Let the light shine~

22 days since I've blogged. Now for an update!

Theses 22 days have been very fulfilling. Lots of ups & downs...

Leant to accept that bloggin is a good form for pouring out
feelings...

Surprise to hear that myself =x !

Been through a hell lot of things and got myself really really worn down. Sorry bros for my last blog, been really frustrated and angry at you all =x but everything's fine now :)

Christmas was really great! As I've said, we are the ones planning and it was whole damn fun. The rushing through of meeting up, decorating the church. We even had to have cell group in church!(that's a 1st).

Things seemed pretty stressful, had to juggle with Christmas, recruitment, 1st parade... To add on is my school and work at JJ... God seemed to be juggling all these things for me, I didn't felt stress or anything, maybe excited when the actual even comes but not nervous or stressed at all... Thank God! Amen!

Got really really sick on Christmas morning...
Doc told me it was stomach flu~
I just couldn't stop vomitting all the way til monday nite(tues morn ba?)[*_*]

Terrible terrible diesease man... Wed Nick and Arthur shared their story with me, also stomach flu... Kaoz the best way to lost weight is to get stomach flu....

Lost 2KG a nite leh! But I gained it back in the afternoon... All water weight -_-'

Well, now I'm well again! Amen!

Hahax! My guitar hardcase got sold away by the shopkeeper!!! So angry at him sia.... heartache man... so slim and beautiful... He told me that he will order the more expensive 1 to replace mine and charge me the same price.. Aiyo... not about pricing lah uncle...

The carpet inside so shiok, the shape so sexy, slim and light...

Kaoz why you never look after!!?? Now must negotiate le... Get it back, or maybe this new 1 also as good... Dunno... later goin to CHECK IT OUT :)

Yawn.. sleepy... goin to nap le, very very very bad throat from the vomitting... thank God He soothed it for me today! Pray for my throat & my health! Amen!

It's hard to show no wrath

GGGRRRRR! URRRGGGG! AAAARRRRHHH!

Today's a very very crappy day for me.

The message today didn't mean a lot to me but God through the day taught me a lesson. No matter how big your faith is, how strong in Christ you are, you CANNOT depend on man. ONLY depend in God.

It's very very sad that Christian brothers and sisters fail you. Right when you least expected and those whom you really can trust.

Crap man. This 1st parade meeting was really a real blowout for me. A really big disappointment. Late, never turn up, talk crap, don't want to concentrate. From there I found out that there are Christian sisters who dislike me for no obvious reason... That was really really sad, I've tried a lot of ways to change, I never thought that my efforts unseen by my parents are also unseen by others. The pain in my heart was excruciating. I'm so sad by the time the meeting ended, I wonder if I was dazing during the meeting...

After the meeting I had to go and decorate the church. Hours of timetable scheduling and time planning I finally manage to get the whole cell group to get down and do some deco. This is the biggest disappointment I got. Instead of decorating the place I can see people lazing around and not doing the most important and time wasting thing.
Of course I didn't want to show anger or scold anyone because I don't want to hurt anyone. I also didn't want to disappoint them so I did the decoration by myself.

ALL THE BLOODY DECORATIONS ARE DONE BY MYSELF...

I do not know why God want to teach me this panful lesson but I think I over rely on Christian brothers and sisters. I think God is telling me that all men are the same whether Christians or not.

I almost couldn't take it when it seems that my comments were not taken into considerations. Planned and agreed upon, Christmas noon my house BBQ with plt 14 but then don't know why change to steamboat with plt 17 instead. I only know the actual information only yesterday and I already planned the plt 14 BBQ like october.

I didn't mind the change but it's the ignorance of my comments, my time, my planning and all my efforts gone to waste. Also the last minute information. I was like the last to know. Even Kangwei who is not in parade, cannot come for service knew 1st hand information!!! What is this?????

Don't blame me if 1 day I really blow off my top, I'm still human anyway. Cannot continue le. My keyboard will spoil of taking then punches my fingers throw...

Grr!

~Platoon 14~ Best of the best!

The following is not a blog! Or is it? Well, it�s my part of the platoon 14 story to chip in for the 20th anniversary article J

Mr. See and Platoon 14

To me platoon 14 will always be the best platoon in sembawang sec history. We had all the attention of all the officers in the 1st year, we had 15 for us to experiment out leadership on. We planned and 'guenea pigged' platoon 16. We've gone through thick and thin as a platoon. Even though we did not had the highest retention rate but we definitely (& I condfidently say) we have the quality.

Of course we also have our bad points, I feel that we will find it hard to let young blood to replace us in our roles... Perhaps we are a bit afraid to let go(maybe only for me). We're a platoon that will always complain on many things but try not to get things doneby ourselves(this I can say it's true).

With our trys and testings, we also started to take up to the challenge by being the various instructors for platoon 17 and I dare say it's a great fomula worked out!

Overall, platoon 14 is a great all rounded platoon. We've got our "missionary" (Caleb), our "Worship leader" (Jonathan), "School-loving station officer" (Wei Beng) and our "Nurses/1st aiders" (Kang Wei and Simon)! Half of us can play music and can even form our own band... Our keyboard - Caleb, guitarist - Simon/Jonathan, Drummer - Leonard (ME!) and our "Star singer" - Wei Beng!!!

It's great to be in this blessed platoon, we've gone through 6 years in 13th coy. God has seen us through many obstacles, taught us many invaluble lessons and I feel really close with this group of guys. Thank God for everything He's done for platoon 14! PLT 14 is da best!

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~Seven Days A Week::Every Minute of The Day~

We've been talking on the phone for hours and hours.
You can give me a call whenever you like to.
And if you would fall you know I will catch you.
Yeah I'll stick around, I'll be right beside you.
Whooo ohh ohh..
I'm sure you always knew what you had to do.
And I'm sure you had your reasons you change 'em every season.
Hold on, hold on.
I'm taking a vacation, I'll see you at the station.
Hey, Hey, Hey.

Seven days a week, every minute of the day.
Oh whooo oh oh, Whooo oh oh.
I've been thinking about you and what you've been up to.
Seven days a week, every minute of the day.
Oh whooo oh oh, Whooo oh oh.
Girl you're living in danger you're sleeping with strangers.
No nothing can change us, no nothing can keep us from falling, from falling.

We've been talking on the phone for hours and hours.
You can give me a call whenever you like to.
And if you would fall you know I will catch you.
Yeah I'll stick around, I'll be right beside you.
Whooo ohh ohh..
Girl you're out of your mind, you're my partner in crime.
And I'm sure you had your reasons you change 'em every season.
Hold on, hold on.
I'm taking a vacation, I'll see you at the station.
Hey, Hey, Hey.

Seven days a week, every minute of the day.
Oh Whooo oh oh, Whooo oh oh.
I've been thinking about you and what you've been up to.
Seven days a week, every minute of the day.
Oh Whooo oh oh, Whooo oh oh.
Girl you're living in danger you're sleeping with strangers.
No nothing can change us, no nothing can keep us from falling, from falling.

And I'm sure you had your reasons you change 'em every season.
Just Hold on, yeah hold on.
I'm taking a vacation, I'll see you at the station.
Hey, Hey, Hey.

Seven days a week, every minute of the day.
Oh Whooo oh oh, Whooo oh oh.
I don't wanna change you, I just wanna see you.
Seven days a week, every minute of the day.
Oh Whooo oh oh, Whooo oh oh.
Girl you're living in danger you're sleeping with strangers.
No nothing can change us, no nothing can keep us from falling, from falling.
Oho ho ohooo.

Being humble...

Youth Camp 2004 has just finished...

Although I'm not a GL or AGL, neither an overseer nor part of the committee, not a camper and not a speaker. I was invited to stay over and 'help' out in the camp.

3rd to 6th Dec 2004, Youth Camp. BB/GB Campsite... The theme was "I found it". I was wondering why God wanted me to go. Since I'm not 1 of them, I didn't find the need to evangilise.

Way before the camp, "councellor" gave me "councilling" and before that I did not felt left out. It was only after I knew that I had to stay for the camp then I felt very very left out. I prayed to God and ask myself why, "What am I to do in the camp?". Kept thinking of what can I learn...

I was brought back to the days of last year when I was the AGL of Da Vinci (we got 1st place in games). We were so called reunited when I was asked to join Jasper because many of our old teammates were there...

During the camp, I never fail to remind myself of what am I suppose to learn here, yet throughout I didn't find anything to learn...

I was the musician, the games master, the assistant soundman, stand-in GL, I found myself doing part-time logistics as well as the photographer...

I never found anytime to listen to any messages, participate in the games, gel together with my group or any of such. Sure I've enjoyed previledges like being able to sleep in the Officer's bunk, to be able to forfeit another group's points/beads and take plastic cups instead of using my own mug... But I did not see what God was trying to teach me.

I was feeling bad when I could not help my GL even though I was trying to stand-in when he was not around just because I did not get to know them and I almost killed the fire for them...

The feeling of being unable to accomplish what seemed that I'm suppose to do was rather a great impact to me. I felt God was very harsh on me by putting me in that position...

I didn't care about it and kept thinking still there must be a lesson for me to learn... I still didn't found what was it - I've not found it...

The last day of the camp(today) was really a bummer... Throughout the camp no one woke me up for anything, nobody cared if I was late for worship, if I'm late for breakfast, for devotion or workshop... I only had things to do when I ask if help was needed, if not I would initiate my on my own...

I seemed to be so extra, no it's excess. If I'm extra at least it's still ok,(extra food, extra cash) but it was like I'm so excess.(excess fats, excess baggauge) I sucked like hell man... And I was left to go home alone, nobody cared, my friends left, logistics hurried away and I was so left out.

Even though God sent transport and companionship but it wasn't at all comforting, it made matters worst for me... It was so sad but I cannot be.

Theses weren't the worst things. The really worst thing was I had nothing to keep as a souvenier, not even a photo. I was so depressed about it...

But I still never forget the thought in my mind. What am I suppose to learn from God? Apart from starting to evangelise to Dennis I really could not find anything worthy to be called related to God... My heart was already crying...

Till now, I still feel a little upset but then...

I found it! I found what God was teaching me as I sit down and think and pray about it.

KWO asked me, "You do this for reconition?" Immediately the answer to that irritating question popped up to my mind.

God was telling me to be humble, I was there to serve God, to do His work. To remember what I had been practicing since my BB days - To be humble.

hum�ble ( P ) Pronunciation Key (hmbl)
adj. hum�bler, hum�blest
Marked by meekness or modesty in behavior, attitude, or spirit; not arrogant or prideful.
Showing deferential or submissive respect: a humble apology.
Low in rank, quality, or station; unpretentious or lowly: a humble cottage.

How the hell could I have forgottened that I was there to serve? I totally forgotened to be humbled that I'm not a need to others but I'm just serving. I thank God that He has teached me a lot of humbleness and being lowly among others. I also want to thank God that I was the 3rd last part of the pie to get Dennis to accept Christ... It was such encouraging that I did my part for God. Amen!

Btw, this post is sooooooo 'diary-like' and I hate it... But I guess the Holy Spirit wanted me to pen this down... Cya!



Here's to Dennis and all the others who have accepted the Lord! Amen! and Hallelujah!

The Showdown...

The atmoshpere was really well, things were as busy as before. The Sheriff(G) was happy that there were plenty people coming in to extort their money in the form of taxes. Constables of the Sheriff were quietly and busily creating opportunities to draw the commoners' attention away from worrying about the taxes...

The newly recruited tax collector(S) was to be an understudy of one of the constable, little did the Sheriff knew that the contable(K) had a different agenda, to create an uprisin to bring new blood to create a new land without taxes...

Sheriff had reports from his Spies(C & L) that there's a new force that had been helping citizens evading the taxes and many were attracted to this 'new land' and have quickily joined in the new force. It became so lucrative & inviting that Spy L had almost fall into the trap of Constable K, if it wasn't for the Sheriff who had quick wittedly bad-mouth the opposing forces inevitably Spy L would have already gone into the no-way-back road...

Although the upcoming opposition posseses no evil intention but the very actions of evading taxes and causing an uprising were enough to weigh heavy on the bad side of the Sheriff's heart. For years the younger bloods have heard tales about the fearless Sheriff who kept the town(D) safe, free from external threats(Cu) and no need to mention internal threats, but never once did the new blood saw how the Sheriff worked.

Brainwashed and not beliving in the power of the Sheriff, the tax collector tried to break free from his duties, creating havoc and adjusting, doctoring the receipts and tax replies(although it never tallies). Finally caught by one of the Sheriff's men(Le), Sheriff swung into action and started the interogation...

Sheriff: "Who did this?"
Tax-collector: "I did..."
Sheriff: "What were you thinking?! Who ordered you to do it? Answer me!"
Tax-collertor: "Nobody! I did it on my own will..."
Sheriff: "Don't cover for the new forces..."
Constable K: "What new forces!? You mean us? Fine! We shall end it now..."

With the abrupt interruption of constable K, the tax-collector ran away. Knowing he has already ran out of danger as K was already dead-locked in the sight of Sheriff's eyes as 'the one'.

It came down to the showdown at high nite... Sheriff walked away as K started to fire the 1st bullet into the ground... Returning the offense, the bullet missed K as it came out of Sheriff's gun.

Tax-payers and non-tax-payers in the Saloon dropped their cutleries with their food still in the mouth and eyes opened wide stared motionlessly into the windows. Surrounded by both party's men the showdown began...

Fierce shots fired at the Sheriff while he dodged them all. All this while the Sheriff did not return fire and it made him looked small... It seemed that K would have emerge as the winner but it wasn't over. Apparently both sides were firing blanks as non of the bullets hit, though K's efforts were to be applauded for...

There were times where it look'd like the Town(D) was a ghost town as Sheriff and K hid and reloaded their weapons... The Sheriff was hiding for a long time while K was firing aimlessly at barrels, crates, even windows towards Sheriff. It seems that the sheriff was all the while a coward...

Minutes passed, both party's men stood apart, looking at each other without any idea of what to do... As both side started to leave 1 by 1, the Sheriff stood out. K fired frantically at Sheriff, threw away his revolver and drew out 2 shotguns from the saddle on his horse. Repeatiously firing at the Sheriff as Sheriff walks calmly towards K withoutbeing hit.

As Sheriff draws near, K became more silent. K's heart was trembling and started to see how big Sheriff was. He thought to himself, "I can't turn back now..." Immediately reached for his Ivory 6-holes and point it at Sheriff's head. "Why is he so near? Am I touching him...?

"Bang!"

Wanna know the ending? hehehe, based on my encounter, a true story... Cannot say the ending, msg me if u wanna noe :)

Finally Done!

Hehah!

 

Finally I’ve finished my blog design! Though Mr. Thong says I’ve ripped it off from blogspot but it’s not all theirs J

Messin with my blog even though I’m a programmer was such a challange :p… I could use some practice for my webpage designing classed :P

 

Nice music? Great track from The Sounds, with Seven Days a Week… Yeah! That’ll be the theme to my new blog! More info bout them at http://www.the-sounds.com/eng/index.php...

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You cannot be comfortable with who you are

Haiz... Yes, God made every1 different and uniqe, but that doesn't means you can be who you want to be... God has His own expectations too...

God wants everyone to shine for him and in everyway, He will want us to be as perfect as possible :) Why? Cause we are standing testimonies for Him!

If there are any flaws that we have we are suppose to change that because it's an obstacle from letting us shine...

It's not about accepting yourself and not about attracting attention but what it's called is "Breaking out of the comfort zone" - being the Godly people we are suppose to be :)

Sad sad days

Haiz... After tat "councelling" session yesterday I sort of understand a little be more if myself...

Just like what I typed in the intro, I don't like to show my feelings... So much so that I cover myself up so much that I don't realise it.

Today was such a great challenge for me to go to work. I had to act normal and try to "be open" as suggested... Hmmm.. I guess it's really difficult to work while you're not concentrating... For a start, I took wrong orders... Throughout the night there were many hiccups here and there. I dropped the cups with water(thank God it was before the sink!), I ran my cup of peach coke with lemon into the transparent plexi-glass(thank God again that it did not spilled into the computer but only the floor...). I was starting to think about things and then I realised that I've been drying the cutlerys for about 30 mins!!!

Well, guess I'm pretty much disturbed about it... "Couseller" told me that I was "prim and proper" person, which I think is a very nice way of saying that I'm very boring... Guess I am... Haiz.. No wonder the "attacker" did not liked me. Kekeke. Only can accept it loh, I guess it's true bah... See the guys always have fun with each other but I don't seemed to click with them. At least there's "yao yao" =X

Heh, been crappy lately... Wanna buy this buy that, go here go there but then no $$$. Grr.... lend out my book then never return me... 1 whole year le!!! Ask to borrow book can bring the wrong book to borrow, haiz...

Heheh! This X'mas is gonna be so great! Planned by the pioneers, the young bloods, the head honcho... Us! Wee... Yeah, I already know what I'm getting and who's it is for loh... Unless he don't want me to take - sianz loh.

Ugh.. Recruitment is so, so so near. I haven't see my assistant chairman for so so so long. I don't even know if he knows what we have been doing so far. He's gonna get it from me if he doesn't know what to do. Hmmm... does that sound like the old me? Err... alright hor? Cause is BB things mah, must be more strict =X

Whoof... School re-opening soon leh... No time for things leh... Really must thank God, I've passed every single module! Not 1 I failed... hehehe thank God :) Stress, nearer and nearer to year 3, I still don't see the path this course is leading me. I can only see 2 choices to take next year, Multimedia if not Programming. Ugh, I dread Programing, but then it's the only "tan jia" line I can go into... Never mind, I'll leave it to God to decide, He WILL lead!

Yikes! look at the time! Gotta go! cya! bye! Sad day indeed...

Tired, just tired...

Staring at the screen...

...Being the admin is not as easy as I thought! I could imagine it as being a clerk in an office but there's really more to it.

I've been working on the software to keep track of boys but I don't seem to be able to finish it.

Other thoughts for the company like creating a website as well as integrating the RO online. Hmmm... maybe I taking things very far... I could slow down and take things 1 at a time.

Screen 2...

...Work at JJRG has been very sianz lately... Boss seems to be depressed... People seems to be not satisfied with us. Too many gimmicks and reliance on promotions I guess is one of the main reason...

I wish for once at least boss can bring US together to at least pray about it... Could have been better I guess.

Screen 3...

...Server is up! Ugh! VS.Net cannot create webpages on XP Home!!! Damn! Waste my $$ to maintain the server... At least I found out about MS Web Matrix... But it's so not as good as VS... I think I need to learn XML for that.

Screen 4...

...Damn! been looking all over for my E700A cover... Grrr! Already got 1 crack at the side man! :(

Shark Tales was damn funnie! But I guess she's rite, it's trying to promote 'gayism' , they are really good at doing this! Now it's so obvious to me... "Be yourself, even if you're gay" That was the message...

...Stressful! Even after my exams. Crap, I hope I don't have to take sub-paper or retake any module... I'm beginning to pick up the drive to want to study again, not gonna rely on her but on God!

Screen distort...

Signal Strength: Weak
Preparing to sign off...
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Bye!

Sianz... Tio meh

Wah kaoz eh.... Ppl scold me say me blog long time nv update... Ppl buzi rite! Nvm, now update le... A bit not my style as u can see... Bo bian, ppl scold scold scold... Dunno wad is need inspiration...

Haiz.. nowadays no $ realli jialat... Bank no $, keep on spending.. Den those realli need to spend wan also no $$... Kaoz eh.. sometimes i wish i can go buy 4D or TOTO or STRIKE...

Too bad... I chosed this path, satisfied with everything.... Sometimes i just think my silliness and my wilfulness is all natural and not that silly to me... All happened because He want it to happen...

Like telling her I like her, so tat she can nv be mine... Den there's buying my phone, den i cannot spend money on other things... Also taking things last min, I cannot share on sunday service... Wah, tat wan realli dui... wanted to share wan, den became too late... Haiz... tok so much, actualli this is not my style wan.... Wah lau eh... spoil my blog ah....

Just chatting

Leo: Sob*

Leora: Wad's da matter?

Leo: Nth... U noe it, the same old story...

Leora: Care to share? I'm sure u need someone to hear u out, to lend u a shoulder to cry on...

Leo: Yea, I guess so... But... It doesn't feel rite...

Leora: C'mon! Wad are 2nd personality for!?

Leo: The world seems dark... 世界太黑暗了... Just scanned tru the blogs around mine... it seems tat every1 has problems... wad's God doin???

Leora: Perhaps God wans it to be that way.... Maybe it has to be tat way?

Leo: But why? God should noe that it's not good tat way! Every1 seems to be sad, even started to affect me...

Leora: Well, I guess if everybody is happy we won't be here right? We'll all be in heaven!

Leo: Erm... tat make sense... But it seems to be just an excuse... Why can't God just make everything rite? He's so powerful, surely He can reverse the doin of sin??

Leora: Tsk tsk tsk... Have u 4gottened wat God gave us? Freedom! What if there are people who doesn't want to be with God? They have a choice rite?

Leo: Why would somebody in their sicko mind wouldn't wanna be with God??!!!

Leora: How'd I noe?! Go ask them!

Leo: See! Excuses...

Leora: Don't doubt... u noe u r not suppose to...

Leo: So wad if I do? Nth seems do be happening now, nth gd, nth bad... I dun get wat I pray for, I dun need to pray for myself....

Leora: You MUST be crazy! Look at wad u are saying!

Leo: WAD am I saying?

Leora: Can't u see? U're so blessed by God! Yet u took them all for granted! For a start, u have everything a person need! Clothes to wear each day, food to eat...

Leo: Yea so? Other non-believers have them too!

Leora: Why are u so blind?? So wad if they have them too? Does it mean they are not God's creations? Does God not love them?

Leo: Yea rite! Wad about those believers who r suffering? Those in trials, those in pain, near death, near tortured? & those non-believers who are also suffering?

Leora: Wad about them?

Leo: It's just not fair! God's not fair...

Leora: Grrr... u noe, u have a really thick skull... God loves every1... God loves u, loves me, loves everybody...

Leo: Yea yea, cut the crap... wad r u toking abt?

Leora: God place us in strategic places, we are so blessed, and there are so many others tat are less blessed than us, we shld share our blessings with them!

Leo: Easier said than done... I'm not cut out for mission, I dun even have the discipline to read and pray daily, wad the hell can I do?

Leora: Why don't u learn???!! u don't have to do anything great... Parable of the 2 coins.... The lady gave 2 coins & yet Jesus favored her because He knew it was all she had...

Leo: Yea yea... the richer gave more but was not all he had... I have to give up all my cash? Even if I dun die of hunger my dad n mum will KILL me!

Leora: Speaking of ur parents, u still haven't told dad able our faith in Christ did u?

Leo: Well, I’m sure they kinda know already... I noe mum noes I'm close to Jesus.... & dad fetch me to church for God's sake!

Leora: U still haven't tell them!!!

Leo: Yea... urea sure a bother... C'mon, u were born tis yr ok! Dun nag at me like urea mum...

Leora: I was born 6 yrs ago u noe? U didn't even noe..... I was given a NAME tis yr.... u're such a jerk..

Leo: Yea! insult me... tat's wat everybody does... Dun forget u're my 2nd personality... I'll switch u off anytime...

Leora: I dare u... Don't try to grief me... I'll tell God abt it... We'll see who gets the last laugh...

Leo: Alright alrite.... Can't be bother with u... Too bad I can't see u... Or touch u... I still need tat shoulder to lean on...

Leora: It's alrite... Just so u noe, I’ll be with u from now til forever....

Leo: Gr8.. dun remind me...

Leora: Grr... wad does tat suppose to mean!

Leo: hehe... jus kiddin.. Go to slp... tml's another day....

Leora: Rite... I'll go after u READ AND PRAY...

Leo: ... ... ...

Leora: Waiting for?

Leo: OK... goin... after I post tis :)

Rose...

Nice story that Caleb sent me... Enjoy!

The first day of school our professor introduced himself and challenged us to
get to know someone we didn't already know. I stood up to look around when a
gentle hand touched my shoulder.

I turned around to find a wrinkled, little old lady beaming up at me with a smile that up her entire being. She said, "Hi handsome. My name is Rose. I'm eighty-seven years old. Can I give you a hug?"

I laughed and enthusiastically responded, "Of course you may!" and she gave me a
giant squeeze.

"Why are you in college at such a young, innocent age?" I asked. She jokingly replied, "I'm here to meet a rich husband, get married, and have a couple of kids..."

"No seriously," I asked. I was curious what may have motivated her to be taking on this challenge at her age.

"I always dreamed of having a college education and now I'm getting one!" she told me. After class we walked to the student union building and shared a chocolate milkshake.

We became instant friends. Every day for the next three months we would leave class together and talk non-stop. I was always mesmerized listening to this "time machine" as she shared her wisdom and experience with me.

Over the course of the year, Rose became a campus icon and she easily made friends wherever she went. She loved to dress up and she revelled in the attention bestowed upon her from the other students. She was living it up.

At the end of the semester we invited Rose to speak at our football banquet. I'll never forget what she taught us. She was introduced and stepped up to the podium. As she began to deliver her prepared speech, she dropped her three by five cards on
the floor.

Frustrated and a little embarrassed she leaned into the microphone and simply said, "I'm sorry I'm so jittery. I gave up beer for Lent and this whiskey is killing me! I'll never get my speech back in order so let me just tell you what I know."

As we laughed she cleared her throat and began, "We do not stop playing because we are old; we grow old because we stop playing. There are only four secrets to staying young, being happy, and achieving success. You have to laugh and find humour every day. You've got to have a dream. When you lose your dreams, you die. We have so many people walking around who are dead and don't even know it!

There is a huge difference between growing older and growing up. If you are nineteen years old and lie in bed for one full year and don't do one productive thing, you will turn twenty years old. If I am eighty-seven years old and stay in bed for a year and never do anything I will turn eighty-eight. Anybody can grow older.
That doesn't take any talent or ability. The idea is to grow up by always
finding opportunity in change. Have no regrets.

The elderly usually don't have regrets for what we did, but rather for things we did not do. The only people who fear death are those with regrets."

She concluded her speech by courageously singing "The Rose."

She challenged each of us to study the lyrics and live them out in our daily
lives.

At the year's end Rose finished the college degree she had begun all those years ago.

One week after graduation Rose died peacefully in her sleep.

Over two thousand college students attended her funeral in tribute to the
wonderful woman who taught by example that it's never too late to be all you can
possibly be.

REMEMBER, GROWING OLDER IS MANDATORY. GROWING UP IS OPTIONAL.
We make a Living by what we get, We make a Life by what we give.

God promises a safe landing, not a calm passage. If God brings you to it, He will bring you through it.

Learning to let go...

Just a little thought after the attack.

God created EVERYTHING, He chooses to give us freedom, to give us blessings and chooses all the right choice(that's why He's God!). If we want something, we don't earn it, we dun ask for it, we can only pray about it :) If we want something really bad, we often fight for it, find means to get it and of course get angry over it. Well, if we cannot even let go even when we don't have it, would you think God will want to give it to you? What if He wants to take it back? Then you'll curse and swear and be angrier right? Think about it! Lesson here is to learn to let go.

I've learnt to let go, can you?
Enjoy! God Bless

Pain!!!

Another story from the forum! Damn.... later get sued by the forum =X....
Anywayz, Enjoy!

A boy was born to a couple after eleven years of marriage.
They were a loving couple and the boy was the apple of their
eyes. When the boy was around two years old, one morning the
husband saw a medicine bottle open. He was late for work so
he asked the wife to cap the bottle and keep it in the
cupboard. The mother, preoccupied in the kitchen totally
forgot the matter.
The boy playfully went to the medicine bottle and, fascinated
with its color, drank it all. It happened to be a poisonous
medicine meant for adults in small dosages.When the child
showed signs of poisoning the mother took him to the
hospital, where he died. The mother was stunned. She was
terrified how to face her husband. When the distraught father
came to the hospital and saw the dead child, he looked at his
wife and uttered just four words.


QUESTIONS :

1. What were the four words ?
2. What is the implication of this story ?

Check with the answers only after you have tried to come up
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1. The husband just said "I Love You Darling" .
The husband's totally unexpected reaction is proactive
behavior. He is indeed a genius in human relationships. The
child is dead. He can never be brought back to life. There is
no point in finding fault with the mother. She had also lost
her only child. What she needed at that moment was
consolation and sympathy from the husband. That is what he
gave her.

2. If everyone can look at life with this kind of perspective,
there would be much fewer problems in the world. To be happy
with a man you must understand him a lot and love him a
little. To be happy with a woman you must understand her a
lot and love her with all your heart. "A journey of a
thousand miles, begins with but with a single step." Take off
all your envies, jealousies, unforgiveness, selfishness, and
fears AND you will find things are actually not so difficult
as you think."

I Got Flowers Today...

I got this from a forum... Well, I found it rather "worthy to read" so here goes...

I was once told - no matter how much you love this man, no matter how
much he may love you, but if ever he lifts a hand and hits you...he's
not worth it. I do not think this is easy...but I guess it is true.....

I got flowers today.
It wasn't my birthday or any other special day. We had our first
argument last night, and he said alot of cruel things that really hurt
me. I know he is sorry and didn't mean the things he said, because he
sent me flowers today.

I got flowers today.
It wasn't our anniversary or any other special day. Last night, he
threw me into a wall and started to choke me. It seemed like a
nightmare. I couldn't believe it was real. I woke up this morning sore
and bruised all over. I know he must be sorry. Because he sent me
flowers today.

I got flowers today, and it wasn't Mother's Day or any other special
day. Last night, he beat me up again. And it was much worse than all
the other times. If I leave him, what will I do? How will I take care
of my kids? What about money? I'm afraid of him and scared to leave. But
I know he must be sorry. Because he sent me flowers today.

I got flowers today.
Today was a very special day. It was the day of
my funeral. Last night, he finally killed me. He beat me to death. If
only I had gathered enough courage and strength to leave him, I would
not have gotten flowers today.

Enjoy!

Gurmit Singh...

Just a meter away from me during my 'Desperado' time... 

Desperado...

Waiting since 8am... The line was long... Raindrops drizzled down and the skies were casts with grey...
Hui and I were excited, it was my 1st time, his 1st time too... We never had a chance like this before...
Masses of people formed a were moving like 1 huge snake, it broke up into smaller groups and every single one of us were 'labelled'.
For 2 solid hours we stood in the drizzle and braved minor winds, moving inches towards our target, it seemed forever to reach it... Haizz...

We're in!!! Up the escalators, "Level 6!!" I cried, the atmosphere was so cold, keeping us in reality was the nervousness and prestige of the event... We had to surrender all our documents, questions after questions... By this time it was already another 2 hours gone...
Confirmation letter, thats what we exchanged for our time... A letter....
In and out the oasis, we find ourselves frequenting the stalls and seemed to be getting very restless. Now, tired and fed-up, we tried to find ways to pass the time, it just doesn't want to move...

A whole 4 hours gone!!! Never felt worst in my life, we conversate among each other, found an aquantant - May, she thought I looked familiar, started the interrogations and made time look so bad... Time was definitely the enemy of every single one of us there, time was like hell...

By this time I really had wished that you were here with me, holding my hands, telling me to hang on and you'll be there for me no matter what.

But it wasn't so, there was only Hui, and a May... To make matters worst, we're less than halfway to our target... It doesn't seemed forever anymore, it's NEVER... The next half an hour was like another day, I didn't think I could go on anymore...

The producer annouced the next move - wait again!!! I was fuming mad, May started to smile and me and Hui, as if we're going to enjoy the wait... How am I going to go on? It was real bad... Hui's constant headaches were starting to get to me, he wanted to stop... "No! We've come this far..." I kept saying, even though I didn't want to go on...

"Erm, the rest of the contestants please listen. You'll have to come back tommorow~" announced the hateful producer with a 'gayish' voice and tone... "All of you have to queue up AGAIN to get your RE-SCHEDULED confirmation letter~" he squirmed happily, as though he's gonna enjoy what he's heared after his annoucement...

"This is what I get after waiting for 8 whole hours!!??" lamented a handful... "Yea.." I guessed... A sticker label as a souvenior and a letter... I still have 20 hours to my hopeful target after writing this... It's no fun but it pays, I hope... Now I'm just desperate for you, and desperate for my target... I'll be a desperado...

Hui...

A Desperado best mate...

The Attacker...

Yoz! I'm back :)

Relationships... Time and space can heal a broken relationship, it can also wreck a perfectly good relationship...

That's what I've learnt from a Taiwanese show... A little awkward but I guess TVs serials do portray some true stuffs.....

I've been emotionally down ever since that chalet... Thinking bout lot's of things only 3 hours after the chalet, I guess it really made a huge impact on me...

Damn! It's her! The invasion have begun... All day long it is fighting a battle, holding for ground, holding on to sanity and reality... Trying all ways to ease the pain... Perhaps to reveal everything was the only way, but that would cause the war... It did not dared to make the approach, but her endless and on-going attacks were putting the toil on it...

I received my orders and had to go to work immediately.... AArrrgghh!!! Flashes of images, she appeared again!!! Just as no one would have thought, it happened... The second wave of attacks, hitting it even harder... Abstract as it all may sound, I was fighting a battle.... An endless battle... Suddenly a new player entered the game, even amist the chaos and havoc, another 'she' was there... This time it became even more serious... It invaded her and hide there for a while until the 1st attacker had worn out...

Hours passed... All was quiet, maybe she had gave up... Even the new player disappeared, but then the agony and destruction left by the attacker had it ringing in it's ears... The sorrows and pain wailed, they cried for others ease their pain, but all the others could only amplify what was already hurt...

I could only sleep, that was the only option.... The 1st thing I thought of when I woke up was her... She invaded my mind, attacked me... Waves of ruthlessness brought me over my senses, it seems as though it'll never end.... I tried to shun but I couldn't bear... It was madness, pure agony... Them amplification took off in an abrupt but lasting manner and I was already screaming by then... Why me? God! Help! It cannot be!!!

I called, I've shared, I've tried all ways to understand the situation... The attacker had a new tactic, it was playing in the league of it's own, a different era.... I could not understand it... I surrendered to her on that fateful night, all went well and it seems peace was the only outcome... It was my worst decision so far, just as all it's guards were down, she attacked again!!! It was only a night's rest, yet the attacker was hungry for more, she was vicious with her bites and snaps this time and the howling were further extended, no one saw her like this before...

At this time, I already fell back and gave up... I stood up for nothing and found it already in a state where nothing could be done... This time at least it found an ally, it learnt a lot in the 3 days of agony... All that it has learnt it used it with it's ally, suddenly the amplified howls and wails were gone, help have arrived... It was time for STRIKE-BACK...

Whoa... Did I typed this? Real abstract eh?
Hope you guys will understand... I know the attacker won't ever understand...

God Bless!
Leo

The Class

The class... That's me in the center :)

Footwear

Hey blog!
Watzup? Been a very very long time since I've authored here....

Life's been rather gd.. Xcept for some messy emotions early these May...
Shall not talk bout it... :)

Went to the chalet with my class!! Boy was it boring and real emotional for me...
Here's my thought through the chalet, I guess it's rather good for sharing :)

Staring at the shoes outside the door, without sleep and rest, I creep towards the door trying not to wake Rubz... "All of us are juz like our footwear, mine and Suki's stands out the most, brightest and some sort cleanest" 1st thought came to my mind "We're the light of the world, Christians, pure and rather innocent..." but then still some difference can be noted.

Looking at Henry's basketball shoes shows a lot... "He's so loyal, very conservative, doesn't show emotions easily... Tends to hide himself...." "Tecky's sports shoes tells a lot bout him, average boy, very normal, very very ordinary..."

Bowing my head I prayed for a while, the love of my life, I thanked God for putting me here so I could see this... "Eggy's sandals - sophisticated and has depth, no wonder he's the class rep..." further on as if I'm not tired enough I reached Yong's slippers... "Carefree, doesn't really care what others' views on him neither does he try to view others..." the villain comes out dark at night, but at 5++ am I'm alone, not afraid... "Darren's sandals are very overprotecting, never like to show any feelings or emotions at all, when probed, it'll bounce back at you... Super rigid, both owner and shoe..." Villians come, villains go...

Friends stays forever... "Sida and Rubz's classy and stylish slippers are fashionable but to the average, it's ordinary, to the attentive its every detail tells a story... True but ordinary." I struggle to stay awake and thought of more shoes worthy to look at... "Hui's simpleness and upfront got me admiring his sandals..." Suki by this time have already woke up and slept and wake again for numerous times... I couldn't help but try to get her to sleep and continue evaluating...

"Her angelic and pure, innocent and elegant sandals... So different from mine, rough and uncultured though as similar points - flexible and comfortable, rather easy going..."

God Bless!
Leo...

The Chalet...

The chalet....

This is the story of a little boy who was bad and bad....

This is the story of a little boy who was bad and bad....
Once upon a time, there was this boy who was mischievous and really rebellious, he was a boy who thought that he ruled his life. All day long he would play soccer and all sort of sports with "friends" and never return home until dinner time. It was a rather "carefree" (more of care-less) life and he enjoyed it.

The boy was smart, he knew many but nonetheless was a master of none. He was an all-rounded sportsman and never knew what was tired. Though he was plum and short but he could outdo any other kid. He was naive, he thought that everything he wanted he could have because of his abilities. He could do well in his studies if he wanted to but nonetheless he didn't cared. Even with that attitude, he still passed his exams year after year. It seems like he has nothing to fear at all.

The boy was only fearful of 2 things, loneliness and his parents. Without his friends, there will be no attention for him, no fun and worst of all, no one to win over. Without his parents, he will have no home and money. With these 2 things in mind, he treated his friends and family with respect. He also had a buddy called T. T had done everything together with the boy and he was an important person in the boy's life.

The boy's life was chaotic, rather wild in a sense. Beating up other kid because he was unhappy, venting his anger on others, and even committing crimes like theft, fights and even gambling. It was more than the average kid's life. Once, he beat up his brother until his tooth dropped out. Another occasion was that he flunk chairs and tables at other pupils. He even stole money because he wanted to buy poker cards.

Even though this kid was such a rascal, he had a soft spot. He has a heart, like all male, he too can fall in love. A rather "emotional" guy, he fell in and out of love all a little too often. Breaking many hearts including his own. 6 years of his hooliganism, he finally quieten down, the reason? - a young and pretty lady called M.

Now M was the complete opposite of the boy, she was pure, and sweet. An angel even, she was the apple in the eye of the boy. The boy knew that in order for M to get to know him, he had to be on the same wave-length with her and therefore he tried to change his behaviour. No time to waste, he promised himself to get his act together and started changing for the better.

It was a tough road, no one taught him what to do. A very lonesome battle where sometimes giving up is the only option. During this time, he had stuck away from his old behavior but still, some of his old self came back and each time it happened, he would think of M. That way he would not do even more wrong. The boy had a really tough time, he was looking for a way to become good - the easy way. In 12 month's time, he finally found the answer. He accepted Christ and from there it was a rather fast pace change. He stopped many habits and started new hobbies and helped out in numerous activicties which contributes to the community.

Along the road, he had committed mistakes, some serious and some minor but he was told to learn from them because it's God's way of teaching and that God has not completed him. It took him 4 years, he finally confessed to M. It took a lot of courage and time for him to speak to M. There are only 2 results, the happily ever-after or the life-crumbling and 4 year wasted result. There was no answer from M, the boy had told M that for them to be together would be impossible because M was not in Christ. It wasn't a rejection, it wasn't an acceptance. The 4 years did not gone to waste and it was not life-crumbling.

The boy had in mind of God. That if he had trusted God, God will provide and therefore he didn't proposed to M. He went on doing God's work and grew even more. Today, when you see that boy, you will not believe the past that he has had. It was God's work in the making and there can be no other way that He would have planned it.

The story does not end here but will be continued on another time, it's a true story...