Judah!

Kara with dia n Cherlyn yesterday.... Spoiled brat can't join us coz he gotta work, haha.

I'm losing it already. My throat didn't heal from the last time and I can't get back the voice that I can sing so proudly with...

I guess I didn't use my gift meaningfully, so I guess I don't deserve it. =(

Last night we went to Ms Sherine's hse for a small fellowship. Really missed those days where we can share with each other how everyone's doing in our lives. It really really keeps us in touch and remind everyone of us that we need to cling on to Jesus no matter what happens.

We've saw how ppl fall, also how from a united group of guys become so diversified in just a few mths. Maybe just weeks. But all it takes is One, to unify us again.

Time really really flies and waits for no man. So fast, Jadyn is like my memory of Zach last time. Janna can already speak mandarin! Sooooo fast. We're already halfway thru the year! I just wish sometimes time can take a break. We can all take a breather.

I wished time can stop at certain points of my life... When I'm being accompanied by. Even if there's nth special we're doing. Just having fun or being a friend. It doesn't matter what or where. Just stay there, even for just an hr more. I'd love to do that...

Jadyn is just so cute =) Janna is so mischievious!

Tiredness knows no end...

I wished everyday I can stay at home and be glued to my 360, when I'm tired of it I'll go to the sandbag and punch it like crazy to the beat of Robbie Williams and Li Sheng Jie!

Too bad theses days are soo rare... Which makes me want to do that more often...

Went to buy present for Trish. We din stick to original plan coz addidas really CMI... Went round Suntec, City Link n Marina². End up we did the expensive plan...

After tat ate Pizza... Poor Sam, Mary, Dick and John... Eaten up by monsters... The warm choc cake with ice cream really looked like a piece of dung!!!! I almost burst into laughter when the lady served them! Really is "warm choc cake..."

Tanya was humongously amazingly entertaining. "Matchmaking" them was such fun! Should've seen they faces, so shy! So cute! Dun be shy! Hope still can bring u all out more often =)

Flight dinner tonight.... So much controvasies. Alot of catching up but not enough time. Keng n Benson gonna leave on the 26th... Once gone it's 2 yrs!!! Thank God I'm only leaving for 1 year. Hopefully I can still meet them in the states... Though Arizona and San Diego is quite a distance...

Will miss this 2 good pals. Hope you guys take this 2 yrs as a good chance to grow! =)

Buzzword of the month...

Superficial...

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I'm glad pet names are invented and used...

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Plt 17 I remembered the 1st time I led you guys. From blur kids of about 14 til the now of 4 primers serving on equal platform. It is very easy to say when things go wrong that the TCO didn't do a good enough job.

It is very easy to say the Plt SGT was nth but merely a policeman, a bad guy to ensure every step you took is correct. Yea, somebody HAD to be the bad guy. To be very frank, if I could do that now I really would.

You guys are all grown up now, you all are now the ables to be the policemen, bad guy or should you choose otherwise. Your actions won't be seen very much as your own but your trainers. Plt 17 will be linked to 14, linked to Mr. See...

But when things are going well, nobody will say the TCO did a great job. Nobody will remember that the Bad guy protected you all from stepping out of the danger zone in the early stages. It WILL BE very natural to say "It should be the case" when people excel and do good.

Will anyone say well done to plt 14 for bringing up 2 warrant officers in 13th and they got their founders? Or will they say yeap, the got their founders as planned. Not for me to say or judge, not for anyone too I guess.

I missed the fun days where we had camps together and the special bond we had. Maybe it is because we stopped having all of that our bond are slowly fading. I remembered how Mr. See prayed of each and every Boy when we took you up. We too learnt to be good servant leaders and put your interest 1st above all other aspect in you BB life.

Maybe we some of us stopped praying for you guys coz you guys have entered into our circle, you guys became comrades fighting in the same war. Which I felt that yea, we need to remember to pray for you all. This time around, it is not just us praying for you all, we have to pray for each other, to watch out for each others' blind spots.

I think now we cannot be anyone's plt sgt anymore. It is just not right for us to police on each others' life. There are alot of things we cannot interfere with anymore. When you fall you'll gotta get up and we can clean your wounds for you.

We cannot prevent you from falling anymore. We warned you of the pits, thats all we can do. How you walk your path is just like how we walk ours. Our own choices... We will be there ready to pick you up. I hope in times when you guys see me falling into a deadly pit, you guys can sound me out too.

I sometimes too will miss out on looking out for you all but I will still remember to look at the photo frame I made you for you guys. I hope you guys can pray for your TCO and plt sgts when you look at it too. You guys will always be my Boys even if one day you all surpass me as an officer.

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It feels good to be able to put things down... Now I can stand up and carry on. Look on further forward, hoping to pick up better things.

Sometimes when I don't say anything doesn't mean I don't care. Just that I dunno how...

"Dear God the only thing I ask of you is to hold her when I'm not around,when I'm much too far away..."

NDP was very tiring today...

I bearly could keep my eyes opened after the break.... Technically wet throughout from rain and sweat...

The lunch supplied was not enough... End of the day i grabbed another lunch set to eat... It suddenly became tastier than before...

Dinner with Shermaine and Lovelle @ Bottle Tree Park. Food was pretty ok, kinda sub standard from the previous time I had. Maybe appetite was spoilt by NDP....

It's the company that matters anyway. I enjoyed your company =)

看不见你的笑我怎么睡的着?

The reasons why...

I cannot go church camp... Monday to Friday I'm at work... Sats I'm at NDP....

I'm left with only this much time to spend with you all. You all are really who I have. I don't wan to lose you guys. The gang, mei, dia-lings, hui, kat, babe, thong n teddy.

Less than 6 mths to go. I know it ain't forever but it won't be over that quickly too... Tonight's supper planned was to tell you guys why I was pissed last week. Also to apologise.

Just cudn't understand why we had to go all the way to a place where nearby have also. It's like a monkey on your brain but you just can't shake it off. And it's like being tricked into going there which really really was sooo frustrating.

But it's ok now... Just tat that day I was really really pressed up to my neck that I had to be at 4,5 places at one time. Work, home, friends, gang etc.... The feeling sucks and I'm sorry I wasn't assertive to let you guys know, I just want to spend time with everyone, even if it's for a little while...

I've been selected to go for the overseas posting. Before I can go there are pre-requisites. I must accomplish them so that I can head for this posting. I have to forgo alot of things. I know I should have forgo the posting in the 1st place but believe me. It is better for me to go than to stay.

I have tasks and goals unaccomplished. But if I stay, I would be super miserable. So if I stay I'd be miserable, if I leave I'd also be miserable. What would I do? Weigh them out...

Trust me on my decision. I've given alot of thought that's why I chosed this over staying...

I didn't SAVE!!!!

Oh my goodness!!!

I spent the last 1 hr getting all my items in Lost Odyssey and it hung halfway!!! SHIT!

Suddenly even my xbox is against me... UGH!!!

Late nights are killing me...

I sometimes just wished I was a character in one of those RPG fantasy games... That way I practically can live my life and whoosh it away. Glamore and glory, always the lead...

Sad to say it ain't like this... I thank God for that too... If I were my own king of my throne, I wonder what would be my life now... Hopefully far from what I am now...

Coz no matter how ruin, lonely, angry, frustrated, confused, dejected, sick and tired I am feeling now, God has everything in control... I know I ruined dinner, but my day week was ruined..

I love Super Trooper by Abba. It really speaks of how life can be. If you wan it to be glamourous, don't regret the stuff you foresake and leave behind... What you sow is what you reap.

People choose what they wan to be, I cannot change them. God made everyone different and I shld be wise enough to accept them. Why do You put numbers to my days?? I can't bear to count down and leave the ones I love.

Question...

Dia post me this qns.

What is the most wonderful thing you've done in you life? It took me a whole lot of moments to think in the midst while i was in a brief... I gave a quick reply to be able to woo a girl and get her to accept me. But that was what I could think of shallow as can be off the calf.

What really IS the most wonderful thing that I've really done is to be there for my friends, no matter what time, when, how or where. Be it spending time, going out, meet up, catch up, lending a helping hand or a listening ear or just plan being there even if it's keeping silent paying my company. Even lending money or my possesion or room.

Bottom line is, this are all wonderful to me, coz I treasure my friends. Sometimes it's hard to express how you feel but in such ways it probably makes up for it.

I know at the end of the day it'll all be worthwhile because I know you all will be there for me too. Right? I hope so...

The MOST wonderful thing I've done in my life is to be a friend.

Pre-Reunion

Planned for a day of sun, sand and sea... Hopefully all invited will turn up =)

We went to Bottle Tree Park for dinner. It was fabulous. 4 of us, Sambal Sotong, Kang Kong, Stingray, Sweet n Sour Fish, Thai chicken. Excellent meal.

Each paid about $18? Quite reasonable for a spread tat's more than what we could take. Prawning after tat... Suki's amazing.... 1st to catch anything and it's a fish!!! She din even know how to catch and yet talking on the phone she caught a fish!!! Amazing!

I caught 2 prawns, 2 fishes. Suki got 2 fish, 1 prawn, Rubz n her bf got none!! But end up there's this nice couple who gave us ALL their catch! Which really made up our worth!

Went to Funan to change out my xbox. Thank goodness it's under warranty. Had pastamania for lunch. The carbonara wasn bad.

Made my special potion for dia... Nu er! You better start drinking!!!

Clearing my room... Chatting with CT.... zzzz

I just don't get it

Before I post this I've already guessed wad a few of you would think and I'm not about to erase any words here. This is what recipocrates and hope it'll at least knock some sense into some of you...

A place that's cheap, fresh, good environment? Why the same old damn place which ain't cheap, ain't even nice? Even if we want to that kind of place why all the way to that branch? Just because it's far out it's gonna be more worthy it? Less LC issit? Or just fun to disappear and appear again?

Not opened to suggestion den dun ask in the 1st place... Don't tell me it's not really about the place, it's the company that matters. If it's this case any hawker center would be just as good. See wad I'm being puzzled and irritated about?

I seriously treasure my Sundays... I don't have the luxury to spend sats with Boys, or weekdays much even with friends and families. If I wanna spend my Sundays, I wanna spend it with ppl whom appreciate my coy and not just wasting my petrol, time and money.
Ppl who really cared and communicate. Not just joking around, enjoying ... I seriously am disappointed. I don't feel that my presence makes much difference, I'm just there to service those without transport... A person has his limits and I hope you guys can back off for the moment.

Next time I hope you all think before you speak. Don't pretend to even be opened to suggestion if u're not. If there is a next time...
Seriously tired of theses...... It ain't the place, it's the company... I just want it to be worthwhile... My numbers are up... Won't be long til it ain't like this anymore....

Yeaps...

Thurs after work...

Went to pick dia, headed to Bedok to pick Yeok n Trish n Tanya. Dinner @ Ikea... Wowzzz... They're the most wacky siblings i've ever saw... The WHOLE night... whahaha... Really can brighten up ppl's day. But seeing them reminds me I'm growing old... My mum's nagging are starting to sound in my head bouncing off my skull here n there.... Owww?

Last night after work went opposite with my colleagues for a nice little fellowship. I learnt a new skill!!! Prawning! It's really fun and great! The satisfaction you get when you hooked a huge one! After that my hand stinked like nobody's business.

Headed to Old Nelson Road's grill bar... Atmosphere was great. Service is excellent but the food was slightly above average... It was a very very very rare time where we broke the plt 14 curse - never will all plt 14 meet 2gether in a gathering. Even so, it was short lift of the curse... Beng left to join the boys for bowling... Soon we also left for home...

So tired after today's rehearsal... Got some work to catch up... Another time...

KL!

KL Tower, Chocoloate Kingdom, House of chocolate cookies! How hard can you punch??

Back!

Right... Back from the road trip...

I missed the 1st leg but I think that didn't stopped me from enjoying myself on the return leg! Had a good time of fellowship with the guys. Half the time spent singing and "poking" each other in the car.

Touched down KL airport. Jetstar flight was like a bus ride... Except with gorgeous flight stewardess to look at =P I thought of catching some Zs but b4 anything happened we've touched down... The flight was only about more than 20mins or so. It's the waiting for clearance and taxi-ing that wasted alot of time...

Met the guys. Drove to hotel.... NEVER EVER book a hotel room from ASIA WEB DIRECT. They are scams and a very disappointing agency to use. Anywayz. We got the Family Suite, no thanks to the internet agency... It was more than double the price quoted.... =(

Headed to China town which was just a left turn from the hotel's doorstep. Lots of stuff to buy and see. But after awhile it became repetitive... Though the Longan Luohanguo drink was SUPERB!

Wallets galore for me =D Beng was on a Watch spree. SQ was nt feeling well and was being grouchy, but that's him =) Jon was looking for his Color Beh. All of us enjoyed the shopping! I guess.

Food was pretty cool. Our tactic was to order 1, 4 share. Beef hor fun/noodle. Bah Kwa bread, Claypot rice. A&W!!!!!!! Oh my childhood is back!!!! Rootbeer float!!! Coney Dog!!! Hmmm....

Next day's breakfast was pretty as expected... Nth special, the guys din liked it but I have had worse. Headed to Bukit Bintang, the Orchard road equivalant of KL. Nth very special but still saw stuff to buy. FOS, some street stalls.

On the way out of KL, we saw this damn cool place. The Chocolate Kingdom... Din really knew wad it was til we headed in and got SUCKED into their trap! The chocolates are really OUTSTANDING!!! Very irresistable.

Headed down to Melaka, decided we din have enough time. Went to Jusco to catch Kenny Rogers and Drillbit Taylor. Pretty signature to sign off the day in M'sia. What we always do =)

Terrifying Jam on the way back, still reached home about 1.15am. Excellent! Although it wasn't refreshing but still it's a cool break from the norm. Head to the pics blog to check out some of the photos =)

KL here I come!

All righty! Now I'm in the exact same gate as the one I left for Shanghai! Gate D47. This time going to KL.

My 1st time taking a budget airline and 1st time going to KL. Also 1st time FLYING to m'sia! Lots of 1st. Watching "Justin to Kelly". I think it's some HSM series... a bit disappointing coz really feels like a teen flick, those kind of power rangers kind of show =x

The storyline's really shallow and I sure hope HSM is not like this...

Anywayz, looking forward to the trip. Rest of the guys are there already. Wonder if they've bought anything yet. Souveneirs on the way =) Coming back tml. Hopefully I can get a good break out of this trip. =)

Made of Honor

Went to watch MOH @ Marina with dia today.

Pretty cool show. Romantic, witty and seriously makes you think twice who you'll be marrying on ur big day.

Somehow the lead in this show reminds me of Ironman. Cucumber...

1st time i have LJS for dinner... I'll never order shrimps from there ever again...

Cornetto theme song is "Fa Xian Ai" by JJ Lin and Jin Sha!!! The other one is promotion song "Qi Dai Ai"!!!

Anywayz going to KL tml to join the guys... wasted 2 days, so sad.. but at least still can go! Encik approved my leave for CHURCH CAMP!!!! YAY!!! Just hope that NDP will not have any changes and I'll be safe =)

God slapped me...

"Why are you angry? Why is your face downcast? 7 If you do what is right, will you not be accepted? But if you do not do what is right, sin is crouching at your door; it desires to have you, but you must master it."
Genesis 4:6-7

Still you all are incomprehensable...

FED UP!!!!

Call me critical, call me reading too much into it.... Dont wan to care anymore...

You all can settle you own problems... The more I care the more I feel worse and the whole damn thing is because YOU ALL!!! If you all can't live in peace with each other, how can you practice wad you preach???

Take a step outside and look at yourselves... I'm not judging you all but it just pains me to see you all wrecking each other... flesh against flesh... and yea, I am the one who is to be blame for everything, none of it were YOUR attitude, unwillingness, frustrations and pride!

Just hope you all wake up from your stupid ideas...

Don't think? Just observe man.... Listen to every WORD you say. Every complain or whine... Just take a step back and listen...

Knowing you stepped into this field you'd had to take up the Cross and burden. If you're so unwilling den DON'T! Those of you who think this way too PLEASE! Man will always fail... DON'T expect too much from mere humans...

FED UP...

Days are going pass so fast...

Hmm... Things are going too fast for me!

NDP parade rehearsals... Weekends with the gang... Supper, weird outings... etc.

There's the Gliderz event @ Pasir Ris park. I loved that event alot. Probably coz I din have to plan for it and I really enjoyed it =)

Recent's mothers' day was also my twin aunts' bdae. So we went to one of their condo for BBQ. Gave my mum this! Cool eh? Money in a bottle. Thanks to nu er for teaching me how to fold the hearts and the idea.

Celebrated von's bdae =) When to P. S Cafe. Quite a posh place but the food ain't fantastic. Love the desert though. Mama J's Coconut Caramel! OOOooohhh! Haha.

Once again, happy bdae von!

Hahaha... =(

DOTA-ing now...

Just now was a super weird scenario... Fancy giving someone's mum a bouquet of flowers for mothers' day but I've not spent enough time with my own mum. Anywayz her present would be twice as good =P

DOTA-ing with 53ST peeps. It's been awhile since I've joined them. Good for catching up =)
Certain things I said might have offended ppl, but I hope they can take a step back and look. Don't be too fast to defend. What ppl observe and see is what you testify. I don't have a purpose to talk bad about something except to see it improve...
M'sia trip is coming up! Dunno to laugh or cry... Good news for the guys but not so good for me. Booked my Air Tic last night for SUN's flight coz sat I would be NDP-ing. Who knows that NDP for next week is cancelled as a reward for our good work... Haha.. so I'll forfeit the air ticket... Anybody wans to go KL on sunday??? lolx

zzzzzzzz... tired... suppose to complete my assignments tonight... if not i'll die flat on tues...

Another weird day out!

Okie, last monday went out coz nth to do at home...
This week went out coz I think quite fun to have each others' company.

Dia-lings outing on fri, we went to CCK but !!!!! shut down already!. So headed to AMK instead.
FINALLY for 3 long months!!! The 1st time I touched a mic to sing! Whahaha so shiok! A huge relief, extremely rejuvenating!

Super fun-ny time. Alot of theme songs for donut n J~ So cute!

Sat was NDP 08 rehearsal as usual... counting down.... 13 more to go..... =(

Sunday was a super long day. Indeed God was the theme that day. From morning til night. There wasn't a moment God wasn out of the topic. Maybe during foodie times.... But I'm sure table grace counts? =P

Work today was painfully slow... But then today's outing had me looking forward to end of work. Out with Dia-lings again =) Donut too. Also picked up spoilt brat. Really angry with him, not giving his best for the 'O's. Wasting his money and time to just follow the flow... If u are reading this, you better buck up! Give glory to God and not learn the bad things from other ppl!

So we had Crab Shack. I must say there's a big improvement. The previous server was fired, new younger and more enthusiastic ppl served us. Actually played on stage again. =) plan failed lei...
Sometimes the things that we do, we shld do it if it means alot to us. If not, there's not much point to invest so much time and energy to do it, just because we feel obliged to do so.

I feel so much for the various ministries. but sometimes it's very difficult to change ppl. We gotta change ourselves 1st. and that goes for EVERYBODY. guys, girls, elders, youth...