Haiz... After tat "councelling" session yesterday I sort of understand a little be more if myself...
Just like what I typed in the intro, I don't like to show my feelings... So much so that I cover myself up so much that I don't realise it.
Today was such a great challenge for me to go to work. I had to act normal and try to "be open" as suggested... Hmmm.. I guess it's really difficult to work while you're not concentrating... For a start, I took wrong orders... Throughout the night there were many hiccups here and there. I dropped the cups with water(thank God it was before the sink!), I ran my cup of peach coke with lemon into the transparent plexi-glass(thank God again that it did not spilled into the computer but only the floor...). I was starting to think about things and then I realised that I've been drying the cutlerys for about 30 mins!!!
Well, guess I'm pretty much disturbed about it... "Couseller" told me that I was "prim and proper" person, which I think is a very nice way of saying that I'm very boring... Guess I am... Haiz.. No wonder the "attacker" did not liked me. Kekeke. Only can accept it loh, I guess it's true bah... See the guys always have fun with each other but I don't seemed to click with them. At least there's "yao yao" =X
Heh, been crappy lately... Wanna buy this buy that, go here go there but then no $$$. Grr.... lend out my book then never return me... 1 whole year le!!! Ask to borrow book can bring the wrong book to borrow, haiz...
Heheh! This X'mas is gonna be so great! Planned by the pioneers, the young bloods, the head honcho... Us! Wee... Yeah, I already know what I'm getting and who's it is for loh... Unless he don't want me to take - sianz loh.
Ugh.. Recruitment is so, so so near. I haven't see my assistant chairman for so so so long. I don't even know if he knows what we have been doing so far. He's gonna get it from me if he doesn't know what to do. Hmmm... does that sound like the old me? Err... alright hor? Cause is BB things mah, must be more strict =X
Whoof... School re-opening soon leh... No time for things leh... Really must thank God, I've passed every single module! Not 1 I failed... hehehe thank God :) Stress, nearer and nearer to year 3, I still don't see the path this course is leading me. I can only see 2 choices to take next year, Multimedia if not Programming. Ugh, I dread Programing, but then it's the only "tan jia" line I can go into... Never mind, I'll leave it to God to decide, He WILL lead!
Yikes! look at the time! Gotta go! cya! bye! Sad day indeed...
Friday, November 26, 2004
Friday, November 19, 2004
Tired, just tired...
Staring at the screen...
...Being the admin is not as easy as I thought! I could imagine it as being a clerk in an office but there's really more to it.
I've been working on the software to keep track of boys but I don't seem to be able to finish it.
Other thoughts for the company like creating a website as well as integrating the RO online. Hmmm... maybe I taking things very far... I could slow down and take things 1 at a time.
Screen 2...
...Work at JJRG has been very sianz lately... Boss seems to be depressed... People seems to be not satisfied with us. Too many gimmicks and reliance on promotions I guess is one of the main reason...
I wish for once at least boss can bring US together to at least pray about it... Could have been better I guess.
Screen 3...
...Server is up! Ugh! VS.Net cannot create webpages on XP Home!!! Damn! Waste my $$ to maintain the server... At least I found out about MS Web Matrix... But it's so not as good as VS... I think I need to learn XML for that.
Screen 4...
...Damn! been looking all over for my E700A cover... Grrr! Already got 1 crack at the side man! :(
Shark Tales was damn funnie! But I guess she's rite, it's trying to promote 'gayism' , they are really good at doing this! Now it's so obvious to me... "Be yourself, even if you're gay" That was the message...
...Stressful! Even after my exams. Crap, I hope I don't have to take sub-paper or retake any module... I'm beginning to pick up the drive to want to study again, not gonna rely on her but on God!
Screen distort...
Signal Strength: Weak
Preparing to sign off...
3
2
1
Bye!
...Being the admin is not as easy as I thought! I could imagine it as being a clerk in an office but there's really more to it.
I've been working on the software to keep track of boys but I don't seem to be able to finish it.
Other thoughts for the company like creating a website as well as integrating the RO online. Hmmm... maybe I taking things very far... I could slow down and take things 1 at a time.
Screen 2...
...Work at JJRG has been very sianz lately... Boss seems to be depressed... People seems to be not satisfied with us. Too many gimmicks and reliance on promotions I guess is one of the main reason...
I wish for once at least boss can bring US together to at least pray about it... Could have been better I guess.
Screen 3...
...Server is up! Ugh! VS.Net cannot create webpages on XP Home!!! Damn! Waste my $$ to maintain the server... At least I found out about MS Web Matrix... But it's so not as good as VS... I think I need to learn XML for that.
Screen 4...
...Damn! been looking all over for my E700A cover... Grrr! Already got 1 crack at the side man! :(
Shark Tales was damn funnie! But I guess she's rite, it's trying to promote 'gayism' , they are really good at doing this! Now it's so obvious to me... "Be yourself, even if you're gay" That was the message...
...Stressful! Even after my exams. Crap, I hope I don't have to take sub-paper or retake any module... I'm beginning to pick up the drive to want to study again, not gonna rely on her but on God!
Screen distort...
Signal Strength: Weak
Preparing to sign off...
3
2
1
Bye!
Monday, November 01, 2004
Sianz... Tio meh
Wah kaoz eh.... Ppl scold me say me blog long time nv update... Ppl buzi rite! Nvm, now update le... A bit not my style as u can see... Bo bian, ppl scold scold scold... Dunno wad is need inspiration...
Haiz.. nowadays no $ realli jialat... Bank no $, keep on spending.. Den those realli need to spend wan also no $$... Kaoz eh.. sometimes i wish i can go buy 4D or TOTO or STRIKE...
Too bad... I chosed this path, satisfied with everything.... Sometimes i just think my silliness and my wilfulness is all natural and not that silly to me... All happened because He want it to happen...
Like telling her I like her, so tat she can nv be mine... Den there's buying my phone, den i cannot spend money on other things... Also taking things last min, I cannot share on sunday service... Wah, tat wan realli dui... wanted to share wan, den became too late... Haiz... tok so much, actualli this is not my style wan.... Wah lau eh... spoil my blog ah....
Haiz.. nowadays no $ realli jialat... Bank no $, keep on spending.. Den those realli need to spend wan also no $$... Kaoz eh.. sometimes i wish i can go buy 4D or TOTO or STRIKE...
Too bad... I chosed this path, satisfied with everything.... Sometimes i just think my silliness and my wilfulness is all natural and not that silly to me... All happened because He want it to happen...
Like telling her I like her, so tat she can nv be mine... Den there's buying my phone, den i cannot spend money on other things... Also taking things last min, I cannot share on sunday service... Wah, tat wan realli dui... wanted to share wan, den became too late... Haiz... tok so much, actualli this is not my style wan.... Wah lau eh... spoil my blog ah....
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