I guess it's over...

Still do not know wad happened... Perhaps really clueless same as tat someone...

Yesterday was quite a shocking experience. Den I realised that really guys and girls are SO different.

The exact same tone, exact same words can mean exact different meanings to different ppl. It's just so amazing and so overwhelming and so mind bending. I seriously didn't think of anything mean happening there.... Perhaps too insensitive or numb.

I din realise the girls were so fragile. Esp you girls who in my life been very strong and tough in my eyes. That was my 1st experience seeing you all like tat. Pretty scary actually.

It made me wonder and thank God most of the time I really just kept my mouth shut. Wonder what would the many things I would say wrongly... Unintentionally too...

Anyway I hate to see you pissed. I'm sorry to messed up your day... It's just that you can't leave me hanging there. It's so unfair and I know you know it. Nothing I've done was really wrong. Unless you tell me, I'll never know.... So this cooling off been somehow turning into a fading away. I guess sooner or later you'll be erasing me out of your memories...

Just want you to be happy... Even if it's forgetting... I guess it's over...

Man utd sux!

Did it had to end this way? I didn't saw anything wrong coming. Not even the slightest hint... What in the world happened? It's just so unfair. I don't even know what I did wrong.

The world is just so in a big mess. Why? Just why must this happen??? Is it really my fault? Have I done something so gravely that it has to be this way? What's wrong with you????? Can't you just say?

For once I thought this wouldn't hurt. Harmless. But I inflicted it upon myself...

Happy birthday Sher. Hope u'll enjoy your Rum & Raisin Cheesecake.

Xmas is coming. I'm nt happy at all... Even though I've got all the things I want. I still lost the dearest thing to me................................................................................. God, how do I salvage this trauma?

Man UTd Sux... ROAR!!!

Guess I always screw things up...

Well, things won't always stay the same.... I guess I didn't treasured what I had, I didn't really made an effort to maintain the relationship.

Feels really kinda sad... All I can say that is I'll miss you...

On the otherhand, sometimes you have to lose certain things to realise that you've gained somethings... God has always been blessing me. I guess sometimes we just have to open our eyes and see what God really has in place for us.

Youth camp rocks, but I still screw things up. Really give thanks to God for the strengthened relationships. Though we had our misunderstandings but really, what cannot kill us will build us.

Sad to say, sometimes the ppl we know for so long aren't really who we know. I am really confused... On one hand you said I'm a friend you're so glad to have, on the other you act like you don't know me or hate me like some enemy... I wonder....

Event + Response = Outcome.

I'm not going to let my response affect my outcome. This is one of the most beneficial camp to me. Pastor Steven was really inspirational.

Thank God for Marcus and the other girls and boys who accepted Christ. Really wonderful. God really has His plans... All the way til the last day, really amazed that he said yes during devotion!

This year's YC may not have wonderful games, might not been super enjoyable, the campers might not really experience a very very touching message or had the best overall experience. But I guess God really had everything in control.

Gonna miss you...