Hopping mad, Elated, Numbed & Furored

I don't need to study.
It's my choice. Not whether I can or not.
I don't need to live up to people's expectations.
FYI, I'm earning the most amoung anybody in my cohort.

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Won AF1 Superstar!!! 3rd place to be exact! Very very content coz the rest are really worthy contestants.

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You all need a break. Cut the whose-wrong-&-right, cut being out for each other when u all don't know what's happening, don't judge people. Just don't judge. Don't even say who's wrong or right.

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Dear dear dear... you're not stupid, just that you feel for him... He's over, just don't think abt it and u'll be fine. It doesn't matter of ur religion, he's just not behaving how a gentleman shld be. get over him, u'll be fine. The things he did are just absurd.

You shall not be bothered anymore...

Ouch...

You didn't have to do that.

But thanks anyway, for hurting me. Thanks for waking me up.

I won't pester you anymore.

More Visits =)

Went visiting with e gang yesterday.
This year kinda little ppl. But nevertheless we still went.

My house, thong's house, patrick's place, martin's place & von's place. Didn't get to thrashed anybody's house. Maybe too few ppl to play a fool.

So many ppl's place didn't go. It's alright. Maybe next year?

Went Vivo for plt 14 dinner. Every year we have BBQ, I think that's why JY thought it was BBQ. I don't remember telling you it's BBQ! Don't blame me!!! I really never say. End up we went Marche. Food's really nice, price also nice. Whahas.

Something different this year. Every paid using card except for Kang. Hahas. Haagan Das, OCC Pool and home. What a tiring day.

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Today woke up super late. If it's not for my cousin, I wouldn't have woke up at all.

5pm & she yelled at me! Lolz. "ARE YOU COMING OR NOT?" Hahas, she and her husband 2gether with all our relatives waiting for me coz the Steamboat set spoil, gotta borrow mine.

I quickly stumbled down only to find out there are no cars left at home - another reason to buy car!!! Rushed to her place as fast as the mrt could take me. Dinner time. hehe.

Lots of photos, go to my pic blog for a visit. Heez.

I remember when I 1st spoke to you... I actually invited you to his birthday...

Piggy New Year Pics

Pretty lady having a fun time =)

Playful as always =)

Here comes the boss! lolx

Ever wonder how many cousins I have?

Poor Crystal. Play too rough.

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New Year visiting with e gang
Me & Josh @ Patricks' place, we're wearing the most fashionable wear this year! LOL
Josh and e ladies
Some chit chat
Our gracious hosts & Jon.
Who made the kor kor angry?

Piggy New Year

CNY. Happy occasion.

Went visiting. Loads of reminders.
Went to my dad's side 1st on Friday. Pretty usual stuff. Except that Er gu wasn't around + my cousins.

Da Gu, Ah Po & Ah Gong. Ah Gong had some shoulder problems, hope it'll get better. Haiz...

Ah Po & Da Gu talking to Jacky & Jia Wei.

Qian's Mum & Dad, my day having our annual steamboat dinner.

Today (Sat) went to my mum's side. Bukit Panjang... I really miss that place. As we drove by, lots of memories rushed to my mind.

I really missed my life there. Carefree. Luxury. 16yrs... It's been so long. Thinking back, God's really been very good to me. I had everything I want or needed.

It reminded me of my ah gong gong, who passed away when I was sec 2. Which then reminded me he funeral at that area. It was that time I remembered how painful it is to lose somebody close.

I remembered how hard I cried until I coughed and fell to the ground. I soon learnt that crying over spilled milk is not worth it. Everyone was emotional, anger, sadness, frustration. Ping even hit Aunt Christina on the head for some reason I don't understand.

I just miss that place. The place where I grew up. How I wished that time would stood still at that point when I was still young. No gain, no lost, I had everything I need, EVERYTHING... Nobody was missing in my life... Nobody.

Well, maybe except Jesus. Guess that's why when I grow up, He's in my life to replace all those emptiness I have. I guess...

21st Birthday

Thanks Mum & Dad & my 2 Bros! Without you all I don't think I can have this party!

My Air Force friends.

Lots of food!

Peeps entertaining themselves

Thong, Ger & Me!

What a big cake!

Kat & Me

Sheena, Me, Eileen, Jin Yuan!

Suki, Zhen, Me, Rubz & Sida!

Dennis, Ken, Beng, Thong.
Lovelle, Sherz, Me & Von!

Thanks guys & gals for coming! Really sorry that I couldn't attend to all of you at the same time. Thanks for all your gifts and presents, well wishes too =) I had a great time =)

I wished you would open up... Share the load & burden... Pray that God my grant you comfort, grant you serenity. Most of all that God will strengthen you... There's so many things I wish to tell you, so many things I wished you'd know... Just wanna be there for you if you would...

Happy Birthday Han Kiong - 16th Feb!

COE Price drop!!!

The COE prices dropped by 1/2!!!

Super bigger reason to buy vehicle! Lolx

Mitsubishi Lancer seems ok... Price kinda the cheapest among the lot... Haiz... dunno...

Happy V'day to all~
Happy Bday to me~
Happy CNY to everyone!

Sadded...

The Come-back Kings are really come-back kings... They just won't score if they don't let in goals... :( what a roller coaster ride. The ref has gotta be sacked. No matter how much they fine him, it won't change results or relief the bans made on players... UGH!!!. SADDED

Small details u left out breaks my heart... Felt really unappreciated really...
My blood rushes whenever I'm near you, if you think not coz I'm trying very hard to put on a cold front.
Don't wanna lose it... Really really afraid... SADDED

Throat infection... Pain... Ugh... SADDED

Late for service again. This really proves another point for me to get a vehicle.
A) Toyota Rush
B) Daihatsu Terios
C) Mitsubishi Colt
D) Mitsubishi Lancer
E) Suzuki Swift
F) Nissan March
Which one? I know Swift is not my choice. SADDED

V'day approaching... just... SADDED

Bdae approaching... Dunno how to entertain everybody... Really is everybody. Those whom I know... Pri Sch, Sec Sch, Poly, Army, Air Force, BB, GB, Church... Each group have 5 den I'll have 40 guests... You guys reading this, pls entertain urselves, I've only got 1 body and 2 Xbox sets... Sorry if I left anyone out, really afraid now.... SADDED

Will be waking up in 3 hrs, I'm exempted from Chemical Defence coz of my suspected Glaucoma. SHIT... really SHIT... I wanna go, I wanna play with Gas Mask. Go thru tear and itch gas experience...... Now I only can sit outside listen to theory and see my classmates do.... SADDED...

Celebrities that look like me =P

LOL

Work is KILLING me!!!

UGH!!!
So fast and furious...
I know I can learn things fast... Even among the class, I'm always the one answering the qns, asking the qns, impressing the instructor... But this is too much...
My brain is overloading... Not enough sleep, topics after topics after topics... How can a human being learn so many things at 1 go???

Just finish a project assignment, now comes another one!!! UGH!!! I'm going crazy!!!

So so busy, can't go to parade this sat. Tied down by RSAF's family day... I don't wanna go, forced to be a swimmer in the event just because I can swim.... SO DUH!!! GRRR... Early morning til noon time, still have to bring a set of no. 4!!! Please kill me now?

Tml's the presentation on the new topic. Guess I don't have to slp tonight... haiz...

Got my Xbox 360!!! Bad thing is, no games to play with... Gonna get some games :) Time to de-stress... Time for some shopping! Yea...

15th is coming!!! Dinner is starts at 7pm, Cake cutting is 9pm. Please ask for invite if you wanna come :)

Worship..

Um, Um, Um, Um

La, La, La, La

LOL!!! It's so hilarious... But I can't laugh out loud or there'll be a chained reaction!!! Hahahas.



Today's worship went pretty well, better than I've expected. I think by the 2nd song my nerves were more or less calmed down.



Serive kinda a reminder. Treat everyone with gentleness and in love.



Dinner at Botak Jones' nth impressive, just some special fancy names, huge portions and extra salty meat. I think I got the most onions on my plates... =(



Hope I can get 1 day off for 15th. If so, gonna plan a buffet at my house. Hope you guys will come. Don't come also nvm, pass me the presents will do. LOL!!! =P But seriously, come for the good food, free dinner. It's pretty good!



I don't need to ACT cute. I already am!!! Whahaha! =P

See!

Family Day

Right, today (sat) was family day. Woke up brite n early coz I had a splitting headache. Really really weird. From out of no where, after I finish worship rehearsal I had this headache until morning. Couldn't join the pool peeps =(

Dennis called me telling me that there's nobody leading worship. Only QS, Dennis would be ard. Officers only Mr. Robin. Wah, wanted me to lead. So last min. I didn't agree, not feeling well anyways, not going to parade. =(

Noon time after a few lying-downs and some food-to-eat, went to Charlotte-Faith's full mth! Heez! She's so cute. Alot of my cousins were there, actually had alot of fun with them even though they're so ever mischievious. Bao bei getting more & more beautiful, Mark is cuter by e day. Max reminds me of myself, really look like me and behaves like me! Shan & Long getting fatter by the day... Qi & Xiong still e same.

After e visit, went down with mum & dad to CK Tangs, redeem some voucher stuff... Really happy to spend time with them, but really, sometimes the things they do really exasperates me. Anyways it was so bored... So went out with my cousins to Kbox!

Qi hog the mic -_-''' Ping and his gf kept drinking... Ugh... left me there staring at screen. Tried to sing some songs, choose the song for my AF1 Superstar final. Heez... Fun. After k, went to coffeeshop to eat dinner. Was like ard 10+ already. We sat there talking and watching Ping & his gf bickering with each other. Super entertaining. For like 1hr + I kept laughing non-stop!!! They really love each other, hope this relationship will last. Hahaz.

Sent all of them home.
Once again driving home alone, had lots of time to think.
21st birthday coming, haven't plan about it yet.
Cousins around my age group are either married or in a relationship... Can really see the joy in them.

On e way back pass by my old house in Bukit Panjang, really missed that place, when boys and be just playful, the place where I had a partner, somebody to show off to in school, to go to when I'm bored and burdened, someone whom hands I held the longest time, whose cheeks were never tired to be kissed... The place where I threw huge amoung of coins out the window! The place where I watched USA attacked the middle east on TV, nice fireworks. The house which I can cycle my white brite BMX ard the hall & rooms... I miss the place. Sweet sweet memories. I love the place...

Thank God for the day. I enjoyed it. Thank You Jesus :)

Finally?

SOOOO long din blog...

Guess I've been too busy. So here's e low-down on what I've been up to...

1st up was planning singspiration for parade on the 27th during the little free time I've left after work =(
Guess what? Nick bombed me big time!!! He didn't told me it was a combined singspiration!!! Oh my gosh... I wasn't prepared for combined...
Really thank God things worked out really fine. Everything when well and was rather fun. Thanks Sher and Ken for e last min "play acting".

Had cell, after cell, brought the gang to Hooked @ The Rail Mall. I wanted to go to the Italian restaurant, but majority win... Anywayz, that was my 3rd time there, 2nd time in the week! Food's so good that I really really don't know what to choose to eat. Ugh, I really wanted to order a little of everything! Hehez.

Woke up super late for service!!! Gosh, the latest so far. 10:45 AM!!!. I quickly washed up and rushed down. Thank God I only missed the singspiration.

After service we went to Gliderz! Hmm, think it's been "cosified" alot now. So nice to hang out in. Played heart attack and somebody's hand really turned out real red =P Went downtown. Wanted to go Heeren, end up we all crazy, go to Vivo. LOL. From around 6 walk til about 9. NEVER finish walking. Saw this cool black Puma bag @ the Puma shop... "Thou shalth not covet" ='( Anywayz, didn't got a chance to go to Heeren, so gotta go another time.

The week was really rushing. Monday test, start new topic, next day project on new topic + presentation. After presentation was another new topic, den presentation on the following day again. This coming monday's the test!!! UGH... No time to plan my worship this Sunday.

Anywayz, had cell on wed. Kinda missed it alot. Esp with Judah... Haiz... Can't wait... Plt 14 is really cursed... Never a time all of us can meet 2gether.

Today drove to AFS. -_-''' It takes me 1hr 15min to reach for public transport. It only took me 30mins max when I drive there... Anywayz, drove back home, prep for worship rehearsal. Ahhh... finally done. Still got some ammendments though, guess shall do it tml =x

Oh yea, happy birthday to my brother Ben! Happy 1st mth to Charlotte-Faith my new cousin!

TIRED...

Finally I'm like doing the stuff I love.

Got a chance to lead Singspiration this week, worship next week. I'm damn terrified... Probably coz of the long time nv lead. Really need God's strength to lead me, carry me through and use me as His instrument.

Passed my IPPT! Again it's the 2.4 that dragged me down to get my silver award. Additional $100 leh... :( Nvm, next round shall see how.

My class "volunteered" me to join the Air Force One Superstar Competition. My gosh, I'm past the prelimnary round. So nervous... Kinda fun though.

The fact that they can have all the prata, rojak and free food they want while I'm on stage singing is such a funny sight. Anywayz wish me luck!

The fact that criticism is made, that means there's room to improve. I live by that statement, applies to me and sorry if I hurt you in anyway. My statement still stands though. Don't take it personally please.

I LOVE ARSENAL!!!

WOOOOTTTTTT!!! IN YOUR FACE MANCHESTER UNITED!!!

What a come back! Arsenal VS. Man utd.
Boohoo cry boi Ronaldo got yellow carded for arguing with Eboue and kicking the ball away =D

The goal by Van Persie really rocks. Henry seems to have eyes at the back of his head! Unselfishly backheeled to Robin V.P for him to finish it off!

Superb header by Henry and sheer tenacity from Fabregas. I love Arsenal! SWEEET :)

Credit to Rooney & Evra too. Nice goal especially against Lehmann, who was so on form.

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Hmmm... Gotta take the EI/RC/AE FAM test later on. Pray for me! I'm thru studying AE & I understand EI. RC's been hell.... Hope I can go thru it nicely and pass with flying colors.

Right, the whole day was pretty refreshing. Woke up later as I don't have to pick up the Boys for breakfast. Went for service, went Northpoint to get the cake & stuff for Gliderz.

Gliderz wing after our wonderful care has been transformed into such a beautiful & cosy place to be in. Even with all the noise, it's still so comfy to slp in =P Really gotta thank you peeps for committing your time to refurbish the place :)

The games were kinda silly in the beginning, but I guess since everyone were so enthu and positive, it really doesn't matter. Though not many new faces, but to see the support of our own Church members was quite encouraging already.

The 2 newbies still need somemore exposure, nice job but can be better still. Jiayou :)

After Gliderz, went to Hooked @ Railway Mall. I got spammed by my own dad! I've should have known... However fish & chips may be, it's still fried fish... Seeing the other dishes there really made my mouth water. The food there was great! I've yet to try the italian restaurant there, gonna go there someday :)

Fun-filled busy day...

Woke up like 8+ Breakfast at Prata Place opp 589a. The Teh Peng sux...

Went to finish up painting and last min clearing up of Gliderz Wing.

Thanks Von for you hard hard work! The room's really wonderful now.



Just let u guys preview the "mid-phrase" of the wing. "Quart-phase" can be seen at Von's blog :)

Nice? Wait til you see the final phrase!

After that was 1st parade. I still don't know why I'm there, I've got no business there anyways. Didn't brought clothes for games but I ended up really wet... Hitting water bombs in ppl's face sure is tireless fun!

Rushed to Kat's chalet. Happy birthday girl! You're looking more and more beautiful. Sorry couldn't stay til the cake cutting. I promise my birthday you'll be invited yea? :)

Rushed from Pasir Ris to Woodlands like in 15 mins!!! I think I overstressed the engine, it's over-heated now =( Anywayz picked up Beng, reached home like 25mins into the match and we missed both great Liverpool goals!! Chelsea sux!! LOL

After the match and a Arsenal VS Man Utd preview - ARNL 4 : 1 MANU, played pool at OCC. Supper at Jln Kayu. The teh peng sux... =( The Mutabuk my bro ordered sux too... YUCK...

Had lots of fun today. Really busy rushing here and there. But I really enjoyed all the involveness :) Finally able to throw away some things that's stucked so long. =D

Happy Birthday

To Cherlyn & Noppol, 15th and 18th.

Time is really swooping away... Just like waves covering depressions on sandy shores... Everything is forgottened, everyone is lost.

Once in awhile though you'll get a pleasant surprise! Hahas.

Things are going on nicely in AFS, lots of studying and slping, lecture and such... Getting more and more regimental, we all hate it, but there's no choice...

Anyways, just passed my JPSDS selection board :) heeeeeezzz wide grin on my face :)

Thank God for so many blessing He's given to me. There's nothing more I could ask for! Maybe there are still some, hehe =x

Sorry x 1 million, I dunno wad I said or did, please don't be angry & ignore me! Please? Sorry!

Dunno what've happened to us, from fun friends to being so close, til we've quarrelled everyday til now we've not been talking to each other, I don't know what is it but I hate it. Please forgive me, I've realised my mistake, big mistake...

I've been thru worst...

I've had enough... No more mistakes and rollercoasters for me... Yes, I'm done falling... It's not fair and I don't wanna take wrong steps anymore...

Today was a "fufilling" day...

Woke up brite n early, met the guys to teach them HTML. Yea, finally I'm gonna have helpers to run Gliderz website!

Met some of the Boys to play DotA. Got trashed all the way... hahas.

Suddenly recieve call from Von, duty calls!!! Time to clean up our wing! Hehez, had lots of fun but was tiring too. We stayed from 4pm til like almost 11:30pm. Chinese con tot we were going to stay overnight. hehez.

The room looks so much nicer now. Much much more nicer than the previous clean up. Though there are still some things to improve on...

Yea, Arsenal vs. Blackburn... I hope our flair and class will outplay and outlast their brute and dirty tricks... Go Gunners!!!

Oops!

Ehh... Hehe... I failed my 1st test in AFS!!! =P

Good news is tml I'll be taking the sup-paper! Thank God for that.

What's the reason I failed?
Well... Imagine you have a 7 chapter book given to you 5 days before, you are taught the subjects very briefly in 1hr lectures. Also, a seriously important chapter of nothing but documentation for [****************] = RESTRICTED =P & the very next day's the test...

So that's why I failed. hehe. not only me, the whole class failed. lolz. not an excuse though, coz there's only 8 in my class. whahaz.

Anywayz, I've got my pay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOT!!!! So nice, $_$ 1st time i see my bank account grew to how much I had when i got my bank book the 1st time. lolx. That's alot man....

Right... who do I owe money now???

Communication

Today was Wing Com Call for AETI, amoung the many topic touched on was the HFIM - Human Factor In Maintanence. or something like tat... I think...

Anywayz, it's on Communication and why it's important...

I think I'm beginning to love RSAF, or maybe it's just Air Force School. Dunno why...

Well, the key to good communications?
To LISTEN...
& Mean what you say and say what you mean.

I mean what I say, and I've said what I mean... The only reason I'm holding back is because of my past mistake. The fear of recurrance is great, the fear is really great...

So listen, if u wanna communicate well! :)