sniff* nah, not crying... a bit of blocked nose and a very painful headache...
Today was the 1st breakfast meeting we had... though not all are present but we DID had a good start... As usual, every1 was late... a bit pissed off and scared kena fly kite... Untill KWO came...
SQ had attachment @ 8:45 so let him off after breakfast... left me n KWO for quiet time.. well, learnt quite alot about cults and diffrent type of cults, how to distinguish one... Kinda scary actually...
Dreamerz wasn't around, guess he's damn tired after the LTC... JY had an exam... kinda sad for him to miss this opportunity...
It's amazing of how a guy can think about a girl for the whole day... Just amazing... missin' her still...
Forget to suan SQ abt lil' flower... =x Wonder wad will happen if they grow up and marry each other? hmm... scary... time flies so fast...
Class chalet on 19, 20, 21st of april... $20... damn tight now... I just pray that God will provide coz after tml's driving I'll be really broked.. Still deciding to resign from JJ or not... feeling the stress from slping late @ nite after work... Hope there'll be an answer soon...
Class was like crap... morning lecturer like teaching to the walls... no1 was listening to him... e-learning sux as well... Solaris was fun... got a headache from it though... it sux to be the 1st 1 to finish everything... don't ask me why, try it yourself...
wonder why she nv sign in MSN so long... dying to chat with her again...
praise God for bringing me tru the camp also, it was nice to lead devotion...
wonder if hotdog mei recover liao not...
wonder if lil' flower's ok... saw her cry... hmmm... (SQ! wad did u do? =x )
wonder if the barley was enough for all...
thank God for another rest day tml...
hope God provides....
You don't know but I'm missin' you... haven't seen her for 51hrs 47mins...
Tuesday, March 15, 2005
Monday, March 14, 2005
ugh.. AGONY!!!
Don't ask me who I'm missing, unless you can cure my agony... Don't ask me to see the doc, unless he can cure my pain... Don't ask me to work like a dog, coz I'm not a dog... Don't ask me not to swim coz it's my hobby...
Ask me how was my day, coz I like to share... ask me if my leg hurts coz yea it does... ask me if I need a break, of course! I've not rest well since wed...
I won't tell I won't tell, no matter how much you ask me I won't tell, not gonna mess up on this one. Gonna leave it to my hands and God's will... I WON'T TELL!!!
Ask me how was my day, coz I like to share... ask me if my leg hurts coz yea it does... ask me if I need a break, of course! I've not rest well since wed...
I won't tell I won't tell, no matter how much you ask me I won't tell, not gonna mess up on this one. Gonna leave it to my hands and God's will... I WON'T TELL!!!
Sunday, March 13, 2005
You don't know...
I missed it... shoot... had to work... no campfire to see...
Today morning rush down to sess planning to lead devotion, after serious thoughts about what the individual platoons have done the previous day, I gathered my thoughts and reflect back on how to link them to John 13, and the subject of Servant Leadership...
Well, devotion cancelled... a bit upset but nvm... cooked barley for the whole coy... a bit sianz... PX was very very disappointing... very hard to change his bitter habits...
Miss her much... at that time.... was eager to see her... well, at least see her liao after a few rounds of cooking, stirring the barley...
Joshua so cute! like my brother, except smaller, smarter, more obedient... hmmm wonder if she'll be a good mother? missing her now...
"You don't know"... that's gonna be like my theme for a long while le... she doesn't noe...
Well other things you might not noe would be SQ finally admitted that he liked the little flower!!! woot! I think she doesn't noe yet! Beng noes... I think Dicky noes... hahax, no excuses liao... straight from the horses' mouth!
hehehe... SQ is so dead!
Hmm... Srh's very naughty... my dear daughter Nyd also very naughty... basket.. like to play with water... haiyo...
Went to work after cooking the final round of barley... on the way i see her again... miss her... hahx... saw hotdog mei, i think got promotion... flower also... daughter also... miss her..
Work was jialat... dunno y but leg was damn tired... maybe cook barley keep on standing... den tired like mad this nite... finish @ 10:20++ shagged liao... so frustrated.. have to walk on swollen legs back home, Thank God that it was short distance and along the way God relief me of some pain...
BOTC coming liao... dunno wad will it be like... i just wish won't clash wit any thing... tight tight budget... need cash quick... driving soon again... wed swimming, any1 wans? oops, NYP only =P
MISS HER A WHOLE DAMN LOT... haven't seen her in 7hrs 20 mins liao...
You don't know but you are missed... P.S It's not you Sherrz so dun worry!
Today morning rush down to sess planning to lead devotion, after serious thoughts about what the individual platoons have done the previous day, I gathered my thoughts and reflect back on how to link them to John 13, and the subject of Servant Leadership...
Well, devotion cancelled... a bit upset but nvm... cooked barley for the whole coy... a bit sianz... PX was very very disappointing... very hard to change his bitter habits...
Miss her much... at that time.... was eager to see her... well, at least see her liao after a few rounds of cooking, stirring the barley...
Joshua so cute! like my brother, except smaller, smarter, more obedient... hmmm wonder if she'll be a good mother? missing her now...
"You don't know"... that's gonna be like my theme for a long while le... she doesn't noe...
Well other things you might not noe would be SQ finally admitted that he liked the little flower!!! woot! I think she doesn't noe yet! Beng noes... I think Dicky noes... hahax, no excuses liao... straight from the horses' mouth!
hehehe... SQ is so dead!
Hmm... Srh's very naughty... my dear daughter Nyd also very naughty... basket.. like to play with water... haiyo...
Went to work after cooking the final round of barley... on the way i see her again... miss her... hahx... saw hotdog mei, i think got promotion... flower also... daughter also... miss her..
Work was jialat... dunno y but leg was damn tired... maybe cook barley keep on standing... den tired like mad this nite... finish @ 10:20++ shagged liao... so frustrated.. have to walk on swollen legs back home, Thank God that it was short distance and along the way God relief me of some pain...
BOTC coming liao... dunno wad will it be like... i just wish won't clash wit any thing... tight tight budget... need cash quick... driving soon again... wed swimming, any1 wans? oops, NYP only =P
MISS HER A WHOLE DAMN LOT... haven't seen her in 7hrs 20 mins liao...
You don't know but you are missed... P.S It's not you Sherrz so dun worry!
Wednesday, March 09, 2005
God blessed me today!
Gotta thank God for this magnificent day :)
Woke up nice and early just in time @ 10am (at least it's early for me...) Packed my clothes and toiletries and zoomed down for driving...
Great start for driving :) Never "engine die", no close encounter, learn a great deal of vertical parking :D so shiok! Stopped when needed, accelerated quickily, never delay the traffic... How wonderful? As good as having a licence already! A few more lessons ba :) Pray bout it...
Finish driving, drove back to YCK, went straight to FJ and eat "Ban mian". Kaoz! heavy queue... But it was really fast when it was my turn. Met Melv and his classmates, I know I shouldn't say this but again makes me think of my sickening class and the sickening classmates I have... Oh well, it was fun to "sup" the whole bowl of mian in such a short time =p
Headed to the pool! 12:49pm... Perfect sun. straight above the pool, super shiok... Damn sunblock so small and little cost me $8.45... Swam and tanned for 5/6 hrs.... Jas joined me around 5:30pm after finding out that no need to re-take the NAPFA re-trial... (what the heck)
Went to snack, meet KWO @ gecko. Took cab to cell group...(wad a way to end the day!) Ate prata, took cab home... here I am bloggin... Nice day! Thank God!
Woke up nice and early just in time @ 10am (at least it's early for me...) Packed my clothes and toiletries and zoomed down for driving...
Great start for driving :) Never "engine die", no close encounter, learn a great deal of vertical parking :D so shiok! Stopped when needed, accelerated quickily, never delay the traffic... How wonderful? As good as having a licence already! A few more lessons ba :) Pray bout it...
Finish driving, drove back to YCK, went straight to FJ and eat "Ban mian". Kaoz! heavy queue... But it was really fast when it was my turn. Met Melv and his classmates, I know I shouldn't say this but again makes me think of my sickening class and the sickening classmates I have... Oh well, it was fun to "sup" the whole bowl of mian in such a short time =p
Headed to the pool! 12:49pm... Perfect sun. straight above the pool, super shiok... Damn sunblock so small and little cost me $8.45... Swam and tanned for 5/6 hrs.... Jas joined me around 5:30pm after finding out that no need to re-take the NAPFA re-trial... (what the heck)
Went to snack, meet KWO @ gecko. Took cab to cell group...(wad a way to end the day!) Ate prata, took cab home... here I am bloggin... Nice day! Thank God!
~Lord, thank You for the great rest and exercise. The fellowship and Your lessons. Thank You for the personal time and reflections opportunities You gave me. Amen!~
Never even thought to cry...
When I heard you say goodbye..
Never said where you were going
There's no laughter in the air
Only silence everywhere
And so much left unspoken
Since you've been gone
I haven't been the same
I wish that I could've seen
Who's to blame
Without you, where do I belong?
Without you, how can I go on?
No love but yours will ever do
Tell me how am I supposed to live my life
Without you
Was I lost in you and me
To the point I couldn't see
That what we had was dying
Now it's all that I can do
To see photographs of you
And stop myself from crying
I should learn to live without your love
Got so many memories, but it's not enough
Without you, where do I belong?
Without you, how can I go on?
No love but yours will ever do
Tell me how am I supposed to live my life
Without you
I feel helpless and oh so all alone
Like I've never felt before
You made me feel alive
But I don't remember what it's like anymore
Without you, where do I belong?
Without you, how can I go on?
No love but yours will ever do
Tell me how am I supposed to live my life
Without you
Without you, where do I belong?
Without you, how can I go on?
No love but yours will ever do
Tell me how am I supposed to live my life
Without you
________________________________
Can anyone help me find the album??? I can't find it, even though I'm a fan of Clay...
Ugh! Memories of bad things come to my mind when I hear this song... But it's so nice to recall... =p
Never said where you were going
There's no laughter in the air
Only silence everywhere
And so much left unspoken
Since you've been gone
I haven't been the same
I wish that I could've seen
Who's to blame
Without you, where do I belong?
Without you, how can I go on?
No love but yours will ever do
Tell me how am I supposed to live my life
Without you
Was I lost in you and me
To the point I couldn't see
That what we had was dying
Now it's all that I can do
To see photographs of you
And stop myself from crying
I should learn to live without your love
Got so many memories, but it's not enough
Without you, where do I belong?
Without you, how can I go on?
No love but yours will ever do
Tell me how am I supposed to live my life
Without you
I feel helpless and oh so all alone
Like I've never felt before
You made me feel alive
But I don't remember what it's like anymore
Without you, where do I belong?
Without you, how can I go on?
No love but yours will ever do
Tell me how am I supposed to live my life
Without you
Without you, where do I belong?
Without you, how can I go on?
No love but yours will ever do
Tell me how am I supposed to live my life
Without you
________________________________
Can anyone help me find the album??? I can't find it, even though I'm a fan of Clay...
Ugh! Memories of bad things come to my mind when I hear this song... But it's so nice to recall... =p
Tuesday, March 08, 2005
Time flies...
Damn, time really flies.... In a blink of an eye I'm going to be a year 3 student in april...
The weeks zoom pass so fast. Don't even have time to stop and rest. for the past 2 years I think I've only slept for the most 7 hrs each night.
Gotta admit I'm getting old... Seriously accepting being called "uncle"... Going to BOTC soon, gettting driver's license. Attachment... It really is fast...
Thank God that over the years when I reflect back I do see some achievements for God and myself... Thank God for giving me a ministry to serve in. Also the needed breaks in between.
Growing fatter and fatter it seems, not because lazy but the lifestyle that poly students have are really good for putting on weight... Just look at before and after photo of my brother...
Thank God for preserving my health also, even though not as fit as before, a little heavier... Cannot run anymore, pull ups also doing lesser and lesser... Need to lose weight le... no time, can't stop eating... =x
God, can don't bless me with so much food? hehe.. Thank You!
The weeks zoom pass so fast. Don't even have time to stop and rest. for the past 2 years I think I've only slept for the most 7 hrs each night.
Gotta admit I'm getting old... Seriously accepting being called "uncle"... Going to BOTC soon, gettting driver's license. Attachment... It really is fast...
Thank God that over the years when I reflect back I do see some achievements for God and myself... Thank God for giving me a ministry to serve in. Also the needed breaks in between.
Growing fatter and fatter it seems, not because lazy but the lifestyle that poly students have are really good for putting on weight... Just look at before and after photo of my brother...
Thank God for preserving my health also, even though not as fit as before, a little heavier... Cannot run anymore, pull ups also doing lesser and lesser... Need to lose weight le... no time, can't stop eating... =x
God, can don't bless me with so much food? hehe.. Thank You!
Saturday, March 05, 2005
NS, the Singaporean nightmare...
Damn, 1 more year to graduation, don't know if can find job, don't know if can graduate... NS will come... SO young, so early... death of being a teen...
After attending the NS talk that was meant to prepare our dear bro Ken, I got a clearer picture of NS's structure and purpose for everyone...
Whether you are Degree, 'A' level or 'O' level. Once you are 18 years old you ARE liable for NS... sianz, i'll be 20 when I'm going in... the big 20.... kaoz so old liao... It was like yesterday when I was in primary school fighting, in sec sch wooing...
Well, for the benifits of those who didn't attend or have no idea of what NS's gonna be like, here's the rough scoop of it...
Firstly you must be physically fit, that's where IPPT comes in, to test your fitness. If you fail or you missed the test (like our dear bro) then you are declared unfit. You will be placed in this program called PTP (Physical Training P??????) and be trained until you are declared fit again.
Next supposedly all recruits are required to got through BMT (Basic Military Training) @ Pulau Tekong for 3 month.
Those who have 'O' levels alone will pass out as Privates, Degree will get Coporal and Diploma a Lance if I'm not wrong. These are called the NS men.
There are those who wants to sign on. Like dear bro beng. Diploma holders will qualify to be either Specialists or Officers, 'A' levels, Degree holders and above can only be officers I think. Those who did not have any of theses cannot be officers but being a specialists is possible. Minimim requirement is having a 'O' level cert. SAF will send you to SISPECT to be trained as a specialist.
Specialist's rank starts from Sergeant. Whereas officers' rank starts from 2nd WO i think.
This are just very rough description of the structure, I may be wrong, DO NOT QUOTE ME for what I type here. =p
Pray for bro Ken, 11th March is his D day for NS...
After attending the NS talk that was meant to prepare our dear bro Ken, I got a clearer picture of NS's structure and purpose for everyone...
Whether you are Degree, 'A' level or 'O' level. Once you are 18 years old you ARE liable for NS... sianz, i'll be 20 when I'm going in... the big 20.... kaoz so old liao... It was like yesterday when I was in primary school fighting, in sec sch wooing...
Well, for the benifits of those who didn't attend or have no idea of what NS's gonna be like, here's the rough scoop of it...
Firstly you must be physically fit, that's where IPPT comes in, to test your fitness. If you fail or you missed the test (like our dear bro) then you are declared unfit. You will be placed in this program called PTP (Physical Training P??????) and be trained until you are declared fit again.
Next supposedly all recruits are required to got through BMT (Basic Military Training) @ Pulau Tekong for 3 month.
Those who have 'O' levels alone will pass out as Privates, Degree will get Coporal and Diploma a Lance if I'm not wrong. These are called the NS men.
There are those who wants to sign on. Like dear bro beng. Diploma holders will qualify to be either Specialists or Officers, 'A' levels, Degree holders and above can only be officers I think. Those who did not have any of theses cannot be officers but being a specialists is possible. Minimim requirement is having a 'O' level cert. SAF will send you to SISPECT to be trained as a specialist.
Specialist's rank starts from Sergeant. Whereas officers' rank starts from 2nd WO i think.
This are just very rough description of the structure, I may be wrong, DO NOT QUOTE ME for what I type here. =p
Pray for bro Ken, 11th March is his D day for NS...
Saturday, February 26, 2005
Phobia
Yeap, today also found out my phobia...
The phobia of leading girls... I remember once upon a time when I was in Sec 2...
I was to assist Dreamerz n "Freddy", only to ASSIST... They were doing outdoor cooking and were ready to do area cleaning...
"Freddy" n Dreamerz dared me to fall them in for area cleaning so being the confident guy who doesn't knows his own strength I went for it...
"Ok all fall in" I yelled "HUH?" the girls shouted in unison...
Dreamerz was ended up scolded badly by Ms Sherine, the gers crowded around dem and I was too embarrased to do anything... I think I could remember what Ms Sherine shouted @ Dreamerz...
"... Jun wen come here! Leonard is only here to help, and my girls are very disciplined why need to fall in...." and to the gers "...what are you all oing here?!?! I thought I asked Jun wen to come?..." UNQUOTE, I dun remember exactly what she yelled but poor dreamerz...
Well... from den I got a very bad phobia of teaching... next day I was suppose to come for a lesson to help out but I slept through it... I got a big lecture from Mr. See, I believe Ms Sherine told him and from den own I was never close to the girls... =x
Until recently, I had already shooked off the shadows of living under the fear, Xiaolang approached me to teach Fajar Sec GB... I immediately turned it down... Thinking back I shouldn't have done that, maybe I should have thought through it 1st... Haiyo...
Anywayz, wad's done cannot be undone... I'm not blamng anyone, espeacially not "Freddy" & Dreamerz... But it was a funny thing to remember... I know the P1 gers will remember that also =p
The phobia of leading girls... I remember once upon a time when I was in Sec 2...
I was to assist Dreamerz n "Freddy", only to ASSIST... They were doing outdoor cooking and were ready to do area cleaning...
"Freddy" n Dreamerz dared me to fall them in for area cleaning so being the confident guy who doesn't knows his own strength I went for it...
"Ok all fall in" I yelled "HUH?" the girls shouted in unison...
Dreamerz was ended up scolded badly by Ms Sherine, the gers crowded around dem and I was too embarrased to do anything... I think I could remember what Ms Sherine shouted @ Dreamerz...
"... Jun wen come here! Leonard is only here to help, and my girls are very disciplined why need to fall in...." and to the gers "...what are you all oing here?!?! I thought I asked Jun wen to come?..." UNQUOTE, I dun remember exactly what she yelled but poor dreamerz...
Well... from den I got a very bad phobia of teaching... next day I was suppose to come for a lesson to help out but I slept through it... I got a big lecture from Mr. See, I believe Ms Sherine told him and from den own I was never close to the girls... =x
Until recently, I had already shooked off the shadows of living under the fear, Xiaolang approached me to teach Fajar Sec GB... I immediately turned it down... Thinking back I shouldn't have done that, maybe I should have thought through it 1st... Haiyo...
Anywayz, wad's done cannot be undone... I'm not blamng anyone, espeacially not "Freddy" & Dreamerz... But it was a funny thing to remember... I know the P1 gers will remember that also =p
Blooper!!!!
Hahax... Today was fun,
Well, start off my day with driving... nice plan that God had...
Instructor lst minute change to meet in sembawang :)
Went to delifrance to eat nice sandwich... Lady @ the counter not bad.. >_<
Saw the boys.... TL was the same playful and full of nonsense boy...
Went to meet the gang and rode in the 13-seater cab to Jiaying's and Luda's wedding. Nice... a bit warm... I mean very warm...
The wedding wasn't what I expected... It was kinda more than wad I thought it would be after attending Mr. Jeffrey and Mr. Alan's before... Wasn't as smooth running though, hiccups here and there especially with the Pastors, no rehearsal perhaps. Well, we had nice laughs it was all well.
The buffet reception for the wedding was really really grand... At least to me... Kinda pity the bride and groom... Stood throughout the whole ceremony and den last to eat, I even dared Qiusong to *kop some food from the table... =p
After the wedding we were all full and started to make fun of each other... Damn it... I DO NOT LIKE SHERZZZ.... No insult to Sherzzz, u're not my type and you won't like me either =x (as some1 special that is...) Good to be frens though :)
Xiaolang and Xiaohua kena *suan like dunno wad.... SQ was so caught up with flirtin with the Garnish, Maincourse and Dessert that Beng and co were shouting @ him...
Went for pool @ CWP... after that we search high n low for tat little flower.... SQ *hum to go into neo-print shop but kept on say he saw her there... I went in & out to check it out but nv see any flower... =p
The damn escalator @ level 2 spoilt... me, SQ n QS took a detour out to carpark, I saw the EXIT SIGN and led them into the flight of stairs... QS kept saying door will not open den just as we reach the last door it couldn't open..... =p
We climbed up n down and tried the doors but den we were just stucked... It was like soooo embarassing... We called the flower to come "rescue" us... Thank God in the end some1 opened the door for us... So embarassing... To think I led the expedition so well in sec 1/2..
Well, start off my day with driving... nice plan that God had...
Instructor lst minute change to meet in sembawang :)
Went to delifrance to eat nice sandwich... Lady @ the counter not bad.. >_<
Saw the boys.... TL was the same playful and full of nonsense boy...
Went to meet the gang and rode in the 13-seater cab to Jiaying's and Luda's wedding. Nice... a bit warm... I mean very warm...
The wedding wasn't what I expected... It was kinda more than wad I thought it would be after attending Mr. Jeffrey and Mr. Alan's before... Wasn't as smooth running though, hiccups here and there especially with the Pastors, no rehearsal perhaps. Well, we had nice laughs it was all well.
The buffet reception for the wedding was really really grand... At least to me... Kinda pity the bride and groom... Stood throughout the whole ceremony and den last to eat, I even dared Qiusong to *kop some food from the table... =p
After the wedding we were all full and started to make fun of each other... Damn it... I DO NOT LIKE SHERZZZ.... No insult to Sherzzz, u're not my type and you won't like me either =x (as some1 special that is...) Good to be frens though :)
Xiaolang and Xiaohua kena *suan like dunno wad.... SQ was so caught up with flirtin with the Garnish, Maincourse and Dessert that Beng and co were shouting @ him...
Went for pool @ CWP... after that we search high n low for tat little flower.... SQ *hum to go into neo-print shop but kept on say he saw her there... I went in & out to check it out but nv see any flower... =p
The damn escalator @ level 2 spoilt... me, SQ n QS took a detour out to carpark, I saw the EXIT SIGN and led them into the flight of stairs... QS kept saying door will not open den just as we reach the last door it couldn't open..... =p
We climbed up n down and tried the doors but den we were just stucked... It was like soooo embarassing... We called the flower to come "rescue" us... Thank God in the end some1 opened the door for us... So embarassing... To think I led the expedition so well in sec 1/2..
Wednesday, February 23, 2005
Can guys cry?
If guys are not suppose to cry then I think Leora's fit to cry....
I dunno why... but I feel so depressed... There's something missing in my life that everyone seems to be having... sob*
Off to cry....
I dunno why... but I feel so depressed... There's something missing in my life that everyone seems to be having... sob*
Off to cry....
Tuesday, February 22, 2005
What is Your will?
I've been confused recently...
What is God's will for ne in the present course I'm in? I do not seem to have a stable outcome from it, I am seeking and searching all the time. Is it for me to reach out? For me to grow? Or just a place where I belong?
I just don't understand. I sometimes wish to quit this course. It'll be a waste of my parents money.
Today just went to ask if there's any part-time courses for nursing or physiotherapy but there isn't, there are some certification courses but it's for those nurses and general practitioners.
I don't know why but I feel a lot of tension among my class, from the girls, they guys, and the guys....
I really envy Thong's and KWO's classes, even SQ... Dunno bout JY but I'm sure they're better off then me. It's really time for a change, I'd figured that at this stage, it's very difficult to change a person's beliefs and characteristics so I don't think it's really up to me to do the job of reaching out to them...
If being truthul to them gonna make them hate me so much then I think let it be... Once I get back my book from you den it's through...
I think I'm @ a low point of my life now, I still have a ministry to serve in but my basic staple is so not set.... So unclear...
I really need to seek God's will. Brothers and Sisters, please pray for me, I'm feeling very lost right now.
What is God's will for ne in the present course I'm in? I do not seem to have a stable outcome from it, I am seeking and searching all the time. Is it for me to reach out? For me to grow? Or just a place where I belong?
I just don't understand. I sometimes wish to quit this course. It'll be a waste of my parents money.
Today just went to ask if there's any part-time courses for nursing or physiotherapy but there isn't, there are some certification courses but it's for those nurses and general practitioners.
I don't know why but I feel a lot of tension among my class, from the girls, they guys, and the guys....
I really envy Thong's and KWO's classes, even SQ... Dunno bout JY but I'm sure they're better off then me. It's really time for a change, I'd figured that at this stage, it's very difficult to change a person's beliefs and characteristics so I don't think it's really up to me to do the job of reaching out to them...
If being truthul to them gonna make them hate me so much then I think let it be... Once I get back my book from you den it's through...
I think I'm @ a low point of my life now, I still have a ministry to serve in but my basic staple is so not set.... So unclear...
I really need to seek God's will. Brothers and Sisters, please pray for me, I'm feeling very lost right now.
Thursday, February 17, 2005
Restless...
After being so tired for so long, it's time I find out why...
Yeap, it's the lifestyle of poly... Eat, got to school, spend time on comp and sleep late....
That's like the routine of my life now... Ever since I got to poly...
I got no time for excercise actually... Wish I can... so sianz... no discipline... Any1 wans to join me to go gym or play sports?
I was so blessed this birthday... Although it's my last year being a teen, I feel like its too fast... actually we feel old, not as strong/fast/playful as before...
zzz... about 2.5 weeks nv go karaoke liao... a bit itchy... Hui kept asking when i free, go sing... haiz... no money... any1 sponsoring me?
27th march! Ice skating, Glory Joy Youth Fellowship, all are welcome, more details pls msg me :)
Got to excercise more!!!
Yeap, it's the lifestyle of poly... Eat, got to school, spend time on comp and sleep late....
That's like the routine of my life now... Ever since I got to poly...
I got no time for excercise actually... Wish I can... so sianz... no discipline... Any1 wans to join me to go gym or play sports?
I was so blessed this birthday... Although it's my last year being a teen, I feel like its too fast... actually we feel old, not as strong/fast/playful as before...
zzz... about 2.5 weeks nv go karaoke liao... a bit itchy... Hui kept asking when i free, go sing... haiz... no money... any1 sponsoring me?
27th march! Ice skating, Glory Joy Youth Fellowship, all are welcome, more details pls msg me :)
Got to excercise more!!!
Tuesday, February 15, 2005
Monday, February 14, 2005
Calling for help...
Hmm, ppl say tat bloggin are just what u're writing to show ppl... In some case yeah... but then who noes? maybe tat's the real you?
Anyways... I feel that it could be a call for help? a place to show expression? to vent anger? hu noes man... God might use us to testify in blogs?
Calling for help here...
It's been a tough struggle for me to confesss to my parents tat I'm a Christian. Even my bro thinks that I'm faking..(or at least he's not taking it seriously)
I'm blaming it on myself coz alot of times I wasn't a good testimony to my parents for God.. I been very tired lately, I thank God for the CNY break so I had rest.
Ever since I got the job @ JJRG I haven't been slping early, coz i been using the comp for seriously long hours... I dunno if I'm addicted but I just think I dun have the discipline to stop myself...
This is wad my dad dislike the most...
2ndly I keep spending $$ without thinking.... and my mum hates that....
3rdly I've been skipping lessons, slping in lectures, not doing assignments, copy homework/pjts... Very very bad testimonial to classmates...
Also since I was the more "techie" guy in class, I helped hacked NYP's comp and taught my class how to use MSN in sch while the tutor was teaching... Suddenly pirated games was alright to me and I even taught my frens how to crack free games from trials...
Looking back on all theses I feel really ashamed... I'm calling for help here that may my sis n bros in Christ help pray for me...
I'm also taking my practical driving test on 11th june... I'm thinking of quitin my job and help my mum after I got my licence. It appears that my manager does not want me to quit and I can see why... I also felt that it was God's calling for the 3 of us to work there, since our boss is a Christian, our manager and fellow worker attends cell and the fact that the area has many many Christians.
Pray for me:
Discipline/Self-control to shine for Jesus
Courage and strength to tell my parents
Alertness and humbleness to know, admit and correct my mistakes.
Pray for my class, that they'll be less corrupt, grow closer and be more normal.
Pray fot JJRG that they'll be blessed by God, and that God will provide.
Do pray for me...
Anyways... I feel that it could be a call for help? a place to show expression? to vent anger? hu noes man... God might use us to testify in blogs?
Calling for help here...
It's been a tough struggle for me to confesss to my parents tat I'm a Christian. Even my bro thinks that I'm faking..(or at least he's not taking it seriously)
I'm blaming it on myself coz alot of times I wasn't a good testimony to my parents for God.. I been very tired lately, I thank God for the CNY break so I had rest.
Ever since I got the job @ JJRG I haven't been slping early, coz i been using the comp for seriously long hours... I dunno if I'm addicted but I just think I dun have the discipline to stop myself...
This is wad my dad dislike the most...
2ndly I keep spending $$ without thinking.... and my mum hates that....
3rdly I've been skipping lessons, slping in lectures, not doing assignments, copy homework/pjts... Very very bad testimonial to classmates...
Also since I was the more "techie" guy in class, I helped hacked NYP's comp and taught my class how to use MSN in sch while the tutor was teaching... Suddenly pirated games was alright to me and I even taught my frens how to crack free games from trials...
Looking back on all theses I feel really ashamed... I'm calling for help here that may my sis n bros in Christ help pray for me...
I'm also taking my practical driving test on 11th june... I'm thinking of quitin my job and help my mum after I got my licence. It appears that my manager does not want me to quit and I can see why... I also felt that it was God's calling for the 3 of us to work there, since our boss is a Christian, our manager and fellow worker attends cell and the fact that the area has many many Christians.
Pray for me:
Discipline/Self-control to shine for Jesus
Courage and strength to tell my parents
Alertness and humbleness to know, admit and correct my mistakes.
Pray for my class, that they'll be less corrupt, grow closer and be more normal.
Pray fot JJRG that they'll be blessed by God, and that God will provide.
Do pray for me...
Saturday, February 12, 2005
10-12 feb
time really flies...
10 feb:
went to jon's place for exclusive Judah cell BBQ... kinda sian coz whole week BBQ/steamboat liao...
never slp through out the nite, onli nap 1hr 7 in the morn... was sent back to sec 1 days...
we were playing carrom, playing heroes... kinda like when we were back being sec 1s again.
(we old liao)
11 feb:
from the whole Judah cell left with me, beng and the owner of the house(i mean room).
we cleared up and left for home in Jon's dad's Mercedes Benz.
Den we meet up @ ms. Sherine's place and Jadyn was like glued to Jon... Yi Jian Zhong Qing?? Haha.. got our ang baos! so left for Constantine... nice show, not suitable for those not strong in faith ba(or new in faith) coz a bit confusing and also IT"S NOT A TRUE SHOW... kinda crappy from my point of view... I think the reason Constantine didn't went to Heaven was not because he didn't believe, but he pointed his finger @ Lucifer so he sinned just as he was goin to heaven.. lolz.
After the show was more ang bao collection! Went to beng's hse.. Kaoz... so much food.... and BAH KWA!!! but kinda spicy so didn't ate much...
Den it was Jes's place.. ate dinner there, got more ang bao... Sianz... tio shoot... C'mon guys, I was just kidding about Sherzz... Where got dare to fight wif Dreamerz? =x
Den it was ekabon's hse, played puzzle bobble(not a bad game for multiplayer!) and we went to watch I do I do... almost slept during the commercials, I think the gals woke me up... yea, damn funny show... Ah nan was so ah gua tat I can't stop laughing when I think of it!
After that we left for home.. wow... damn tired... went to slp direct man...
feb 12
woke up @ 3pm... now rushin my C++ proj... I'm dead meat... wish I can dun work... ask yong to do something bout it.... but it looks like I'm dead meat... God, pls help...
10 feb:
went to jon's place for exclusive Judah cell BBQ... kinda sian coz whole week BBQ/steamboat liao...
never slp through out the nite, onli nap 1hr 7 in the morn... was sent back to sec 1 days...
we were playing carrom, playing heroes... kinda like when we were back being sec 1s again.
(we old liao)
11 feb:
from the whole Judah cell left with me, beng and the owner of the house(i mean room).
we cleared up and left for home in Jon's dad's Mercedes Benz.
Den we meet up @ ms. Sherine's place and Jadyn was like glued to Jon... Yi Jian Zhong Qing?? Haha.. got our ang baos! so left for Constantine... nice show, not suitable for those not strong in faith ba(or new in faith) coz a bit confusing and also IT"S NOT A TRUE SHOW... kinda crappy from my point of view... I think the reason Constantine didn't went to Heaven was not because he didn't believe, but he pointed his finger @ Lucifer so he sinned just as he was goin to heaven.. lolz.
After the show was more ang bao collection! Went to beng's hse.. Kaoz... so much food.... and BAH KWA!!! but kinda spicy so didn't ate much...
Den it was Jes's place.. ate dinner there, got more ang bao... Sianz... tio shoot... C'mon guys, I was just kidding about Sherzz... Where got dare to fight wif Dreamerz? =x
Den it was ekabon's hse, played puzzle bobble(not a bad game for multiplayer!) and we went to watch I do I do... almost slept during the commercials, I think the gals woke me up... yea, damn funny show... Ah nan was so ah gua tat I can't stop laughing when I think of it!
After that we left for home.. wow... damn tired... went to slp direct man...
feb 12
woke up @ 3pm... now rushin my C++ proj... I'm dead meat... wish I can dun work... ask yong to do something bout it.... but it looks like I'm dead meat... God, pls help...
Thursday, February 10, 2005
Happy Chinese New Year!!!
Yeah! ang paos, BBQs, food, drinks and BAH KWA!!!
Lot's and lot's of BAH KWA!!! Yuum! hehehe =p'''''
yea, but it's also a time of trial and testings.... Yesterday mum asked me to light joss stick and burn joss paper for her.. I stood firm and said NO. Yeap I said no...
Hooray for God! but sob for me... my called me AxxHxxx... and said I was so useless... But I didn't mind...
Yeap.. finally some1 with the same though as me....
This dear sis sort of got me back into thinking "why blog?" yea... Why show ur diary to the whole world? Yeap... just like what I first thought. At 1st I was heading towards my "story" line of approach... but then I needed alot of time and inspiration to blog one of it...
Anywayz, now I noe why ppl like to blog, to offload whatever frustration, whatever stress and troubles into the boundless web and leave them feeling fresh after their bloggings...
At least that's why I blog... :)
Lot's and lot's of BAH KWA!!! Yuum! hehehe =p'''''
yea, but it's also a time of trial and testings.... Yesterday mum asked me to light joss stick and burn joss paper for her.. I stood firm and said NO. Yeap I said no...
Hooray for God! but sob for me... my called me AxxHxxx... and said I was so useless... But I didn't mind...
Yeap.. finally some1 with the same though as me....
This dear sis sort of got me back into thinking "why blog?" yea... Why show ur diary to the whole world? Yeap... just like what I first thought. At 1st I was heading towards my "story" line of approach... but then I needed alot of time and inspiration to blog one of it...
Anywayz, now I noe why ppl like to blog, to offload whatever frustration, whatever stress and troubles into the boundless web and leave them feeling fresh after their bloggings...
At least that's why I blog... :)
Sunday, February 06, 2005
God loves to play...
God is very playful...
why? coz He plays me.. almost all the time...
Is it wrong to compliment that others are pretty? Then why the hell do people misunderstand?? kaoz, say ppl pretty also kena "suan" that I like others....
Den is it wrong to like someone?? Yea so what if I liked her before? Now's a different case... Kaoz... treat me as if I desperate like dunno wad... I wanna take pic of "you" meh? siao... Now I know God's reason...
Kaoz.. He really plays me alot.. JJRG never every have busy nights when I'm around... Only today when the guys came then started working like mad... Work nvm, den I had to spill the damn ILT on that customer!!! kaoz eh...
Den Lau say nvm, spill more.. coz it's his old colleague... super sianz... told me that the guy was C's ex... and was her dream guy!!! kaoz eh... No wonder she so so so mad at me... but then she's married already wad... why like tat???
Haiz... God loves to play.. tat's all I can say...
Tues morn learn driving, noon go bowling = spent man many $$$
Wed BBQ at home... dunno wad to do... at nite...
Thurs nite at Jonnehneh place... think is overnite....
Hope God can play less and help me more =x
no lah.. all theses are just complains and rantings... gtg...
why? coz He plays me.. almost all the time...
Is it wrong to compliment that others are pretty? Then why the hell do people misunderstand?? kaoz, say ppl pretty also kena "suan" that I like others....
Den is it wrong to like someone?? Yea so what if I liked her before? Now's a different case... Kaoz... treat me as if I desperate like dunno wad... I wanna take pic of "you" meh? siao... Now I know God's reason...
Kaoz.. He really plays me alot.. JJRG never every have busy nights when I'm around... Only today when the guys came then started working like mad... Work nvm, den I had to spill the damn ILT on that customer!!! kaoz eh...
Den Lau say nvm, spill more.. coz it's his old colleague... super sianz... told me that the guy was C's ex... and was her dream guy!!! kaoz eh... No wonder she so so so mad at me... but then she's married already wad... why like tat???
Haiz... God loves to play.. tat's all I can say...
Tues morn learn driving, noon go bowling = spent man many $$$
Wed BBQ at home... dunno wad to do... at nite...
Thurs nite at Jonnehneh place... think is overnite....
Hope God can play less and help me more =x
no lah.. all theses are just complains and rantings... gtg...
Saturday, February 05, 2005
I Love Febuary!!!
Woot! Feb is my favourite month! But then it's so short :(
For one thing, a lot of ppl I noe born in feb :) My bro (2nd), me (15th), Dreamerz (6th), Fred (8th?) and I think there's a few more...
Then there's CNY, just nice everytime go collect Ang Bao will get double because will clash with our Chinese birthday :)
Well, just came back from Ang Bao collecting... guess it'll chip in for my driving lessons.. dunno whether enough or not, maybe use it for booking circuit den gone liao :(
Driving instructor tua me today... caused me to miss parade but den he sent his car for servicing, i think kena accident =x nvm, next week ba :)
For one thing, a lot of ppl I noe born in feb :) My bro (2nd), me (15th), Dreamerz (6th), Fred (8th?) and I think there's a few more...
Then there's CNY, just nice everytime go collect Ang Bao will get double because will clash with our Chinese birthday :)
Well, just came back from Ang Bao collecting... guess it'll chip in for my driving lessons.. dunno whether enough or not, maybe use it for booking circuit den gone liao :(
Driving instructor tua me today... caused me to miss parade but den he sent his car for servicing, i think kena accident =x nvm, next week ba :)
Thursday, February 03, 2005
Wonderful day today (2/2/05)
Wow... driving was sooooooooooo fun!!! Clutch, brake, gas.... change gear, look here look there, turn steering wheel... shiok man!!!
1st lesson only drove from marsiling all the way to sembawang den back home and den back to sembawang and back home again... SHIOK ARHHHHHH....
Haiz... recently my dear fren "li jia chu zhou" and called me to accompany her... So rushed down to see her after work...
"Machium" in the TV series like that... family prob and boyfren prob... den we chit-chat til 3am... Kaoz that really left me thinking hard on wad Ekabon and Dreamerz posted...
Sianz... they are so right... but I find it sooooo hard to accept that are no perfect or at least close to perfect relationships... I look at it as a very possible thing loh... If only both are strong in Christ ba...
I'm not saying that the ppl they have blogged are not strong.... Maybe need to understand that it's a stage for us to learn... Guess we can't take it seriously unless we know it's serious (wad da heck toking me?)...
Haiz, anywayz I finally got her to go home after so much toking... singing songs, taking photos... Caused me to miss class that morning... Bros n Sis(s) pls pray for this dear fren...
Though she's attending church but she have not accepted yet... She also stopped cell grp le... Can also see seh starting to have church hopping habit...
In other news, my new pet(recently caught praying mantis) have escaped!!!! Kaoz... after went online to study about how to rear praying mantis den I saw it's not in the cage... Sianz, now I have a "spiritually sound" carnivorous insect on the loose in my house...
Kekeke... now starting to learn to spent small, not needed immediate can dun buy.. Ever since I feel the pressure of finding $$ for driving lessons den I know the pain of not having $$, guess God will provide :)
Tag me guys/gals on my new tagboard!
hmm... Second Febuary! Happy birthday to my brother!!!
1st lesson only drove from marsiling all the way to sembawang den back home and den back to sembawang and back home again... SHIOK ARHHHHHH....
Haiz... recently my dear fren "li jia chu zhou" and called me to accompany her... So rushed down to see her after work...
"Machium" in the TV series like that... family prob and boyfren prob... den we chit-chat til 3am... Kaoz that really left me thinking hard on wad Ekabon and Dreamerz posted...
Sianz... they are so right... but I find it sooooo hard to accept that are no perfect or at least close to perfect relationships... I look at it as a very possible thing loh... If only both are strong in Christ ba...
I'm not saying that the ppl they have blogged are not strong.... Maybe need to understand that it's a stage for us to learn... Guess we can't take it seriously unless we know it's serious (wad da heck toking me?)...
Haiz, anywayz I finally got her to go home after so much toking... singing songs, taking photos... Caused me to miss class that morning... Bros n Sis(s) pls pray for this dear fren...
Though she's attending church but she have not accepted yet... She also stopped cell grp le... Can also see seh starting to have church hopping habit...
In other news, my new pet(recently caught praying mantis) have escaped!!!! Kaoz... after went online to study about how to rear praying mantis den I saw it's not in the cage... Sianz, now I have a "spiritually sound" carnivorous insect on the loose in my house...
Kekeke... now starting to learn to spent small, not needed immediate can dun buy.. Ever since I feel the pressure of finding $$ for driving lessons den I know the pain of not having $$, guess God will provide :)
Tag me guys/gals on my new tagboard!
hmm... Second Febuary! Happy birthday to my brother!!!
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