What am I doing?

This morning I woke up 6+ and snooze until 7:10am. Wasn't late or anything but was just thinking to myself, what if I can't get used to this...

Actually I tried to psycho myself to stay in this job and set a target for myself: the setting up of my makerspace by the end of the year... 

Secondarily, I also want to be financially free so that even without income, the makerspace can actually be an augmentation to my rental. 

Halfway into the day, I feel like just leaving this job and go back to working for myself. I'm not sure if it's because I don't feel like dealing with meeting date lines I cannot control or that I'm not used to the bureaucracy and paperwork.

Work aside, I think I'm finally being punished for my frivolous acts.... Perhaps this is the life I'm meant to live and that's why my romantic plans while I'm younger didn't came to fruition.

But after all said and done, I feel quite at ease even knowing that I might very well be suffering the consequences of my cheekiness. It's not like I'm going to change my ways anytime soon, but I think I'll have to be a bit more reserved and not let this affect anyone else.

Damnit I feel like looking for a part time job that can just provide me enough for my car so that the rental can be used for my house. Unless I get a handout for a pick up, if not there's not freaking way I'm going to sell this car.

Grrr... Sg is such a tiring place to live in comfortably... Even for a single with not much commitment.

OK, time for lunch... Ciao. 

Last update?

After all this time, it's foreign and familiar at the same time.

Since 2015 until now, so much had happened.

I guess some of the key milestones I have to list to count as an update:

So I married the crazy girl in 2016, it all went south and we got divorced in 2019. Freaking hell, I should've came back here to read my last post.....

Oh well, it's a been there done that moment and I must say i'm very grateful for a 2nd chance. The moment i signed the divorce papers, i've never felt so unburdened and free.

Free from the synthetic obligations that I had to be responsible for a crazy woman. Free from the emotional and metal stress I had to put up with.

Anyway, that was 6 freaking years of my life 'wasted'. But no point to dwell over spilled milk.

So my career changed drastically over the years, from preschool worker + part-time insurance, to Ops Manager, IT, Facilities Manager. I've evolved into some kind of management wonderkid, no longer looking at simple job to give me satisfaction.

And today I've ended up on a 'dream' job. I guess it's just 3 days in, there's seem to be some red tape to get me inducted.

Seems like I'd be slacking for a bit until I'm pushed into action. I really hope this will be my last job that I had to interview so hard for.

Till my next update.