Youth Camp 2005

Camp theme = "My foot is on the Rock, my name is on the Roll"

Camp Verse:
"2 The LORD is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer; my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge. He is my shield and the horn [a] of my salvation, my stronghold."

Wad a great camp.... Emotional roller-coaster... Lot's of things to tell my group but dunno why something held me back...

Though went thru hell lot of frustrations, I was really encouraged by lots of other occassions... Like my very "co-operative" group suddenly high morale, played the game to the hardest they can.

QS and KS really really are very very very zealous for God... I'm ashamed of myself.... Though I could go thru 4SL with Clement and Re-dedicate Si Hao, but it's harvesting I really really wanna do for God...

I think I'm really getting old... Lot's of signs telling me that...

Cannot win arm wrestling against KS... Unable to stay up a bit later... Lose concentration while leading devotion and prayer... Cannot finish a proper packet of breakfast...

Playing the role of
Facilitator/AGL/Musician/Worship Co-ordinator/Cousin/Friend/Senior/Committee
really is a big big big challenge...

At a point when Facillitator is suppose to come in, All the other roles have to halt, esp Worship Co-ordinator...

When committee is needed, AGL/Cousin/Friend is jeopardized, they know I know the games, but I can't tell...

As a Musician, I cannot be with the group, no AGL/Facilitator to be...

I know during the debrief you all might think that I'm just weak... so I'm telling you all now, yes I'm weak, I'm not ashamed to admit it... Coz I'm a mere HUMAN... and I need God's strength... Yes, with God's strength, I managed to pull thru... But really, we shld not just stick to the committee for double roles next time...

The camp's been messy, but it's a hell lot of growing and re-understanding for everyone there....

I will not be shaken... Really, this blog proves that even though I'm weak, God's strength and sturdiness doesn't leave me... I will not be shaken...

Crapz....

My bloody comp.... Crashed and burnt....

Right... so I thought nothing would've happened when it turned off by itself during defragmentation...

Heck... I tot I could've install Linux and partitioned to run XP as well... Damn it man... right when I needed it the most... All my critical files are gone....

M.A.D's J2ME wireless toolkit and SDK.... shitz...
13th's Admin and Finance files...
Youth Camp minutes, notes and worship slides...

Ok, I deserve it... Should've backed up everything rite? Wad the heck... How was I to know???

Right... The WMAs I've bought cannot be played, the Meego I've created cannot be used... Hell... THIS is technology??? Shitz man...

God... why? I've never spend as much time on the comp as b4... Why? What's the lesson I have to learn here?????? WHY????????? All my work is lost... BB website, FYPJ project, Earnings records, MSN logs. All my IE bookmarks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Can't believe it... Now I have to go thru the painful windows update............... 100mb of crap to download...

Oh btw... If you're reading my blog, there's nothing to be shy or ashamed or wadever not... It's up here for all to view... It's not like me or you have done something bad rite?

Oh no..... Lovelle!!!! you've view my blog on Mr. Jonathan's COMP! What if he were to look at the IE's ??? Hmm... everyone would've been exposed... Hehehe....

Overwhelmed...

Oh God... I'm like the seed which fell among thorns... Choked by all the things in life...

Thank God for blessings... Money kept coming into my wallet until I couldn't manage to keep them properly...

The whole week was work, work and school work... It sux... Can't find a proper computer to install Linux... Can't test out... haiz....

Wed's cell grp was kinda fast... Rained quite heavily after cell...

Been driving everywhere coz of delivery...

Thurs was kinda tough... slpt around 3am... woke up on 7++ I wondered how I managed... Slogged thru sch... worked @ JJRG... Gerlind was telling me how terrible Singaporean drivers are.. Most of them are really out there to cause accidents.. Some are out to cheat ppl's insurance money... bla bla bla..

Friday I gave away my "1st kiss"... How terrible...

Ran into a PILLAR.... All because it was camoflauged... and there were too many water droplets on my side mirror.... :( Really sad...

Rushed to 4SL training... only to find many late, lots not around... I think we need to really PRAY HARD for God's strength and will to be done in this coming Youth Camp...

Guess what.. I got another summon... this time is because I've not placed enough coupons... How wonderful can my day get? great right? I was on the verge of breaking down...

There's just too many things to cope with...

Today's delivery was simple... I chosed to stop a day to be a "great" testimony to my parents... I chosed to lay in bed til I slept enuff..... it sux...

Parade was lousy... although had chances to interact with the Boys, but kinda feel that it's not enough..

Home's the word... Need to go home... you know? "HOME"...

Busy day 2...

Woke up to a rather tired start....

I thought I've missed out on IT3735's homework! But thank God i've it done already!

Mr. Ong is such a kind man. Allowed me to go off early as long as I can complete the practical... Tml 2 hrs dun have his class also... Such a kind person, I've wronged him in yr 2 :(

Suki sushi? suppose to be there at 3pm... End up they all wanna go sakae, den alrite la... sakae it it...

Rushed down to MRT, record time sia, 3:36pm reach Sakae... Surprised to see JADYN!!!! haha... Her 1st time in a sushi bar! Nice... Upload pics later....

Nice, nice, nice... everything that was edible was nice... Maybe shouldn't eat the chilli.... Shit... hate the feeling, dry and spicy, bitter and choking.. I rather eat wasabe, at least is moist...

Now sore throat.... but alrite lar, small price to pay for such wonderful meal... Had laughs and plans, great fellowship! Haha, Qian & Jolie nv come, they sure missed out alot!

Went to Jon's place fix router, troubleshoot for awhile, looks like my skills almost on par with Arthur liao... Hee hee.. Unsure where gone wrong, we got Jon to call Helpdesk...

Super unfriendly, accuse us of changing things, tok rubbish somemore... How can coaxial cables lose signal after 2 metres??? That was the lousiest excuse I've heard...

Anyway, since the Helpdesk say so, we connect using the 2m cable lor... Of course it worked, but it's not the point, coz like tat no need to watch SCV liao... so slowly by slowly fix up...

Ok... learnt a new thing, how to test for connection range :)

Jon drove us to Arthur's place, suppose to get router for Dreamerz, end up he can't find. End up I struck GOLD!!! Thank God! Arthur not using CCNA book, I can now use and refer!!!!! Ain't that gr8?

So... got a few other stuffs, Jon dropped us @ Admiralty MRT - how convienient, so I called Jolie to pass her the digi cam.... Chat wif Dreamerz all the way to terminal....

Went home, rushed to shower and play with Linux :) Now installing halfway... Looks great, moves fast... And it's a PENTIUM ONE CPU!!!! dig this Microsoft! =p

Signing off!

Busy day :)

Morn service - Worship was gr8, sermon like cell like tat...

Drove to Mr. Jon Lim's place 4 the 1st time :) Still not used to that area... Can't get the place registered in my mental street directory...

Lunch @ Puggol Plaza, free parking sia, gr8. The bowls @ their KouFu extra large, dunno why...

Worship rehearsal not bad sia, I think very very "out-reachable".

Admin kenna arrowed again... dunno what makes them think i'm up to it... but anywayz, God's work done in God's way will be God's plan... so here we go :)

Went to prata place for dinner... The more u eat there, the more the food sux... Mee Goreng no taste, kopichino no taste... Consolation, the desert - Strawberry prata (Jam n prata wif colored rice...)

Ok... On the way sendin Jiaying home, kwo asked to watch Doom... hehehe... gr8... itching for nite show :)

3/5 stars ba, not bad for a movie made after a well established almost hopeless script computer FPS game.

The rock always take the role of a villain... Nice effort, average show... Director need to wear better glasses... Probably also got Glaucoma =x

A CHEST-full of load...

Yep.. loads of things to get off my chest...

1. TWB... sorry but this gotta get off 1st... You think u're always rite... You are no soccer fan, just a blind follower, ppl say this gd tat gd u just blindly follow.... Nv even try out things say no good... Always condemn and stereotype...

2. SXH... I can't bear things for u anymore... This is the last emotional blackmail I'm letting u use on me... How was I so blind... Yea... Now can see the big pic liao, Thank God...

3. JLY... Thanks for all the joy u've brought...

4. PJN... I sometimes disagree with wad u say, I can't imagine u also can stereotype ppl as well... sometimes can't take it that you can't stand some minor things...

5. MSL... Some tasks are just not suitable for you...

6. SSS... Attitude, moody person.... lazy? Just a FEMALE.......... sorry to those good gals out there... this's the real female...

7. BKL - Open up pls, I see that u're falling into wad I was before... dun be over obsessed in wad u do...

8. STJ - Thankz for the understandings and time to hear me out... Owe u...

9. JZH - It's my pride, I can't work with you... Ask God to change that... I can't stand the way you do things, you tell me to do things the logic behind what u do...

10 - LCCL - You're an idiot, dumbass, crazy, madman... self-scrutinizing and always judgin ppl... time to wake up....

The world is so evil... can't I live in a computer game?
"A guitar in hand, the world conquered" - MayDay/WuYueTian
"I'll be there for you" will be their 2nd last song for Final Home... LLZ is great...

New job?

It doesn't suits me...

Though lucrative pay, it just doesn't suits me...

Having to stand there watching teenage "ang moh"s almost half naked kicking their long legs in the air with mini-skirts, dancing to disco ecstasy-like music...

The music is just too inviting, I hate to "cannot dance" & "not suppose to sing"... Unbearable...

The banquet part is not a job at all... It's the clearing and setting up... That's crap...

Anywayz transport is not covered, only a $4 transportation fee - which is actually the taxi fare goin into BC.

Dinner is really really crapz... A big struggle for me... Coz just had Cell discussing on it...

Suppose to sneak food so that non of the "heads" sees it... Since it's a party, there's disco, the lights near the food were off. Everyone were more into dancing on the platform den eagered to eat the food... So we're all rushing at that moment...

*Freeze*

"Is that right?" "Why have to sneak?" "Food not covered meh?"

*Cont.*

Supervisor said, "It's your dinner..."

"Fine..." Sad man... my dinner had to be sneaked into a corner... No different as mice or rats...

$5.50/hr * 5hrs + $4 = $31.50xx
$31.50 * 2 = $63.00xx

I'm tired as heck... It's only 1st day... the pay is half of Tiger Beer.... I rather work at APB... :(

The world's against me...

I hate the world we're living in

There's nothing to live for here

If it's not for God's commands...

"If you do what is right, will you not be accepted?" This verse is for all of you....

Often can see the sawdust in other's eyes but miss the log in ours? I've reflected, all of you are NATO... Disappointment time n time again...

Fed-up...

New working environment, $5.50/hr I heard... transport can claim, food covered I think, transport home...

Ain't that good? want this job? Maybe...

Who says I'm quitting? "Quitters never win, winners never quit..." I want to win... At least I'll die trying hard...

YOU dun even know how to kick the ball properly, yet you can criticise PROFESSIONALS... same goes to those Newpaper editors... Idiots, nonsense comments...

School re-opens...

Ok, 1 month just whizz pass like that...

So fast final sem already... I've never thought I could reach this place...

Lot's of uncertainty in my life now... Uncertain of the choices I've made...

Wondering if at any point of time my life could've been different...

Too late to regret anything, just pray that the road ahead will be easier then before. Since I've gone thru attachment & FYPJ, class seems better in some sense... Hopefully I can shine brightly for Jesus..

Okie... Youth Camp 05 comin up... Wish that sometimes God can hold time and everything stood still, so I can catch a breather, maybe round around the world and den take a rest, have a sip of drink and continue again...

Nowadays can't even find time to go cycling with KWO & JY like we used to... Now's "drive!", "go faster!", "hurry up!", "why u always late?"... haiz... if only God allows just 1 day, 24 hours for time to stand still...

Guess my God's been wonderful to me already... At least I have a chance to serve Him... Seeing the people in my group and remembering my role makes me think: "Am I worthy to lead them?" lot's of fear... I think I need God's strength now...

2 corinthians 6 probably my passage for the remaining year... especially verse 3... gotta be good testimonies... not gotta, have to... maybe not have to, is a must...

okie... this skin is gettin on my nerves... finally found a new theme to work on... signing off

Heh heheh.... Too nice...

Entertainment area 1... Xbox/Radio/Guitar

Memoirs & Clothes :)

Entertainment area 2, sleeping & QT section! Workstation :)

Music & Bags!!! My favourite~~~~~~~

ZzZzZz...

Today's parade kinda boring, but it's satan's job to make it so I guess...

No matter how "nothing to do", how sianz & bo liao, we're suppose to be there... Rain or shine, we're not suppose to say "I'm not in the mood" or "Lazy to go...".

We're suppose to pray for God's wisdom and alertness, try to look for opportunities, if not create some... I feel that some of us are starting to become complacent, even myself fall into that trap.... Yawnz...

Eye doctor asked me to stop my Timolol treatment.... how "considerate"... yea, though the lousy painful and �鷳 part no more... But really waste of my money... He sounded rather concerned that if I had started using the medicine...

Hopefully he did not prescribe me wrong things.... Scheduled me with an earlier appointment... ugh.... hopefully it's not another painful experience...

Goin to change skin again =X

Alrity!!!!

Yea!!!! Went to Ikea again to get my bed :) Great!

Okie... not so great... gotta carry 3 heavy boxes of metal up & down the stairs... On the way stopped and sweated like a pig a few times... I think level 3 ah peh laughing at me :(

Rite... cleared the whole room and I realised that I've alot of rubbish...

Came home at 2:40PM

Finished clearing/fixing bed/rearranging bedroom at 11PM !!!

Man, was I tired...

Later on there's goin to be worship Jamming for Ken, Sherz and Liwen. Haven't book 589A yet =x ok, will call Pastor Shee in the morning it inform =P Pastor Joyann! Where are you? I can't get ur phone~~~

Love my room now... smells great (apple essense) and dust-less!

Okie, damn tired... signing off!

Diagnosed...

Right... I've been diagnosed POAG by the TTSH eye specialist.....

Primary Open-Angle Glaucoma... it's a shock...

PES-D for longer period I guess... the MO's not gonna give me more than 3 extentions I think...

The feeling sux... I've no problems seeing... I've no pains unless my eyes are meddled with...

I hate dilation... Vision blurred, light burns ur eyes... kaoz...

Goin to Ikea... finally time to buy a new bed... too bad it's not from Big... looks like gotta shift my room again.... :(

Never knew worship co-ordinator is such a hassle... Hope to see the new styles of worships :)

Okie, signing off!