Am I back? No way back?

I guess it's time huh?

I've never ever had a successful one... How come? Does the problem really lies with me? I look at everything around me. It seems like everyone has no problems with it... I guess only me...

There's alot of negativity going around these days... Ther 'JCers' are gettin closer to their prelims, probably trying very hard nt to disappoint those around them. JC herself probably's feelin some stress abt ministry. Somebody broke up and probably need the attention...

Kang had his faith on trial again... I hope it goes on well... Dreamerz been dreaming bout lots of things... Our dear botak's struggling hard for his OCS... Jon's wandering aimlessly but gd thing he's got her. Well, she's also struggling with her Chinese... Wonder wad's Beng up to, been lying low since his bdae...

Or am I too low profile? Amoungst the negativity I found some goodness... guess what? I lost 12kg... amazing? No... it's foolish... i'm being teared down by it... 80 to 68... in a week.. wanna try?

Soon everything for will will be gone... No more 2 hall home, no more car/van, no ministry? perhaps nv in my life i'll be able to have c....... I'm bitter...

This is 1 fall i cannot recuperate from... have to really say "nice one" to the devil... really got all of us... this time... Where's our victory?

I miss the BB already. Right even when I'm still serving... It's the passion, the love for the Boys, though naughty they are. They still bring a smile... though after all the anger and frustrations...

I can't forget, sorry, really cannot forget. I'll wait forever if it takes forever. I'm not unrepentant but it's not just the feeling I have to fight, it's almost part of my body and all my sacrifices... I've dumped in every single thing that I could.

Don't understand wad the shit I'm toking about? den y r u here? tat's all i can say...