played the hand-version of the DDR. So silly! Haha, just like swatting flies.

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Watched episode 12, going to finish le!

Woke up with a big big headache.... I think it's the sun from NDP... Seriously can feel the pounding. Force myself to go buy food for steamboat at night. Abalone and Quall Eggs are in shortage nowadays.

Took paraceptamol. Felt a little better after some rest. Couldn't go for service so I met up with the girls again. We went to K-ster. I really pei fu them.... So tired still can play like dunno wad. Maybe coz I'm nt feeling tat well =(

Went to candy empire, subway. Haha. Almost forget I got steamboat waiting for me at home.

Went home, ben not feeling well, vomitted since yesterday. Today still vomitting, couldn't enjoy the steamboat I prepared. Ate with dad, I think he liked the soup. Obviously coz I prepared it! haha. Prime ribs and Knorr ckn stock =)

Abalone and Cheese Tofu! Yum. Tml we'll be having more coz I bought a little too much. Haha. Anyone wans to join me tml? Plenty for abt 5 more ppl. Too bad most of you are in Church camp. Hope you guys have lots n lots of fun!

Happy Father's Day to my dad and all dads out there! Including ME! =D Thks nu er for the msg n cookies wor. lolx.

Prawning!

Wad a fun day. It's nv boring when Tanya n Trishia are around! I love prawning! haha =)

Great day =)

Early morning woke up from Episode 10 of Gong Zhu Xiao Mei. Not enough slp but good thing I knew that my day was gonna be fun =)

Went to Kent Ridge for my dental x-ray. OMGOSH! Soooooooooooo hi tech... Jewel in the midst of stone. SAF spent good money for great equipment, finally I see it.

After that went to cut hair... Haiz... NDP sux. But good thing I can have a day off =) Which means I have to wake up super early to pick the PBB gals and Yee Herng to send them to Changi Ferry Terminal for their Church Camp - So dui... Cannot go but send them to go...

Anywayz. Stupid Home F.I.X open only 11am.... So late... Couldn't get my hooks.

Reached work at about 12. Lunch til like 2? =P slacked til like 3+ den bathed, changed ready for our SUPER OUTING!!!

HAHA! Finally prawning with the "Family". Daddy, mummy, daughters and not forgetting "Minah"! As usual Trish n Tanya are wacky! Really really fun to go out with them ANYTIME =)

We din catch much. Yeok n Dia had alot of bites but was only able to get 1 prawn up the line. I did quite badly, about 6 prawns for the 2 hrs. The kids had 4!!! 2 more with the uncle's help =) The uncles were pretty friendly =) perhaps we're the 1st customers today =)

BBQed the prawns.. They din really struggle as those I've caught in other places. Really once rinsed in salt water they taste better. Yeok's dad n his friend joined us, had a nice chat. Kinda make me wan to sit down with my dad and have a good chat with him, but haiz... What topic? Father's day is this SUNDAY!

Wanted to send the gals home so that Tanya n I got enough rest for tml's NDP. Instead we passed by White Sands and saw Xin Wang HK cafe so we decided to supper there =) Lots of wackiness again. Love their company to bits.

Went back, had a little chat with thong. He seems happy with his life now. Eh, dun be too comfortable. Life don't always stay stagnent at a point. Be prepared in everyway you can.
I love my friends. I don't know what will be of me when I'm over in SD. I hope I can cope well for such a long time. Really really happy today, done the stuff I love, with the ppl I love. Don't take much for a guy to be happy, just the simplest things in life =)
What a great day! Little work, fun outing and great friends! =)

CHIONG!!!!

Yay! Finished episode 9! Hahahaha!

I cannot believe that Wu Zhun wore a ladies' top!!! Still can't picture Angela and him as a couple. Though the story really really is very captivating but still not a great match up.

Cai looks very very much like Nicholas Zhang. Haha.

Tml gotta wake up early so I can get to DSO building for my dental MMI. I hope they get diagnose me with wisdom tooth and schedule me for extraction! Not that I'm a saddist but then I'll be able to watch more shows with the TWO WEEKS MC!!!! whahahaha.

Although I think my oral hygene is not bad but sure would be nice, 2 weeks. Nvm the inability to speak or eat much. I can go on diet too! =X

Gonna finish episode 10 tonight! =)

I'm still awake!

Oh no... Just finished episode 6. Dead tired... Gonna go work in 7hrs time... Hopefully i get enough rest.

"You only have 1 life to live and you only live it once."

"爱为什么要躲躲藏藏不能勇敢的说出来？"

"你是没有感情还是害怕受到伤害？"

Great show. I love the story =) Die die die... cannot wake up liao. hahaha

Some things are best kept mums.

It's way too obvious now... No thanks to my big mouth again. I won't let this become another mistake. I hope my next few steps are right... I've 1 tamed bear which is really really safe and 1 wild horse which my pinky is holding on to... I mustn't let this horse run...

Finished 公主小妹 episode 3. Haha... I really miss catching those shows. Taiwanese 偶像 dramas are the best! Although Angela n Wu Zhun dun make a great couple but the story is really nice =)

Anymore nice taiwanese shows to recommend? I dun mind korean dramas too. 夏日香气 is also very very nice =)

I'm glad I've got my night shift! More time for Youtube! =)

Vulnerable...

Broken body, broken heart. broken spirit and everything's brokened...

This I promise you

G G
My love, here I stand before you
D D
I am yours now
G G
From this moment on
G G
Take my hand
C C
Only you can stop me shaking
D D
We'll share forever
G G
This I promise you
C
And when I look in your eyes
D G G
All of my life feels before me
C
And I'm not running anymore
D G G
Cause I already know I'm home
C
With every beat of my heart
D Em Em
I give you my love completely
C D G G
My darling, this I promise you
G G C C
My love, I can feel your heartbeat
D D
As we dance now
G G
Closer than before
G
Don't let go
G
Don't let go
C C
Cause I can almost cry now
D D
This is forever
G G
I make this vow to you
C
And when I look in your eyes
D G G
All of my life feels before me
C
And I'm not running anymore
D G G
Cause I already know I'm home
C
With every beat of my heart
D Em Em
I give you my love completely
C D C D Em Em
My darling, this I promise you
C D (6/4) G
My darling, this I promise you
G C
This I promise you, oh I promise you,
C
promise you
D (5/6) G
This I promise you

Your time, you decide.

Watched Kung Fu Panda last night wit me bros. Alright show, probably 3 to 3.5 stars out of 5. Angelina Jolie again... Yuk. I think Jackie Chan didn't spoke more than 3 sentences? Dinner at pasta mania. Lame jokes are fun. Bought Blades of Glory and Jay's world tour. Gonna enjoy em' later.

Sent Ben to SGH just now... Weird system they have there... Drew blood and gave injection, den need to go back like 4 hrs later to do another scan...

The department is called Nuclear Therapy thingy... Wah... Maybe some freak accident can turn my bro into a superhero? hahaha. Too much gamma exposure or some kind turn him into the incredible bulk? lolz Just being lame...

I know I'm not right to joke abt those 2, but after it's still a joke, I don't understand why u took it so seriously. If it's not alright with you den I'll not even bother to start joking with you anymore. How can you tell me that you can think for yourself already when u reacted that way? I'm not at all convinced... Just hope you'll take care.

Who am I to judge? Just wanted to point out. I have nth to gain but the love of God. No one has the right to say whos right or wrong. I am not righteous in my own actions. Only God have say in who's aligned. I know I'm mis-aligned...

QS gonna go in soon... Will be short of 1 MJ kaki =( For sure your 1st book out will be a huge looking-forward. Welcome to the real world.

Time to wake up

I am not out to please men or women. Or anyone. I am only accountable to God alone. If you do what is right will you not be accepted? And if you see what is wrong is it not right to gently remind you bro/sis?

Sorry Jesus for being human, weak as I am, sorry gal for making you mad, sorry bro for not agreeing, sorry friends for not wanting to have the same taste.

If EVERY single damn thing I have to say sorry then I feel that I'm giving in. I won't be myself anymore and I'm not living as who I am. To be really frank, BACK THE HELL OFF

I am not shy to voice out what I feel and I hope you guys respect that. Just tell me your point of view as I unravel mine. Don't hide or show half truths for it makes matters worse.

Irony of self-righteous? Put yourself really low so that you have an excuse to go higher.

Happy Birthday to Trishia!

Had a great time, hope you enjoyed yourself too =)

Reflect!

Yesterday's service wasn't given by pastor, but it was a one where we all can learn something from. A definition of how God speaks.

"Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. Put on the full armor of God so that you can take your stand against the devil's schemes. For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand." Ephesians 4:10-13

Satan is way too smart... How did we miss that? Sometimes we care too much and it becomes an offence.

Happy Birthday Trishia!

Since a while I've attended a fun filled bdae party. Though there was few but it was definitely happier than most. Hope you like your mp3 player =)

Cake fight broke out in the kitchen! Didn't stopped even some of us when to wash up again. High pitch screamings really can deafen ppl's ears... oww...

It's good to see such unity. I hope it last. Church camp is coming soon, I think the gang is going to have fun since the hated one is not going.

"Therefore each of you must put off falsehood and speak truthfully to his neighbor, for we are all members of one body. "In your anger do not sin": Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry, and do not give the devil a foothold." Ephesians 4:25-27

I tried to be honest but I think it didn't sat well with everyone. guess mums the word from now on.

Owww....

Today's NDP was hell!

So early in the morning... Rushed to the floating platform... My hand got smashed in the butt of a SAR 21... Oww... Doc issued me pain killers to stop the pain and the medic gave me an ice pack... Oww ow ow ow...

We had KFC for lunch... it's not enough! Ran thru like 3 times of the whole rehearsal... The whole parade sequence!!! Feet really hurt like dunno wad... True enough today ended really late.

Had dinner with our own base guys. Talked about our not so distant future.... Seems like everyone who is on the paths we walked will go thru the same process. Looking at the people that are in front of us, it ain't that bad. =)

If it's just a passing fad, it'll just be a passing... If it's more then I'll know I'll have to fight for

"We don't have to be together, just be there and we'll be great. Don't wanna lay a burden on you, just our company will do" "Cause I'm lonely and tired, I'm missing you again oh no, once again"

Judah!

Kara with dia n Cherlyn yesterday.... Spoiled brat can't join us coz he gotta work, haha.

I'm losing it already. My throat didn't heal from the last time and I can't get back the voice that I can sing so proudly with...

I guess I didn't use my gift meaningfully, so I guess I don't deserve it. =(

Last night we went to Ms Sherine's hse for a small fellowship. Really missed those days where we can share with each other how everyone's doing in our lives. It really really keeps us in touch and remind everyone of us that we need to cling on to Jesus no matter what happens.

We've saw how ppl fall, also how from a united group of guys become so diversified in just a few mths. Maybe just weeks. But all it takes is One, to unify us again.

Time really really flies and waits for no man. So fast, Jadyn is like my memory of Zach last time. Janna can already speak mandarin! Sooooo fast. We're already halfway thru the year! I just wish sometimes time can take a break. We can all take a breather.

I wished time can stop at certain points of my life... When I'm being accompanied by. Even if there's nth special we're doing. Just having fun or being a friend. It doesn't matter what or where. Just stay there, even for just an hr more. I'd love to do that...

Jadyn is just so cute =) Janna is so mischievious!

Tiredness knows no end...

I wished everyday I can stay at home and be glued to my 360, when I'm tired of it I'll go to the sandbag and punch it like crazy to the beat of Robbie Williams and Li Sheng Jie!

Too bad theses days are soo rare... Which makes me want to do that more often...

Went to buy present for Trish. We din stick to original plan coz addidas really CMI... Went round Suntec, City Link n Marina². End up we did the expensive plan...

After tat ate Pizza... Poor Sam, Mary, Dick and John... Eaten up by monsters... The warm choc cake with ice cream really looked like a piece of dung!!!! I almost burst into laughter when the lady served them! Really is "warm choc cake..."

Tanya was humongously amazingly entertaining. "Matchmaking" them was such fun! Should've seen they faces, so shy! So cute! Dun be shy! Hope still can bring u all out more often =)

Flight dinner tonight.... So much controvasies. Alot of catching up but not enough time. Keng n Benson gonna leave on the 26th... Once gone it's 2 yrs!!! Thank God I'm only leaving for 1 year. Hopefully I can still meet them in the states... Though Arizona and San Diego is quite a distance...

Will miss this 2 good pals. Hope you guys take this 2 yrs as a good chance to grow! =)

Buzzword of the month...

Superficial...

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I'm glad pet names are invented and used...

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Plt 17 I remembered the 1st time I led you guys. From blur kids of about 14 til the now of 4 primers serving on equal platform. It is very easy to say when things go wrong that the TCO didn't do a good enough job.

It is very easy to say the Plt SGT was nth but merely a policeman, a bad guy to ensure every step you took is correct. Yea, somebody HAD to be the bad guy. To be very frank, if I could do that now I really would.

You guys are all grown up now, you all are now the ables to be the policemen, bad guy or should you choose otherwise. Your actions won't be seen very much as your own but your trainers. Plt 17 will be linked to 14, linked to Mr. See...

But when things are going well, nobody will say the TCO did a great job. Nobody will remember that the Bad guy protected you all from stepping out of the danger zone in the early stages. It WILL BE very natural to say "It should be the case" when people excel and do good.

Will anyone say well done to plt 14 for bringing up 2 warrant officers in 13th and they got their founders? Or will they say yeap, the got their founders as planned. Not for me to say or judge, not for anyone too I guess.

I missed the fun days where we had camps together and the special bond we had. Maybe it is because we stopped having all of that our bond are slowly fading. I remembered how Mr. See prayed of each and every Boy when we took you up. We too learnt to be good servant leaders and put your interest 1st above all other aspect in you BB life.

Maybe we some of us stopped praying for you guys coz you guys have entered into our circle, you guys became comrades fighting in the same war. Which I felt that yea, we need to remember to pray for you all. This time around, it is not just us praying for you all, we have to pray for each other, to watch out for each others' blind spots.

I think now we cannot be anyone's plt sgt anymore. It is just not right for us to police on each others' life. There are alot of things we cannot interfere with anymore. When you fall you'll gotta get up and we can clean your wounds for you.

We cannot prevent you from falling anymore. We warned you of the pits, thats all we can do. How you walk your path is just like how we walk ours. Our own choices... We will be there ready to pick you up. I hope in times when you guys see me falling into a deadly pit, you guys can sound me out too.

I sometimes too will miss out on looking out for you all but I will still remember to look at the photo frame I made you for you guys. I hope you guys can pray for your TCO and plt sgts when you look at it too. You guys will always be my Boys even if one day you all surpass me as an officer.

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It feels good to be able to put things down... Now I can stand up and carry on. Look on further forward, hoping to pick up better things.

Sometimes when I don't say anything doesn't mean I don't care. Just that I dunno how...

"Dear God the only thing I ask of you is to hold her when I'm not around,when I'm much too far away..."